Chapter 226

She really can't do without him. Only by being a mother can she realize the hardship of her mother. Now Chu Jinran finally understands the meaning of this sentence.

Since she gave birth to the only one, her whole world has changed. It seems that only he can give her the best sense of security.

Suddenly, Chu Jinran began to miss her mother. Her mother had been away for so long, but when she was wronged, when she was not happy, the first thing she thought of was her mother.

In those years at home, every time she was wronged by Zhou Yuxiu and Chu Zhenguo, she missed her mother even more. She thought of her warm embrace, her gentle smile, and the gentle fragrance that was exclusive to her. It was a kind of fragrance similar to the fragrance of flowers. The thought of that fragrance would make her feel at ease for a moment.

She remembers that her mother doted on her very much when she was still alive. At that time, her father often didn't go home. Her childhood was almost spent with her mother. In her impression, her mother was a gentle and beautiful woman. She was elegant and beautiful, and always looked very dignified.

Treat others always very gentle smile, speak quietly, she remembered that her mother likes reading very much, there are many books in her study.

She always likes to play that kind of elegant and soothing music on an old-fashioned record player, and then read quietly in her study.

Sometimes she played with her younger brothers and sisters. When she was bored, she would go to the study to play with her mother. When she was a child, she often disturbed her mother to read, but her mother was never angry. She just looked at her face with happiness.

She remembers that when she was a child, the house was very big. Her grandparents were very gentle and elegant. They spoiled her very much, but as soon as they mentioned her father's name, their faces would become serious.

At that time, her childhood almost no father's participation, her childhood only mother, grandfather, grandmother, brother, sister composed of five people.

In her impression, her father seldom goes home. Even if he comes home once in a while, he will get drunk and full of wine.

Every time he gets drunk, the door will open loud, and then the whole family will be woken up by him.

She remembers that once when her father got drunk and came back from the outside, she was awakened from her sleep. She came out of the room with bleary eyes and bare feet and went to the living room. When she saw her father in the living room, she was about to fall into his arms and was held by her mother.

She just reflected that in the living room, grandparents were all there, their faces were very ugly, looking at the drunken dad, his face was gloomy.

That day, grandma and Dad had a big fight. She couldn't remember what the fight was about. At that time, she was too young. She only remembered that grandma and grandfather had been scolding dad for being a coward and neglecting his job. Dad was so angry that he smashed everything in the living room.

Younger brothers and sisters were also woken up. They were too young to know what to do. They could only stand there and watch them cry in horror.

She has never seen the home like this, small she can only hide in her mother's arms, trembling with fear.

Mother hugged her and her younger brother and sister in her arms, as if she wanted to hold them tightly with her arms to give them a sense of security.

Mother covered her ears and eyes with her hands, not to let her listen, not to let her see, but she was still very afraid, why dad and grandma and grandfather to quarrel? Why do they all look so angry?

She doesn't understand these reasons at all. She just doesn't understand why the family can't be together?

She still remembers that time, her mother put her arms around her hand and trembled slightly. When she looked up, she saw the crystal clear tears in her mother's eyes.

It was the first time that she saw her mother crying. She didn't understand the reason why her mother was crying. But at that time, her heart suddenly panicked, because her mother's tears made her heart ache.

She put out her little hand and gently wiped away the tears from her mother's eyes. Then, she could feel that her mother was holding her more tightly, so tightly that she could hardly breathe.

She remembers that from that day on, there was no light smile in her mother's eyes.

But when she looked back at her, her eyes were still that kind of gentle look, and her expression was still so gentle that it didn't change at all.

But she can obviously feel that her mother is getting haggard day by day. Although she doesn't understand the emotion flashing in her eyes, she knows that her mother is not happy.

But she still loves her mother, and her mother still loves her.

The life of the five members of their family is still unchanged, but what's different is rooted in the hearts of adults, and little children don't understand it at all.

Day by day, my mother's body is getting weaker and weaker, and finally can only rely on a ventilator and a pile of tubes inserted in various parts of the body to maintain life.

During this period, my father hardly ever came home. She and her brothers and sisters were too young to understand what it meant.

They still live the same or carefree life, but they often appear in front of their mother's hospital bed.

