In fact, many things in the world are different from what we think.
When we were young, we always thought that the process of growing up was beautiful, because children were controlled a lot. When we were young, we always thought that adults could do whatever they wanted.
They always have a lot of money in their pockets. With money, they can buy a lot of delicious snacks.
They can not be disciplined by others, eating sugar at night will decay their teeth.
They can go wherever they want.
They can make up or wear a tie to make themselves look beautiful or handsome.
There is always a colorful world around them.
This is what we always thought when we were young.
But growing up gradually found that growing up is such a panic thing.
It's not like what we imagined when we were young. There is always a steady stream of money in the pocket of adults. These money are earned through hard work, and each point represents hard sweat.
When we were young, we always thought that if we had money, we would eat delicious snacks. But when we grow up, we will find that our health is getting worse and worse, and those strange snacks will destroy our bodies, so we will be careful not to be like when we were young.
When we were young, we always felt that when we had money, we would go to the playground and play for three days and three nights without sleep.
But when we grow up and have money, we no longer have the passion and innocence to go to the playground when we were young.
People's character is always changing, we can never be as naive as when we were young.
In fact, growing up in your heart means more and more loneliness.
When we were young, we always rushed out of the cage, out of the bondage of our parents, to the outside world of freedom.
But when we grow up, we find that freedom is difficult and lonely. Only when we hide under our parents' wings is the most innocent and happy life. However, no one can grow up forever. Years will bring us infinite past. We will grow up and even grow old.
All people's time can't be kept.
With the growth of age, our hearts will bear more and more pain.
This is probably the trouble of growing up.
Lu chennian knew that the process of his growing up was painful. He grew up in a successful family. His father was a businessman and he could make a lot of money. He spent his childhood in plenty of food and clothing. Many people envied his family and his rich parents.
But only he knew what this loneliness was.
When he was very young and needed his parents' company most, he experienced the feeling of loneliness.
When I was young, my parents were very busy, especially my father. At that time, he was very young and didn't know what they were busy with. All he knew was that every day, he was the only one living in the big house. At night, my mother would come back, but she seldom talked to him after coming back. She was also very tired. He was sensible and didn't want to disturb her.
It's even less for Dad to go home. He can only see him once or twice a month. In his childhood memory, home seems to be a cold word.
He seldom sees his parents at home. When he needs company, only the Housekeeper will accompany him.
Since he was a child, he has experienced the taste of loneliness, which is a kind of pain deep into the muscles and bones. He feels that he is the only one left in the world.
When Lu chennian was a child, he was patient. Even though he was lonely, he never expressed himself.
It seems that his childhood was spent in such a lonely and difficult feeling.
When he was young, he also tried hard. He felt that as long as he did well, his parents could see him.
He worked hard and won the first place in various activities of the school. He was the first in the whole grade in every exam. He was excellent and he was the man of the year in the school. His school won many awards.
He is really excellent, but also has the steadiness and maturity that his peers don't have.
But he found that no matter how hard he tried, his parents were still very busy, and they still couldn't see him.
He used to feel unfair. No matter how well he did, he couldn't get the love of his parents? But after a long time, he got used to it. What does it matter if he can't get his parents' love? He can still live well by himself. Later, he gradually ignored these.
After a long time, he almost forgot the temperature of happiness in his life. He lived in loneliness most of the time.
This kind of life lasted for more than 20 years, and almost consumed all his enthusiasm for life.
His daily life is only overtime work, every day will face the computer screen for a long time, life is numb and boring.
At that time, he was eager to appear a person and change his life, but he never dared to imagine that such a person would really appear.He was looking forward to it, but also timid.
The track of life, little by little forward, at that time he seems to have no pursuit of happiness.
But later, the appearance of a person completely changed his life.
That person is Chu Jinran.
He was deeply moved by his innocence, kindness and liveliness. She let him know that there are many beautiful things in the world and there are many beautiful things in life.
