Chapter 272

Two days, I was in the doctor's clinic, basic necessities of life, I was afraid that when I went out, I would become the fool who disguised myself as a powerful woman, I need to be normal.

I always thought that there would be no mental breakdown in my life, but who would have thought that I was tortured by my fantasy for eight months.

I can't remember whether the last call with Gu zisong was true or false.

At this time, the doctor sat in front of me, patiently watching me reading, keeping a diary, occasionally taking out a CD I like, playing slow music.

The doctor is a young man who likes happy music. He always says that his age is fixed in the year of nineteen, so he hasn't changed all the music since that year. He's only nineteen years old. It's so long.

He is intentionally or unintentionally guiding me to come out. I also try my best to cooperate, but it's very difficult.

Especially when I'm left with myself.

I will hold myself tight for fear that the nightmare will haunt me again.

A few days later, on a rainy night, the doctor came to see me and made his best pancake. It tasted good. I ate a lot and drank a large bottle of juice.

I talked about the nightmare of not being entangled for a long time, and how I got to this day. I told him everything I remembered, including how I lived a second time.

He only listens quietly. I don't know if he believes it, but it doesn't matter. What I need is someone to listen in, so that I can be released, even if he believes it.

After a long time, he suddenly asked me, "do you still miss him?"

I thought he was talking about Gu zisong. I said with a smile sincerely, "I don't know whether the phone call was true or false. I'm thinking and waiting. I guess I'll figure it out in the near future, so I won't wait, will I?"

He shook his head. "I mean Jiang Lin and your children."

This

That child is Jiang Lin's and my child, but it's also my child.

The child is innocent.

I said, "if I can survive and the child is OK, then I think I will stay, but you ask me if I want to, I don't know, Jiang Lin is no longer important to me, but when I get better, I will go to him to settle accounts. His parents died wrongly."

The doctor nodded, silent for a while and said, "maybe the problem is with him. All the crux is him. Ask yourself why you were so obsessed with him at the beginning?"

I

I can't answer it. I forgot.

The doctor said, "think hard. You still think. What attracted you to Jiang Lin at that time, so that you blinded yourself for so many years in your last life. When you got married, you couldn't see him clearly? Or do you have this disease in your last life? "

I'm in a trance, so many things have happened in my last life or in this life, but the order and direction are different, right?

This thing that can't be explained by science can't be explained by normal logic, right?

But the last life does not exist, how do I think, I

The doctor handed me a cup of milk tea, "I'll go to bed early after drinking. You can think about it. Oh, I didn't put sugar."

Milk tea?

I looked at the milk tea in his hand in amazement. Gu zisong had given it to me before, and he also said it was helpful for sleep.

After the doctor left, I shrank into a ball, holding the gradually losing temperature of milk tea, carefully thinking.

In my last life, I worked very hard to live, open my own company, and help Jiang Lin. he told me Indifferent, hot and cold, take a lot of my business, my money, my feelings, my body, and my children.

I

Coax!

I don't know when there will be thunder outside. I'm so scared that I lock my neck. It seems that many pictures rush into my mind.

In fact, I had a bad life in my last life.

I always brainwash myself and say how good Jiang Lin is to me. I tell myself that he did it for a reason. But in fact, during endless waiting and chasing, we quarreled. He even hit me and even pointed to my nose to tell me that he didn't love me and told me to go away. But every time something happened, he would get drunk and ask me to forgive him again and again.

I was tortured by him crazy, I work harder, know that he is not suitable, but still can not escape his prayer for me.

At that time, he was in love with me, but Jiang Lin was too eager to succeed, and he couldn't get rid of Shang yunyun. Between me and Shang yunyun, he swayed from side to side, and he was also in pain.

So, before I died, the vague scene I saw was also true.

Jiang Lin pinches Shang yunyun's neck. The things in the tent spill all over the ground. It's not only me and the children, but also Shang yunyun who has been strangled. Where is Jiang Lin? I don't know

For a year and a half, I couldn't tell which one was real. I only remember that I was once again controlled by that kind of mental disease and became what I am now.But this time, it was not Jiang Lin who hurt me, but Gu zisong, whom I loved.

Yes, I remember.

Eight months ago in the evening, Shang yunyun went to me to question my child. When I got back, I called Gu zisong and asked him a lot. He only told me to wait for him and he would deal with everything. I lost control. I quarreled with him and he was quiet as if the phone was disconnected. But we still kept talking. I didn't know how much I said to hurt him, and I didn't know how much After the phone was cut off, we had no more contact.

