Richard Parker seemed to lose his mind at the initial stage of this reincarnation. He turned to the last page.
In that blank space, write down a sentence in messy handwriting and strongly question: "Fxxx... Fxxx... What the hell are you?"
"Tell me, what the hell are you? What do you want to do? Do you want me to die? Do you want me to collapse? Do you want me to surrender to you and kneel before you for forgiveness?"
"Say it, say it."
Richard's crazy question didn't get a response. He suddenly turned his head and immediately saw that heads were crowded there through the transparent doors and windows of the escape pod, making people's bone marrow soaked with a cold grin.
"Hahaha... Hahaha..."
"Open the door, Captain, open it."
Outside the door, all Richard's subordinates gathered. Their whole faces were squashed and they stared at Richard Parker with their protruding eyes.
At the same time, he kept hitting the hatch and trying to break in.
Richard Parker, who has been tortured by reincarnation for many times, suddenly made a new decision, and time continued to accelerate.
"Richard Parker detonated the silence by modifying the device. All the astronauts died. He took an escape pod and was bounced to lomanu along the force of the explosion."
"The escape pod was damaged, survival failed, and Richard Parker died."
"Game restart!"
……
Again, the voice sounded in Tangqi's ear.
Richard Parker went back to the beginning that made him crazy again. He didn't try to stop the crew from seeing the magnificent "star burst".
In the number of reincarnations he doesn't remember, he stopped many times, but all failed without exception.
With a wooden face, he got up and came to the very familiar escape pod.
Take out the "diary" again and start turning pages. Each past page will trigger relevant memories.
In the past reincarnation, Richard Parker has tried countless times and countless possibilities.
"I can't stop the disaster, no matter what it is, some kind of radiation? Some kind of cosmic monster? Or the silence has already crashed? All these are illusions, my illusions, all of us?"
"I can't wake them up from their madness. I can't even stop my occasional madness."
"I killed all of them one by one and ate their bodies after eating all the food."
"I also imprisoned them, dissected them, tried to find parasites? Or something else? But no, their flesh and blood is real flesh and blood, their face is real face, they are Matthew, Martha, Drake, Phoebe, Simon..."
"I've died countless times, blown up, killed, starved, frozen..."
"Wow"
Suddenly, Richard Parker stopped.
His original dull complexion changed, and an inexplicable light burst out in his eyes. He seemed to understand something.
He died countless times and in many ways, but he didn't commit suicide.
Richard Parker shook his hands and wrote down questions in the space with a pen.
"You want me to kill myself?"
"As long as I commit suicide, all this will be over?"
"I can be free, everyone can be free?"
As he wrote his third question, he felt that he had lost control of his opponent.
But his palm is still holding a pen to write.
But the handwriting is no longer messy, but becomes regular, cold and strange.
The temperature inside the escape pod suddenly dropped below zero. In the eyes of Tangqi, a transparent man, Richard Parker's body changed horribly.
The space became extremely dark, only his body outline became snow-white, a large number of "black lines" flickered and jumped in his body, his face became ferocious, his eyes were all black, the ferocious smile radian of the corners of his mouth cracked to his ears, scarlet flesh embedded sharp teeth, and issued a ferocious smile of unknown significance.
Holding a pen, he began to paint directly on the three questions.
Black lines constantly draw circles, connect, surround and chase each other... The distorted starry sky was born. The large and small "stars" are like those outlined by madmen. They look like human figures crouching, screaming and laughing over their heads.
"Boom"
The answer appeared in Richard Parker's eyes without warning. He suddenly realized that the magnificent star burst that appeared outside the silence was not true.
This strange picture is true.
His soul seemed to burst, he suddenly began to breathe quickly, and he woke up.
Richard Parker opened his eyes again. He was no longer in the escape pod and had no diary in front of him. He returned to the driving area of the silence again and sat on the oval table engraved with silver and white texture. There was a cold touch under his ass, but his feet trampling on the floor felt viscous liquid.
He subconsciously lowered his head, and the crimson stimulated his eyes.
He looked up again and saw many figures lying on his back, lying prone and rotting.
Time seems to slow down at this moment, presenting follow-up for Tangqi, a transparent person, in a way similar to "freeze frame animation".
"Richard Parker went back to the real world... He sat in his chair and looked at all his partners and subordinates."
"They are all dead, Matthew, Martha, Drake, Phoebe, Simon... They are all dead, including the monkey and spotted dog. They are still in the cage, but because of madness or struggle, they all scarred themselves and died by smashing their heads."
