Chapter 642

When I didn't know how my uncle looked at our relationship, I thought I would not give up when I left, and I was worried that I couldn't get rid of myself completely. But now I know what I really want to do, I think I would just like to finish the task. I also helped my uncle to do things for qinnai, and repay him for breaking me out of my home. In addition, we have nothing to do with each other.

In this way, our relationship will become simple, help each other, rely on each other, once the relationship is over, we will be completely separated.

I can only nod my head to thank song Xiaoyu for his warning, but I can't do anything.

After hanging up the salt water in the evening, I cooked for myself. Looking at the food in the refrigerator, I didn't have any appetite. After thinking about it for a long time, I decided to invite Muran to eat together.

I thought there would be something wrong with him, but I didn't expect that my wechat was sent to him, so he replied to me, "OK, old place?"

I sent a voice in the past and said, "well, the old place, you don't have to wear clothes, we just have a meal."

He also made a voice, there came a ha ha of laughter, "I know, I know, ha ha..."

I listened to his laughter many times, and suddenly felt that he was really alive, smiling, embarrassed and shy. There were many aspects I didn't see in my life, but what about me? It seems that when I first came here, I was very fresh, but only half a year later, I became a different person.

Mature after I always hang a face without any anger, as if I live a day is very hard, but I still insist on efforts to live.

Every time I see Xiao ran, it makes me very happy. When I see his two tiger teeth, I also smile unnaturally. Two people often look at each other in this way, look at each other foolishly, smile for a while, and then turn to go inside.

The old place, the old position, this time we ate the dishes we didn't order before, two people holding rice bowls, eating the same, delicious to each other, now I don't eat much, but this time I eat a day's appetite out, finished eating also drank a cup of sour plum soup, smiling and patting their stomach, satisfied with the back of the chair, looking at each other.

He suddenly got up and said, "I'll go to the bathroom."

I smile, "OK, I'll wait for you."

He came back soon after he went. After sitting down, he told me, "I've paid. Don't give it any more. Let's go now or take a rest. Ah, we've eaten a lot. Our stomachs are round. No, we have to go out for a walk. Don't sit. It's not good for our appetite. Get up."

Lazily, I stood up, grabbed my handbag and came out with him.

He didn't ride a bike this time and said to me, "the car was stolen. There are many people stealing it from school. My car is a birthday gift from my classmate. Although it's not worth money, it's of great significance. I'll look for it again. Would you like to accompany me to see if there's my car over there?"

I became curious. There were still such things happening in school. Out of curiosity, I followed him because there was really nothing to do. We found six parking spaces for bicycles, and finally found them in the flower bed at the gate of his school. The tires were unloaded and the seats were gone.

He frowned bitterly and swore twice, "asshole."

I also look very sad, think that the back seat I'm still sitting, now it's gone, the car thief is a real jerk.

I said, "what can I do? Can I fix it?"

He shook his head, "it's all like this. It's better to buy it again if you have the money to repair the car. Carry it back to sell iron."

I laughed and came out with him. When I got to his downstairs, I looked up at this dilapidated old building with many floors. The induction lamp in it would suddenly light up because of our voice. The sudden light came to illuminate each other's faces and see each other clearly.

I don't know what I'm like now, I think he It's beautiful.

I said, "Xiao ran, you look good."

He was dazed and awkwardly raised his hand to grab his back neck for a long time and said, "I, I also want to say that. You are so good-looking. I didn't expect that you were the first one. You are also good-looking, hehe. Shall I take you back? Ah, no, I mean to take you to the school gate. "

I think it's still early, and I don't want to go back to that house. Before, I thought it was very warm where I had an uncle. Later, when I learned that my uncle thought about my position, I was a little repelled to go back. When I thought about my uncle's appearance, I would feel cold all over, and I couldn't sleep when I went back, and my uncle came back at night.

I said, "can I come to your house? I haven't seen anyone else's home

He exclaimed in amazement, "ah?"

I was shocked by his surprised appearance, and immediately explained, "I used to live in the mountains. After I came to the city, I have no friends, so I don't know what other people's homes look like. I'm just very curious. I don't mean anything else. If it's not convenient for you, let's go to other places."

He gave an Ooh, looked me in the face for a while, and asked me, "did you live in the mountains before? In the country? "

I said, "yes, I am I'm an orphan. I was adopted. "

I lied. No matter in the past or now, my identity can't be seen. Even if the man in front of me is just a passing friend, I don't want to tell him the truth. It's unbearable in the past and now. I can't open my heart to anyone. I know it's wrong, but what's right? Can I scare him by telling the truth Right?Does anyone care about right or wrong?

