Chapter 271

Although I didn't answer him, I told myself countless times in my heart that it was worth it.

Just don't know is to forget or continue to wait for the day inside some suffering.

He asked me, "if I had been chosen, would it not have been like this?"

I laughed, "you know I don't have a choice, so there won't be those impossible ifs."

He had no choice but to get up. He sighed and said, "he should be back soon. He contacted me before and asked me about you."

I nodded, he came back, that is, the matter is settled, but he did not say to me, I do not know how to ask.

We know that what we lack in each other is mutual understanding and tolerance, but we still refuse to compromise and change. That's why we are so strange in love because of this sudden thing.

I sometimes wonder why he should do cold treatment instead of helping each other like others. Is it so unbelievable?

But on second thought, it seems that I can understand that his unique feature is not here.

Or maybe he has a problem I don't know?

Xiao Song said, "the Bai family started it. Gu Songhai gave up Lu Susu. Now Lu Susu is desperate and has left. As for where he has gone, I don't know. I believe Gu zisong will solve it."

He promised me that he would not do anything wrong to me, but I still chose to believe it.

I smile, a lot of good mood, I said, "I'm too busy recently, can't sleep well, in fact, there is nothing between me and him."

Xiao Song sneered, shook his head, a face of disbelief, "normal lovers should not be like you, right? I don't know why he did it, and I don't know why you were so obedient. When something happened, he disappeared. When you were what? Don't you have a phone? You should get in touch with each other very well. At the beginning of your divorce, even if you hide yourself, he can go to you. But why do you want to be like this now and treat each other coldly? "

I'm also strange. I can't figure it out. Maybe I just listen to him too much?

Sometimes I think it's not a bad thing for some people to laugh.

Xiao Song got up and looked out of the window. He didn't know what he was thinking. After a long time, he said, "I'm waiting for you outside. The doctor hasn't left yet. You've all come. It's better to talk to the doctor."

I was stunned for a while, looking at the time, it was more than seven o'clock in the evening, but the doctor didn't get off work. I'm sorry to say, "I'm so sorry, OK, call the doctor in, and finish work soon."

Xiao Song looked back at me with heartache on his face, just like I had an incurable disease.

I want to explain something, but in fact I'm really good, just sleep is not good, but today's sleep is really wonderful.

When the doctor came in, I didn't pay much attention to his appearance before he came. At this time, he looked like an ordinary person. He threw him into the crowd and couldn't distinguish him. He wore a very loose white coat and blue suit pants and nodded to me. He sat on the stool opposite me in a very lazy posture. That stool should be his usual position. He sat down, I found my comfortable position.

He had a sip of tea before he said, "did you sleep well?"

I'm embarrassed to smile and say, "good. I've had the best sleep recently."

He nodded, thought for a moment, and said, "I'm glad I can make you so relaxed here."

Relax? I've always been very relaxed, but I've been very tired recently.

He said directly, "after listening to Mr. Xiao's introduction, I found that you have some nightmares in your heart, right? But I didn't find your nightmare when you fell asleep just now. Can you tell me something about it? "

I didn't want to say it, but in front of the psychiatrist, I didn't say it was in vain? I'm suspicious by nature. I don't believe anyone. I'm afraid I can't tell which one is true and which one is false. But in the face of the doctor, I still hesitated.

He didn't urge me, just wait for me to speak.

But I don't want to.

I also sit quietly, we are like two enemies, face to face waiting for each other to take out weapons.

In this way, I still did not say anything, from here.

After coming out, Xiao Song said he wanted to buy me a drink, but I refused. By the way, he called Wang Duo, my only trusted friend and the only one who wants to be close to me recently.

Xiao Song still wanted to follow, but I refused.

He insisted on seeing me to the door of the bar. When he saw Wang Duo coming, he decided to leave.

After a while, Xiao Song said to me, "Gu zisong has difficulties, you also have difficulties, you should think, why do you become like this, is it your problem or his problem?"

I

I do not understand his words, staring at his face inexplicably melancholy up.

There is no problem between Gu zisong and me, but we need to be calm. His special situation and diligent contact with me are not good for him and me, and I promised him to wait, even if I had forgotten him before he came back, we would not blame each other, right?Why do people around me think it's a great thing?

I want to catch up and ask him why, Wang Duo called me, "people are gone, want to ask back, let's go in?"

I nodded and couldn't understand Xiao Song's words, so I asked Wang Duo, "do you think so, too?"

Wang Duo laughs, pulls me in and sits on the card. Through the still quiet music, she talks about the doubts of everyone recently.

"Sister Lou, in my opinion, the normal relationship between men and women is to keep in touch all the time. You see, there's something wrong with President Gu. You don't care. Did you break up?"

