Chapter 287

Closing his eyes, the sadness in his heart grew stronger and stronger.

It seemed that everything around him was covered with gray, and the whole room was filled with sadness. The sadness in his heart was about to crush him.

He suddenly remembered their beautiful past, the park, their laughter under the big tree.

She has a red face and a sweet smile.

His feeling of happiness, and that kind of deep love.

They used to love each other so much. At that time, he even thought that he could not live without her in his whole life. However, he didn't expect that she left at last and disappeared from his world silently, leaving him with deep missing and endless loneliness.

It seems that everything in the past can be seen clearly, but when I open my eyes, I find that he is the only one in the big room. This feeling of loss should be loneliness.

I really don't know when this feeling will last. Maybe if Chu Jinran doesn't come back all the time, he will be lonely all his life.

He was sitting there, filled with sadness.

At this time, the sound of door lock being opened came from the door. He raised his head and Lin zhe came in with his head.

"I knew you were home." Lin zhe said, it seems that this guy is in a bad mood, his face is not right, but don't have to get married. Shouldn't he be happy? Why do you have such an expression?

Lu chennian rolled his eyes. Why is this guy here again?

"Brother, please don't keep my fingerprint film, OK?" Lu chennian said, "I have no sense of security when you do this."

"Why don't you feel safe? Why, are you afraid that I'm greedy for your beauty? " Lin zhe asked, "elder brother, I'm a man, too. And I'm a straight man with normal sexual orientation!" This guy is really narcissistic to a certain level, there is no sense of security, really, can he do anything to him?

Lu chennian said helplessly: "of course, I know you won't do anything to me. Before you lived in my house for so long, if you could do anything to me, you would have done it. How can you wait until now? I mean, if you get drunk in the middle of the night and touch my house, I'm afraid I'll be scared at night."

"Cut! I won't steal from you. I have a fingerprint film. No one else can get in. " Lin zhe said.

Lu chennian was too lazy to argue with him: "forget it, just keep it if you like."

"Ha ha, that's good!" Lin zhe said.

"By the way, I forgot to ask you. What are you doing here?" Lu chennian asked.

Lin zhe said, "why don't I care about you? You are all green headed by women. Of course I'll come to see you. How are you? Are you in a good mood? "

"Boring." Lu chennian said that he was really in a bad mood, but it was not because of this.

"I thought you would be in a good mood, because you didn't want to get married after all, but when I came here, I found that things were not what I imagined. How could you look so depressed? Did you really fall in love with Nian Shiya? You're upset because she's pregnant with someone else's baby? " Asked Lin Zhe.

Lu chennian gave him a white look: "what are you guessing? How can I fall in love with her? Of course, I'm happy about not getting married. I'm just surprised that I haven't been cheated by her for so long. " Lu chennian said, "one can really do anything to achieve one's goal."

He is happy if he doesn't get married, so why does he still look unhappy: "then how do I feel that you are unhappy?"

"No, you're wrong. I'm happy not to get married." Lu chennian said.

Lin zhecai didn't believe it. He knew him for a long time and knew him like the back of his hand: "Lu chennian, I know you very well now. You can cheat others, but you can't cheat me. Let's talk about it. What's the reason for my bad mood?"

Lu chennian shook his head, eyes is lost: "really not, what can I have unhappy things ah?"

"You're not telling me, are you? I already know so many secrets about you, and this one is not bad. Tell me, maybe I can help you solve it. " Lin zhe said.

He really can't bear to see him so sad. After all, he is his only relative in the world.

Lu chennian sighed deeply and grinned bitterly. Now this guy has really become the person who knows him best in the world. He can't cheat him with anything.

"I'm thinking about Chu Jinran." Lu chennian said.

"Why do you think of her all of a sudden?" Asked Lin Zhe.