She asked her mother, "Mom, are you sick? Is it uncomfortable? "She remembers her mother's pale face at that time, but still said gently: "no, but don't worry, mother just caught a cold, after a while it will be fine."

"Well, mom, when you're ready, shall we take our brothers and sisters to the park?" Chu Jinran said.

With these words, she could see tears in her mother's eyes. She didn't understand why there was something so painful in her mother's eyes for a moment. She was too young to understand what that emotion meant? She just spoke out the most innocent fantasies in her child's heart.

It seems that after a long time, my mother nodded and said in a hoarse voice, "OK, mom promised you, when mom is ready, I'll take Ranran out to play and go to the park, OK?"

Little she nodded happily.

At that time, she did not know that what her mother said to her that afternoon was the last sentence she said to her in her life.

She remembers that at that time, she was so sleepy that she fell asleep in the bed next to her mother's hospital bed.

Later, I don't know how long later, she was woken up by a loud noise. When she opened her eyes, a group of nurses and doctors were surrounding her mother. At that time, she didn't know what they were doing. They were holding a huge electric shock device, pointing it at her mother's chest.

All around the noisy sound, let the small Chu brocade however was hoodwinked.

She didn't know what was going on, only that her mother, surrounded by a group of doctors, was as pale as paper, like a bloodless doll.

Before she had any reaction, she was carried away by her grandmother and then out of the ward.

She can't remember what happened later. She only remembered that her grandmother held her so tightly that she couldn't breathe, just like her mother held her tightly at that time.

She felt that her grandmother was very unhappy. She didn't know why or how to make her happy, so she could only stay still and let her grandmother hold her and didn't dare to speak.

After a long time, a doctor came out of the ward. She didn't remember what the doctor said to her grandmother. All she remembered was that her grandmother suddenly seemed to be there. She didn't move for a long time. She seemed to be stiff.

Chu Jinran is a little scared and calls her grandmother. After a while, her grandmother reacts and looks at the tears in her eyes.

From that day on, she never saw her mother again.

She always asked her grandfather and grandmother where her mother had gone? My grandparents would always reply that my mother was watching and protecting her from the brightest star in the sky.

She asked her grandparents why she didn't come back. She really missed her. They would tell her that when she grew up, her mother would come back.

At the beginning, she and her brothers and sisters would cry and quarrel for their mother. Her grandparents would always coax them, but she could see the sadness in their eyes.

Later, they no longer dare to cry, because they know that their crying will make my grandfather and grandmother very sad.

When thinking about her mother, she only dares to secretly look at the photos left by her mother at home with her younger brother and sister, and miss them silently in her heart.

During this period, her father never came back. Later, as she grew up, her grandfather and grandmother died one after another. Finally, she met her father, whom she had not met for a long time.

He looked proud and happy, with a woman in heavy makeup beside him.

Later she learned that this woman was their new mother, and her name was Zhou Yuxiu.

From that day on, her life fell into a mess. Since Zhou Yuxiu came to her home, everything in the family has changed. She and her younger brothers and sisters are always regarded as slaves, always working for Zhou Yuxiu, and they will be beaten and scolded if they don't do well.

Later, it took her a long time to know that her father and this woman appeared because their grandparents had passed away, so they could get their grandparents' legacy smoothly.

That time really hard, very hard, no mother, no grandparents around, she always feel lonely and helpless, but sad, she will think of her mother, with a mother, she has the motivation to persist.

She believes that, as her grandparents said, her mother must be protecting her in heaven, so no matter what difficulties she encounters, she is not afraid, because as long as she thinks that her mother is watching her in heaven and protecting her, she has all the strength, even in difficulties, she can deal with it.

Sometimes, she can't make it any longer, so she silently grits her teeth in her heart and insists that her mother is watching in the sky. She can't let her worry about herself.

So over the years, so much suffering, she insisted, just to be able to face her mother with a clear conscience.

She thought that if one day she could go to heaven to find her mother, she would tell her all the wonderful stories of her life, and then tell her that she had a proud daughter.

After having the only one, she can better understand her mother's mood. When her mother was in poor health, it must be very difficult for her to be born.