There are a lot of things that he wanted to say, but Xiao YuRin was hesitating after YuYan sounded like she hasn't regained some of her memories.
Therefore, despite his curiosity, Xiao YuRin secretly sighed. He looked away while he indirectly answered with disappointment in his voice. "You can't remember? But yes, you did.. You stupid little bunny..."
YuYan can't help pouting her lips, lowering her head due to a bit of fear to know the answer to those questions in her mind, but it didn't stop her from asking in a complaining manner. "RinRin, do you hate me? Why are you so mean to me when I came back?"
Her question made Xiao YuRin's body instantly stiffen. Beads of sweat began to form on his forehead. The way YuYan asked doesn't sound that she's mad, instead, she is complaining in a sweet way.
Because of her unexpected question, Xiao YuRin doesn't know how to react. He subconsciously looks at YuYan and open his mouth, but there were no words that came from his throat.
His feelings were complicated. Xiao YuRin doesn't know whether to cry or laugh. Should he feel happy or sad? He has no idea. All he knew was his heart started beating fast like its about to stop.
Xiao YuRin expected that YuYan will hate him because of how he treated her when she returned in the Black Garden after not seeing each other for so long, but he did not mean to make her feel scared of him.
This causes a pain in his heart while he looks at YuYan, but Xiao YuRin avoided her gaze and lowered his head. He was hesitating at first until he faintly said. "It was your fault not to remember me."
"I feel hurt when you asked me who I was.. How can you forget about me? Even though I know that you lost all your memories.. I still feel bad." Xiao YuRin honestly claimed, but with full of embarrassment, knowing that it sounded unreasonable.
YuYan: "…" Eh? It's not my fault to forget everything.
YuYan can't help arching her brows. She opened her mouth to speak, but she doesn't know what to say. She can only wait for Xiao YuRin to continue after seeing him opening his mouth.
"I was mad to hear you stayed with big brother Yun the night you came back.. I don't like it when big brothers are taking you away from me." Xiao YuRin honestly added, but his voice can't hide his true feelings, embarrassed about his confession.
He has kept all of his feelings by himself. Xiao YuRin was not an expressive person, not even good with words since they were young. Therefore, he doesn't speak a lot.
Although he speaks with Xiao YuYi, it was only because of what happened twelve years ago. In other words, Xiao YuRin is only comfortable sharing his true feelings with one person, and it was YuYan.
"I always want you to stay with me, but I'm too weak to fight with them." Xiao YuRin added before YuYan can speak, but without looking at his baby sister, he chuckled. "Besides, you can't even remember me." He uttered sarcastically.
His voice was faint, but it cannot hide his feeling of sorrow and jealousy that he has been keeping in his heart.
Xiao YuRin's words sounded like there was something else that he has been hiding. "I was so irritated after seeing big brother XiRan and Rong Xue, fighting each other before pulling you in their arms..."
"I… I was… Jealous that time.." Xiao YuRin confessed, feeling embarrassed at the same time. "That's also why I didn't let you take my chair to sit beside big brother Yun when we were in the dining room to eat breakfast."
"Why would he still want you to sit beside him? You already stayed in his room all night after you came back … Does he want to show us that you like him the most?…" Xiao YuRin added sarcastically and feeling irritated while he remember.
YuYan: "…" You've got to be kidding me?!
YuYan was completely speechless after hearing Xiao YuRin's explanation. She didn't expect that her brother was a silent possessive person just like their other older brothers, but he seems unwilling to admit that he was not different from their siblings.
However, it was enough for YuYan to giggle, making Xiao YuRin raised his head and looked at her with furrowed brows, followed by a displeased expression. "What's funny? I know… I sounded stupid, just like our big brothers.."
"No… No… I mean…" YuYan shook her head, but she can't help smiling. She wanted to laugh after hearing the reason why he was so cold to her in the dining room.
To prevent making Xiao YuRin feel insulted, YuYan cleared her throat and covered her mouth, trying to suppress her laughter that is about to leave her mouth. "Sorry… It's just that… You're still so cute like before..."
Xiao YuRin: "…" Cute? I'm not a pet!
Xiao YuRin's face turned dark. But watching his baby sister forcing herself not to laugh, he can't help smiling. He holds YuYan's head and rubbed it hard, making her hair look like a bird's nest.
The pleasant atmosphere between them made YuYan took a deep breath and courageously said. "RinRin… The last time I saw you were when you were in a coma…"
"Did you ever visit me when I was unconscious? And why didn't you visit me when I woke up? Do you.. Hate me?" YuYan finally asked after hesitating to continue.
YuYan intently looked at her brother, but her heart started beating fast, feeling nervous while waiting for Xiao YuRin's answer.
However, Xiao YuRin did not answer right away. He took a deep breath before letting go of his baby sister's waist and seated on the floor lazily, leaning his back on the bedside while he look at the window.
"So my bunny finally remembered huh…" Xiao YuRin mumbled, but loud enough for YuYan to hear. Then he suddenly added sarcastically. "How can I hate you? It is because of you why I had a second chance to live…"