Hurt, hurt him, hurt myself.

I was a little out of order then, wasn't I?

Does Gu zisong know? Does the people around him know?

Hard tea, only a trance of their own breast up.

It's sweet. The doctor lied to me. There's sugar in it.

I still drink up, this time I gradually sleep, no nightmare, only good, but wake up, everything is scattered.

I know why I went to today with Gu zisong. It was a very late night. I wanted to go to find him. He didn't tell me where he was. Then I heard Bai Xin's words on his phone and the crying of the child. I said cruel words, "Gu zisong, you don't love me, otherwise why do you want to put Bai Xin beside me? You don't love me, we break up, I don't want to let go How to explain it. "

I cried and stared at my poor self in the mirror. It was I who pushed Gu zisong away. I'm a fool.

Is marriage true?

No, it's absolutely not true. He said he would not do anything sorry to me. I believe him.

I rushed out of the hospital like crazy, and even forgot to wear shoes. The stones on the road hurt my soles. Every time I stepped on it, I felt painful.

I don't know how long I have been running around this road. It seems that the more and more clear figure in front of me is him.

I'm going to apologize and explain everything. Those hurtful words are not true.

Suddenly, there was a sharp brake sound in front of me, and the bright lights dazzled my eyes. Dong

After many deaths, I finally know what fear is. But this time, what I see is not Gu zisong, nor Xiao Song, nor my parents, but Bai Xin.

I sat up in shock. She pressed my shoulder and her eyes were as angry as two knives.

"Believe it or not, I'll suffocate you now?"

I nodded, I believe, hate me to the bone of the people are not many, she is one.

But isn't she going to marry Gu zisong now?

I said, "if you kill me, how can you marry your brother Gu? Don't you want a perfect wedding?"

She snorted, "that's why I want to save you. Who do you think will take care of you? Do you know how much you hurt when you get sick? "

What I want to know is that people around me have been hurt by me, but I don't know what I'm doing for myself when my brain is not clear.

It's just that I'm curious, why did she save me?

She threw a towel to me, the water did not wring dry, PA Ji fell on my face, sitting on the stool, angrily glared at me, after a while said: "I was on the way to save you, hit your people ran away, but I called the police, don't think I'm so bad, I hope you die early, but also won't start, I'm very tired of you."

I laughed. "Are you tired of me?"

She added, "I'm going to marry Gu, but he doesn't know about it."

I didn't ask why. Gu zisong has been hurt. I'm not surprised what he does now.

She raised her eyebrows and glared at me angrily. Then she said, "brother Gu is threatening my cousin. It's a big deal, and the caretakers won't let him. In the end, the caretakers have to take care of brother Gu. After all, brother Gu is still a caretaker, but he doesn't give up and has two children. You remind him that Shang yunyun's children are not important, so he went to take Lu away Su Su's child, to be exact, is cheating. Anyway, Gu Ge's cheating ability is very strong. Lu Su Su's stupid woman called the police, and the matter was revealed. She knew Gu Ge did it, so she canceled the police, saying it was a misunderstanding. But the police didn't let it go. My cousin didn't want to make a big deal about it, and it was suppressed after a lot of relationships. But who would have thought that a foreign reporter heard about it that year My cousin's business has been waiting for him. It attracted her attention, followed up and reported. The situation spread like this, and my uncle was arrested. Gu's family wanted to stagger the direction of public opinion, so they took advantage of my previous engagement. Now it's not too late to make trouble. At least they can protect Gu. He's safe now. Hey, I'm stupid too. Why should I tell you this? "

I look at her gratefully. I don't know whether it's thanks or just a nod?

So it seems that during my illness, Gu zisong has been on the run.

I gasped. "I've been messing up, haven't I?"

Bai Xin pursed her lips, but got up, ate the orange, and then said, "anyway, brother Gu is also for you. You said goodbye. Brother Gu doesn't believe it. He hasn't contacted you recently, has he? I used to stay with him to help take care of my cousin's children. In fact, it happened that I wanted to go back to school, but I just wanted to follow brother Gu. Lou Tong, please give brother Gu to me, OK? I'm not as bad as Lu Susu. I know I can't compare with you in many places, but I just like him. I've loved him since I was a child. You scolded me in the company that time, and brother Gu dismissed me. I thought about it at home for a long time, and I figured out that I was responsible for everything. Later, I learned that it was actually my problem. I was childish, but I can change it. You can give it to me. You see that you are sick. Your illness is hereditary. Your grandfather died here, and you will inherit it to the next generation, You, you don't want to harm brother Gu, OK? "