I am a Zheng, "ah?"

"If not, why are you so calm? Do you really love him? Or do you have conflicts and are you calm down? Or, Mr. Gu, something really serious happened, so you didn't contact each other? Hiss% How to say, anyway, the performance between you is like a stranger, too calm, and you are very bad recently, which makes people worried. "

Is that right?

I recently work, three companies back and forth, busy heel hit the back of the head, have no time to eat, rarely go to exercise, except for work, I have no mind, only occasionally feel sad, think of him intermittently, think of his promise to me, with nightmare entanglement, I sleep not well, but recently has slowed down a lot, this is not very good Do you live a normal life?

I said, "what's wrong, isn't it normal? He told me to wait, so I waited. He's in a special situation now. You know, I don't want to contact more. What's wrong? You see my eyes are very strange, Xiao Song also came back, just for me? "

Wang Duo had no choice but to take a breath, and then said, "elder sister, look at yourself, look at the time, look at the clothes you are wearing."

I don't understand.

I look in the mirror, he is a lot thinner, a tired face, dry hair, black eyes, this is not no rest good? Time? It's more than ten o'clock in the evening. We are in the bar. We are busy. I'm still drinking my favorite wine, my clothes

Summer?

In a flash, it's been eight months.

I've been separated from him for eight months.

Wang Duo pulled my wrist and asked me, "are you sick? It's been more than eight months. He's gone for more than eight months. What are you doing? We asked you many times. You said you didn't break up, but look at these news. Don't you pay attention to them? "

She held up the phone and delivered it to me angrily.

Suddenly, a news page, in bold, looks like blood. "The reason behind Gu zisong, the eldest son of Gu's group, came back many times and pretended to be married. Today, another engagement news broke out, but it's Bai Xin, the adopted daughter of his mother's distant relatives. Is it true or false this time?"

Coax

Thunder rolling, sunny outside, inside the bar, the music is still gentle, but my brain is still roaring and exploding.

What's the matter? It's not true. It's not.

Why is it eight months in an instant? It's only three months. It's not spring. It's midsummer. Where did I go when I didn't realize it? This That's true. Why am I a little confused?

Wang Duo's voice is stuffy, still holding me, trying to make me hear clearly, "Mr. Gu didn't go at all, you know, he has been in the city, just hiding. He did a good job in the Bai family, but he didn't know why he suddenly announced the news of his marriage with Bai Xin, and it was true, but he didn't know why you didn't pay attention. What were you thinking? Are you really sick? Wake up, sister

That's why Li Yi asked me if I need to be careful when I go to Gu's group. Is it because I'm worried about meeting Gu zisong?

Xiao Liu nodded in embarrassment when he met me many times. I knew everything. I thought he wanted to ask me about Gu zisong.

I kept it a secret. I did a good job. I kept all the information about Gu zisong secret. I didn't want him to have an accident.

Xiao Song also asked me whether it was worth doing so. He wondered if I was used by Gu zisong again, so was the news of marriage false?

No, he knows. It's true. It's just that Gu zisong cheated me again, right?

I'm in a mess, suddenly I'm very cold, and the Wang Duo in front of me is not clear.

What's the matter with me? Am I really ill? Did you deliberately ignore all the news about Gu zisong?

Eight months, I spent in a muddle, I'm really going crazy.

I ran out of the bar in a panic. The outside was still empty, filled with rare stars. The beautiful women were wearing skirts with few materials and good-looking high-heeled shoes. It was summer. It was already this time. What was I thinking about for eight months?

Wang Duo chased out and continued to tell me loudly, "eight months, everything you do is wrong. We all help you deal with it silently behind your back. We thought that you were lovelorn, but we didn't expect that it would be eight months. I thought you were pretending to be stupid. Didn't you really know? Sister, you tell me! What can I do to make you normal? "I cover half a brain, I don't believe it's true, every time I go crazy, I'm not sick, I, I just feel very painful, very painful, I

I screamed, lost, disappointed, out of control, like a moment to hold up all my strength shell, a moment violent open, revealing my inside weak ugly body.

In an instant, all the pictures jumped up to me.

I often make mistakes in my work. I giggle at meetings, cry suddenly, and walk around on the road out of control. My parents cry and beg me to go back, but I can't hear them.

I have nothing but illusory in front of my eyes.

I, I'm sick!

I cried bitterly, holding Wang Duo's hand and praying for her to send me to the hospital. I don't want to be like this. I want to be normal. I don't want to be a madman that others are afraid of.

Wang Duo held me in his arms, cried with me and told me in a loud voice, "you've come back at last, haven't you? Eight months. You don't know how worried we are. Elder sister, that man is not worth it. It's really not worth it. "