After having some thoughts whether to tell YuYan about the truth, Li FuJin had no choice but to respond with a question, instead of answering her.
His attention shifted after noticing the changes in YuYan's expressions. His heart has a feeling of having a roller coaster ride due to his nervousness.
He has no idea what was running in YuYan's mind. Thus, Li FuJin remained silent, watching all her expressions with hope that he could guess what she was thinking before giving an answer.
His mind was a mess while guessing whether YuYan was still on the process of regaining her memories, a memory where they used to be together, but how would he respond if she really did remember 'Li FuJin'?
Thus, Li FuJin decided to ask such questions to have a clue of what YuYan can remember aside for the person having a silver hair.
He wondered, though. Did YuYan remember how looks like? But why would she only ask about a person with silver hair aside from her brother?
Speaking of brother, Li FuJin knew YuYan must be thinking of Xiao YuRin, but aside from him, she also has a twin sister who also has silver hair. The girl he would never forget.
But since YuYan seems to want to know a young man with silver hair, Li FuJin's heart was feeling excited with hope that she was slowly remembering the real him.
At the same time, Li FuJin was also scared. He was scared of how to tell YuYan about using another identity to join the trial and recover her as his wife.
Yes, he might have been deceiving her for pretending as Zhou Ruegen since they met in the forbidden forest and broke his promise, but he doesn't have a choice at all.
He decided to regain his old identity and had a help from a witch to use a different appearance and join the trial after she was suddenly taken away from him.
He failed to fulfill his promise when he had no choice but to take her innocence before marriage and finding out what her family was hiding from her because she would die without breaking the seal on her mentality.
Everything he did was because of his love for her. He thought that he was ready to take the consequences once YuYan finds out the truth.
He told himself that he would accept that she would hate him rather than let her die, but now that there's a sign that the time for her to know the truth has come, Li FuJin suddenly feel scared.
His heart continued beating fast while waiting for YuYan to answer. He can see her face turning pale while beads of sweat that began forming on her forehead.
Although he was uncertain, Li FuJin's heart suddenly skipped a beat due to the idea that YuYan remembered something about his real identity.
What Li FuJin didn't know was the sweat formed due to YuYan's fear of what he would think of her once he finds out about the sudden flash of memory.
What was worse, she was suddenly sweating after asking her a question about the person with silver hair even without doing anything aside from lying on the bed.
YuYan didn't think too much when Li FuJin's sweat falls on her cheek after asking him if she knew someone with silver hair since he was doing something laborious on the top of her.
That was enough for him to sweat unlike her who was not moving at all, but sweating after being asked why he would suddenly think of someone and if she has anything special with him.
What else can she guess? She suddenly thought of someone and even dared to ask if she knew someone with silver hair while having intimate moments with him.
Of course, YuYan would have the same feeling as if she was in his situation. However, how would she answer his question? Her expressions already betrayed her, should she lie?
"I… It's… I mean.. I suddenly had.." YuYan tried to answer, but her voice was shaking while hesitating to continue. She felt guilty and not guilty at the same time.
How can she not? She didn't mean to suddenly have a flash of memories about doing the same thing with another man and think of another person while she's about to have sex with him.
"A memory?" Li FuJin coldly uttered, finishing the words that YuYan seemed unable to continue. He can sense that she was hesitating to tell him about it.
YuYan's eyes unconsciously widened in shocked. She didn't expect that he has an idea of what was happening to her. But when she tried to think of it, she did tell him something when they arrived at the moon garden.
She did say something about having the feeling of living with someone before but can't remember. Thus, she asked. "Do we know each other before aside from what happened in the forbidden forest?"