528 The person with silver hair

Li FuJin was stupefied. The impulse to punish YuYan by making her unable to get up from bed due to an intense and rough sex, instantly disappeared like a bubble. 

He didn't expect her to ask such thing. Li FuJin has forgotten that there are instances where YuYan would have flashes of memories like before whenever he was touching her. 

Instead, Li FuJin's possessiveness and jealousy immediately hit the limit when YuYan suddenly thinks of another man while having intimate moments with him. 

Because of that, his desire reached to the extent of wanting YuYan to only think of him alone, to make her remember him as the only person that comes on her mind whenever she was touched. 

He wanted to give her an unforgettable experience of having sex with him.

To deeply put him in her mind, especially about all the things he does to her body, particularly on bed as a reminder that she belongs to him alone. 

Of course, he was furious at first. There was a complicated feeling while she's under him. 

It was an impulse of wanting to possess her, but he was worried that she might leave him due to that idea. 

He was bothered by the fact that YuYan no longer feared him like she used to. 

Besides, since she regained her childhood memories, she hated being forced or controlled by anyone. 

However, after hearing her question about someone with silver hair, aside from his body turning stiff, beads of sweat began forming on Li FuJin's forehead, dripping on his face and falls on YuYan's cheeks. 

He did not expect that YuYan was actually having a flash of memories about his real identity, but Li FuJin felt stupid after realizing that he was actually jealous of himself. 

The past may have not reach to the point where he can enter his flesh inside her, it was probably because he used to touch and taste her. 

Therefore, although Li FuJin already retracted his flesh inside her, he was still stunned and remained on the top of her, but he did not say anything, or rather he doesn't know how to respond. 

Li FuJin's heart was debating with his mind. He doesn't know whether to tell YuYan the truth about their past and who he was or he must let her completely remember everything first.  

Now that he was still using the potion that was made by Marlene to have a different appearance and identity, Li FuJin felt guilty that he was deceiving her. 

Of course, he feared about the consequences of pretending as someone else.

The possibility that YuYan might hate him and leave him was like a heavy stone crushing his heart. 

However, Li FuJin's silence instantly created a suspicion on YuYan's mind. 

She can't help thinking that Zhou Ruegen seems hiding something from her which made her feel bad. 

The fact that her family was already keeping her a lot of secrets about her made YuYan feel down. 

Now that she feels Zhou Ruegen was also hiding something made it worst. 

This made YuYan's hope that the flash of memory in her mind wasn't hers, instantly shattered. 

It immediately created a complicated feeling about being with someone else who had intimate interactions with her. 

It was confusing, though. As far as she remembered, she only met Zhou Ruegen at the forbidden forest because of the trial.

If there was really another man in her life, how possible for him to know about it. 

Multiple questions keep on popping in YuYan's mind. She wanted to know whether her fiance, Zhou Ruegen, knew that she had been with another man. 

What's worse, she had an intimate moment with someone who has a silver hair that she doesn't even recognize! 

YuYan feared the fact that if she asked, he may not know about it and might suddenly leave her. 

Who would want to be with someone who was already touch by someone else?! 

Although Zhou Ruegen was her first, YuYan still can't help worrying that he might think she was a slut for being touched by someone else aside from him. 

She wanted to know the truth, but because of her fear on how he would react, YuYan hesitated whether to ask him about it or not. 

Fortunately, she only asked whether she knew someone who has silver hair aside from her brother, but despite Li FuJin has an expressionless face, his continuous silence made her feel complicated. 

YuYan was wondering whether he remained silent because he was waiting for her to speak or he knew something that he wasn't willing to tell her. 

However, what if she asks him, but Zhou Ruegen doesn't know about it? Would that be a wrong move and fall into the situation she feared to happen? 

"Why would you suddenly think about the person with silver hair?" Li FuJin finally asked while staring straight to her eyes, but his cold voice sounded hoarse as he added. "Do you have anything special with him?"