He frowned. It must be very difficult.

I immediately said, "no, I'm sorry. I just said that. Let's go somewhere else."

He suddenly stopped, reached for my hand and said, "wait a minute."

I was stunned.

He laughed and said to me, "you can go in, but there are a lot of people in my family, and I still have my parents, eh My sister's children are also here, so do you want to go? "

Wow, it's a big population. I thought about it and said, "well Next time. "

But he said, "it doesn't matter. I told them to avoid it. In fact, my family is very big, but the population is larger. I have my own house. I'm just preparing for the exam recently, so I live here. It's close to the school, which is convenient for me to have classes."

I nodded. There are so many people in my family. It's really wrong for me to go in. I didn't buy anything when I visited suddenly. Isn't that good? I went in empty handed without any politeness. Finally, I refused, but I said, "ah, well, next time, I'll invite your family to dinner."

He was surprised, and then he was happy, "next time you come to my house, I'll cook some time. My cooking is delicious."

I laughed. "Yes, I'll have a good taste. Let's make an appointment for next weekend. Now Why don't you go for a walk? "

He nodded with a smile, pointed to the road ahead and said, "this way, I'll take you to a good place."

He said the good place is behind the basketball court, where there is a maple leaf.

I stood in front of the maple forest.

This reminds me of the time when I was in the countryside. It was a miserable life, which could not even be called a human life. However, I lived a beautiful life all day, full of strength every day, looking forward to leaving that place. Even if I couldn't, I didn't want to be my father's daughter-in-law, and I didn't want to be beaten by my grandmother any more.

Compared with that time, my life at this time is simply a fairyland, but I have no hope at this time. I just feel that I live day by day, muddle headed, do not work hard, do not make progress, and do things without any direction, just like a fly.

He suddenly asked me, "do you like it? It's beautiful here in autumn. "

I was stunned for a while before nodding and responding, "there are many places in the mountains where I used to live. There are more growing areas than here, and because no one prunes them, they look more colorful, but I..." I want to say I don't like it, or even hate it, but I can't say it.

I turn my head and look at Xiao ran standing beside me. His good-looking eyes are full of excitement. It seems that he likes everything here and is full of hope.

I can't bear to knock the beauty in his eyes, so I said faintly, "I like it very much."

He was even more happy and introduced to me with a smile, "all the plants here were planted by us when we went to school, and those over there were planted by former students. Does it look good? When we went to school, it wasn't built yet, but there were so many students that the school arranged for us to come and help. At the beginning, we all complained. After all, we didn't do farm work, but we fell in love with it. Who doesn't love collective activities? "

I nodded, can't imagine that life, but I can read from his eyes that life is beautiful.

Xiao Ran's joys, sorrows and joys are all related to my nerves, which makes me know that he is a fresh and lovely person, but what about me?

I can't even feel sad.

When I left school, he took me around again and asked me, "do you plan to go to work when you have learned, don't you want to go to school? You've learned very well. When the time comes, I think you can be admitted to a bachelor's degree here. "

I smile, not without lofty ideals and revenge, is that I really do not know how to choose.

The purpose of my return is to help my uncle get out of the trap and find what qinnai wants. After leaving, I will choose to live in a place nobody knows, but I don't know where to go and what to do.

I used to think I was a little girl who could be a nanny. Later, I learned how to cook, wash clothes, and recognize words. Now I can speak fluent English, but I find that I can't do anything in society, even a simple interpersonal relationship.

Don't be afraid.

Xiao ran didn't notice that I was wrong. He bowed his head to talk about school and gave me advice. He told me that if he liked children, he could be a teacher. He took many pictures of children's lives and was happy to see them. However, he said that he preferred to go to school and do research, so he didn't have any spare time after work. He had been working hard all the time In his last year, he wanted to be a graduate student near the University, and then pursue a doctor's degree.

I can't think about how much he paid behind his high education. I just feel that there are many things on him that I can't get or do in my life.

He's like a light, giving me strength, just because of the direction I'm going.

I took a breath and asked him, "Xiao ran, if you were me, what would you do?"He was surprised and said, "am I you? I don't know about your past, but now I see that you are working very hard, so I want to say that if I were you, I would study hard, apply for tomorrow's school and enter the university here. After all, the social education is very important now. "

Yes, he's right. I understand, but I can't do it now.

When I came home in the evening, I lay in bed and thought about it. I thought about my headache and didn't know where I was going.

People say that one of the manifestations of human maturity is to think about one's own future, consider one's own life, at least have a pursuit, but I found that my pursuit of life is really meaningless.