Lu chennian said bitterly: "after such a long time, I have been working hard to find her. Since I lost my memory, I felt that there was something missing in my life. Later, I learned that one of the most important things missing in my life was her. At the beginning, I always wanted to recover my memory and then go to find her. I thought about her all the time, crazy about her. ”

Lu chennian's expression is a little sad: "I always think that as long as I think of everything, I can find her. I always think that no matter what misunderstanding we have, I must explain it to her this time. I will never let her leave me again, I will save her."Lin zhe listened quietly. Lu chennian's face was very sad. He was like a handsome prince coming out of a cartoon. He was good-looking and melancholy.

"Do you know how sad I was when I knew I was going to marry Nian Shiya? I thought I would never find my love again in my life. I was so naive at that time. I naively thought that if there was no Nian Shiya, Chu Jinran and I would be together. I thought it was her problem that we couldn't be together. " Lu chennian said.

"But now that I don't have to get married, I find that even if I don't have to get married and marry a woman I don't love, I can't find Chu Jinran back. It's not someone else's problem between us, it's our own problem. There has always been a spear between us. She left, and another man, maybe in this relationship, I will always be a woman The losers. "

Thick sadness encroaches on his heart bit by bit. It turns out that many things in the world are so sad. Even if love is so deep, it's useless. After all, it depends on fate.

Just like he and Chu Jinran, they are predestined.

Lin zhe looked at his sad look, some worry: "things are over, you do not want to be sad about this matter, OK? You will meet someone you really love, and you will be happy. "

Lu chennian wry smile: "I believe that in this life, no one can give me the feeling of Chu Jinran. If I miss her, I may lose the ability to love in my life, and I will never love again."

"Don't say that so early, will you?" Lin zhe said, "a person's life is so long. No one knows what will happen in the future. I believe you will find a good wife who loves you."

"Maybe." Lu chennian's voice is full of sadness.

It can be seen that he really loves Chu Jinran.

"Do you really miss her?" Asked Lin Zhe.

Lu Chen nodded young and lightly: "of course, she is the only one I have ever loved in my life. How can I not miss her? For such a long time, I have never forgotten her. Even if she has been away for such a long time, his feelings for her have not changed at all. He even feels that he loves her more. "

Lin zhe looks at him. At this time, it's probably the most vulnerable time for Lu chennian. The person he loves is not around. For such a long time, without any news, he must miss her very much.

"If you really can't let her go, go to her." Lin zhe said, it's better than being alone in the corner.

Lu chennian grinned bitterly. Of course, he wanted to find her, but she already had other men around her. How could he still have the chance? Even if I went to find her, I would insult myself: "now, she must be very happy with the man named Yu Beibei. Where am I qualified to disturb her now?"

"Don't say that, OK? If you don't try, you will never know the result. Maybe Maybe she is also thinking about you. She just thought you were with Nian Shiya, so she left sad. Don't you have many contradictions and misunderstandings? Maybe this time it's also a misunderstanding. " Lin zhe said.

Lu chennian shook his head. He did not dare to go. He was afraid that if she really fell in love with others, what should he do? Looking at her happy life around other men, he will certainly collapse.

But he really loves her, he can't let her go, even in the dream is her shadow.

Now, she has become the most important part in her heart, there is no way to erase it, but he knows that now, it is impossible between them.

Lin zhe was very worried. Looking at Lu chennian's decadent and sad appearance, he was really worried: "Lu chennian, don't be so listless, OK? You look down on me like this! You are Lu chennian! You have always been the confident and calm Lu chennian in my heart. How can you become like this for a small matter? Can you show your determination and confidence? "

"I can't be decisive and confident now." Lu chennian said with a bitter smile, "I don't know why I became like this. I'm not like me anymore."

May be too love, too love, there will be no self-confidence, for fear that her heart and his imagination is not the same, for fear that she will be rejected and sad.

Sure enough, no matter how decisive and brave a person is, he will become a person with low self-esteem when he meets the person he loves.

But what to do?

He can only bear all the heartache alone.

Lin Zhe is very worried about him. It seems that Lu chennian has been working very hard during this period. He is exhausted every day. Before, he was sad because of his wedding with Nian Shiya. Now, after recovering his memory, he finds that the person he has always loved falls in love with another man.

He knew he must be in a bad mood now, but he couldn't share his sorrow.

He really wanted to help him, but this time he didn't know what to do.