It was she who led him to re perceive the happiness in his life. It was she who made his cold life full of sunshine.
After meeting her, he understood what happiness is. Every minute with her is happy and happy. It is her who melts the ice in his heart with her warm smile like sunshine.
He almost naively thought that they would be together forever, because he unconsciously found that he could not leave her any more. She gave him the warmth he had never experienced since he was a child. No one could give him this feeling, only she could.
So he was very afraid of losing her. He held this precious feeling in his hand.
But he is too stupid, never experienced that kind of warmth, this is he more cherish also more grasp him and Chu Jinran love.
Maybe it's because he's so tight that she can slip away from his life.
All may be his fault, he lost a person who loves him.
Now he really missed the warm heart, but the feeling was gone.
She left, took away the laughter of his life, also took away the happiness he had, leaving only his endless loneliness and loneliness.
Without her, maybe he can't find another person in his life, which can make him have such a strong feeling of love.
Lu chennian is sitting on the sofa, while Lin Zhe is quietly watching him.
The sun came in from the window, reflecting a light on Lu chennian. He was like a handsome prince shrouded in the warm sun.
His eyebrows and eyes are deep, his nose is high, his eyes are deep and beautiful sadness, his thin lips are warm and bright pink like cherry blossoms, but different from his bright lips, the sadness on his face can not be covered up.
Even so, his handsome is not covered up at all.
In the sunshine, he is still beautiful and shining. Now he seems to understand why Nian Shiya is so devoted to the man in front of him.
He must be in a bad mood now.
He is like a wounded snail, retracting himself into a soft body. Because of the softness in his heart, he has been severely injured, so he can't believe anyone any more.
I can't believe in love any more.
Sadness will wear out all his courage, let him become a timid person.
He hugged his wound pitifully and licked it gently. Maybe he was afraid that the sadness in his heart would crush him. He became fragile and sensitive.
It seems that the sunshine can not warm the air-conditioning sent out from his whole body, which is an invisible sadness.
It's thick and painful.
……
In the hospital, Nian Shiya has been transferred to the ordinary ward. She lies quietly on the bed and looks pale.
New year's father and new year's mother are waiting anxiously. How can their daughter become like this?
Nian's mother always has a knot in her heart, that is the child in Nian Shiya's stomach. She thinks that she has shed so much blood that the child will not be able to survive, but the child is so lucky that she can survive in this case.
But this child should not have come to this world. If he is still alive, what should her daughter do for the rest of her life?
Now, people in the upper class know that she was pregnant with a wild seed.
A lot of people came to their wedding, almost all of them were prominent figures in the business world, and almost all of them knew the scandal of their young family.
If they keep the child, how can their daughter be wanted in the future? Even if they get married, they will be looked down upon by their in laws.
So anyway, the child must not stay.
The new year's mother quietly came to the new year's father, with a dignified expression. She gently pushed the new year's father and said, "what can our daughter do?"
Nian's father looked at her: "you mean The baby in her stomach? "
The new year's mother nodded, "it's not right to go on like this. If we keep this child, it will affect our daughter for the rest of her life. After all, we are people in the upper class. I don't want my daughter to get married into her mother-in-law's family and be talked about. I don't want her mother-in-law's family to bully her."
His father's eyes are a little complicated. Of course, he doesn't want his daughter to be bullied.
This child will really affect her daughter's life for the rest of her life.
"Or the child will be killed." Nianfu thought about it and said.
The new year's mother nodded: "I think so too. At the beginning, I thought my daughter had shed so much blood that the child would not be able to survive. But I didn't expect that the child was very lucky and survived. However, the child can't stay. We have to consider for the whole life of our daughter."Nian's father nodded.
Nian's mother looked at Nian Shiya on the bed. He was pale and his eyes were closed. The effect of anesthetics had not yet passed. She had not yet woken up.
She believes that her daughter will do the same. With her personality, she will not want to have a child of a man she does not love.