"The rest of the crew members committed suicide in different ways. They used guns, strangled themselves, swallowed some mechanical parts, or cut open their heart with a knife."
"No one knows how many times the crew have reincarnated, how many times the monkey and spotted dog have reincarnated, what have they encountered, the same experience as Richard Parker? Or more crazy?"
"But it doesn't matter. They all made choices."
"Death is a choice that can set everything free."
"Richard Parker suddenly looked at himself, and items floated in front of him, leaving a bullet pistol, a blood stained dagger, mechanical parts floating out of Simon's stomach, a bottle of lethal drugs... He had many choices, leading to the same road, death."
Tangqi looked at Richard Parker at this time. He was tortured in countless reincarnations.
Both body and soul have been distorted to varying degrees.
The same is true of other crew members and animals who committed suicide.
They may be very strong, with hope, and even try to survive with wisdom and courage.
But in the end, they all gave in and chose the same path.
Just when Tang Qi was curious about Richard Parker's choice, he got up. He took a pistol and rubbed it for a while. He held a dagger and gestured at his heart. He wiped the body fluid from the mechanical parts with his finger pulp and poured out the Wade Flynn (lethal drug) in the medicine bottle... He lingered in this area for a long time.
Half an hour later, he dragged his twisted body back to his chair.
With almost scarlet eyes, he looked straight in front of him.
The clearer silver texture, the material of the space oval table... And the inexplicable diary and a pen.
"Oh"
Richard Parker let out an ambiguous laugh and picked up his pen.
Start turning page by page, turn over those bloody pages, and turn over the pages with strange stars.
Latest page, blank space.
Richard Parker picked up his pen, gradually outlined an arc at the corners of his mouth, and his palm trembled, scribbling:
"Fxxx... See? I, Richard Parker, Fxxx... Your mother, if you have a mother... FXX your ugly body, if you have... Fxxx your rotten soul, if you have..."
"Hahaha... Hahaha"
He suddenly laughed wildly, and his handwriting became more messy and wanton.
"I won't kill myself. Why can't you kill me? I don't know the rotten maggots from that dark corner. Come on, let me see how strong you are. Can you let me kill myself? Come on."
As Richard Parker screamed and wrote, the stagnant silence was suddenly launched.
No sign, no one is manipulating.
Silence ignited and began to return.
Time accelerates again in front of Tang Qi, and the animation flashes.
"Silence returned and landed on lomanu in twelve hours."
"In the global live broadcast, the staff of the Federal Space Agency of lomanu found that almost all the ships had died. The only survivor was captain Richard Parker. They opened his air suit and released the deadly bacteria. Within a few months, all the lomanu people were infected with zombie like creatures. Richard Parker did not commit suicide."
"Game restart!"
"After the silence ignited and returned to lomanu, the crew accused Richard Parker of being parasitized by an unknown 'alien monster' during a spacewalk mission. He was arrested, imprisoned and killed by the federal gas 24 hours later."
"Game restart!"
"Silence returned. Richard Parker was the only survivor of the accident. He was allowed to return to his family. He was crazy that night. He killed his wife and two children. Then he went to his father, killed his father, mother and sister, and was killed by the police."
"Game restart!"
"Silence did not return, sent a distress signal and organized federal rescue. In the live picture, Richard Parker tore open the rescuer's air suit and ate her up under the eyes of hundreds of millions of people."
……
Silence, in front of the oval space table in the pilot area, Richard Parker has lost his basic human form.
His limbs are twisted, his face is ferocious, and he exudes the smell of decay. He is still surrounded by his partner crew. They have died for some time, some rotten, some intact, and seem to be in different time lines.
But all this is very real, just like the pain he feels every time he is killed, without any relief. It is so real that he will cry every time, like a slaughtered lamb.
At the moment, Richard Parker, the lamb, is lowering his head, holding a pen in his dark and thin palm, and continues to write provocative sentences word by word on the blank pages of his diary, as he has done countless times in the past.
"Fxxx your mother, if you have?"
"You want me to commit suicide... Why don't you come and parasitize me completely... Let me completely despair and collapse... Come on, how long do you think you can hide in the shadow? I've felt you many times... You know, you can never let me commit suicide except being one with me."
"It's painful, isn't it? You can't be a mortal, ha ha ha."
"Again, Fxxx your mother."
PS: there will be two more.
(end of this chapter)