Chapter 302

Nian Shiya knew that from the moment she told Lu chennian all the truth, she was ready to give up on him. I started from that moment, she may never find another person in her life, which can make her feel that kind of heart.

Emotional things, like a strange emotion.

It's like a kind of smoke, light floating around us, like pigeon gray feathers, falling on each of us, sometimes with thick or light pain, sometimes with strands of sweet, lingering in our hearts, may be love is too deep, so it will be painful.

Such feelings, bit by bit into our skin and bones, nerve endings in various parts of the body pain into a piece.

Even after a long time, those who have experienced the memory, those who have loved, but also in our hearts the deepest pain.

We used to think that the most cool people in the world are those wandering singers with colorful hair, worn-out guitar, smoking and walking alone on the edge of the city. They are sitting in the city with such sadness.

Once upon a time, we thought that wandering life was the coolest.

But when we grow up, we find that the bravest and happiest people are those who have the courage to live in this huge city or wandering.

Because as we grow older, we will all be controlled by all the rules and regulations in this society. We will no longer have the courage to pursue freedom.

We live in a city of steel, concrete and iron walls, listening to the success of our relatives and friends, and thinking about the vagrants in this city in the lonely night.

In fact, there was a moment when we were successful, we envied those people.

At least they are not completely bound by this society. They want to pursue freedom. They know how to pursue the life they want, and they don't try their best to buy a house or a car.

Life is short, but also dozens of years, do you want to be in the lonely high-rise buildings, little by little will be life spent?

A few years ago, Lu chennian was a lonely man living in reinforced concrete.

Since he was born, he has no way to decide his own life, his own preferences. All his life has been arranged by his parents.

It includes what he eats, what he wears, and who he plays with.

When Xu Yuanyu was a child, in order to make him grow up more healthy, she never let him eat snacks, and even went to junior high school. He didn't know what strawberry ice cream tasted like. Xu Yuanyu never let him touch those things. In her eyes, those things were junk food belonging to slow suicide.

Growing up, he has hardly eaten any snacks, lollipops, ice cream He doesn't even know the taste of snacks that belong to children's good memories.

From small to large, his friends were also strictly restricted.

Xu Yuanyu never allowed him to make friends with children with poor academic performance, because she was afraid that those naughty children would bring bad luck to her son.

As time goes by, many children think that he is not easy to get along with, and he really becomes not easy to get along with.

After growing up, Xu Yuanyu asked him to learn a lot of things. He had to sacrifice a lot of playing time to learn these things.

Piano, violin, shooting, horse riding, fencing

They were all used by the upper class, but none of them was his favorite. What could he know when he was young?

He just wants to get out of the cage. He doesn't understand why he has to learn so many things. He really wants to go out to play. But every time he asks Xu Yuanyu if he can have a day off today, Xu Yuanyu always criticizes him seriously. Xu Yuanyu always teaches him that he can't relax one day. Once he is relaxed, he will be easily left behind by others.

Growing up, he kept working hard to win his mother's praise and prove that he was really excellent, but no matter how hard he worked, no matter what level he reached, in Xu Yuanyu's eyes, he was never enough.

She always said that if he worked harder, he would be better.

Sometimes he didn't understand why his mother had to treat him like this. It was clear that he had worked hard enough. Did he have to fight for the first place in everything in life?

When he was young, he would ask questions, but over time, he gradually got used to it.

Xu Yuanyu asked him to work hard, then he would give 100% effort.

Xu Yuanyu asked him to get the first place, then he would get the first place and come back to show her.

He is really excellent. Xu Yuanyu has really cultivated him into an excellent child.

But when everyone envies his youth and his excellence, only he knows that he has made great efforts.

Sometimes he really hates himself. Now his heart is calm.

Clearly doing their own very annoying things, but can be orderly, calm to complete the task.He felt that this kind of himself, without any human personality, was more like a machine, and his human nature was gradually consumed.

He once felt that it was a mistake for him to come to this world.

Because he felt that he was different from many people. He even envied those free people, envied that they could live the life they wanted, envied that they could live a free life without constraints.

It's not that he didn't want to resist, but day after day, his life is always like this. Gradually, he is too lazy to change, and he has no strength to change.

He thought his life would be like this, but until that year, he met Chu Jinran.

She is like an alien, suddenly broke into his life, his life had become a mess.

But it would make him feel that this is the kind of life he always wanted. Inexplicably, it's always easy and happy to be with her.

Only when he is with her can he feel free.

It was something he had never owned since he was a child, but he found it in this girl.

She is like an elf, let him boring life, finally began to have temperature.

She took him to the roadside stalls and food stalls, which he had never eaten before. He never knew that the food at these roadside stalls was so delicious.

From childhood to adulthood, he was only allowed to eat at home or in high-end restaurants. He never tried these roadside stalls.

Looking at her sweating, he felt what happiness was for the first time.

She bought him milk tea to drink, he knew that the original taste of milk tea is so sweet, like her smile, blooming flowers in his heart.

She took him running on the street in the middle of the night. There was no one around, just the two of them. It was a kind of freedom that she had never had.

At that time, Lu chennian, growing up, finally felt what freedom was.

This is the life he has always wanted, and what he has been looking forward to.

Many people admire him for his distinguished family background, his young and promising, his intelligence and calmness, and his handsome appearance. They admire him a lot, but they all have what he envies, which is freedom.

No one knows how he spent more than 20 years, thinking about why he lived such a life every day.

Since he met Chu Jinran, his life began to be full of sunshine. He knew that he would never give up her in his life, because without her, his life would be like a jar of dead ashes.

Lu chennian was sitting on the plane, looking at the white clouds outside the window.

Now he's flying in the sky, and he's going to Paris soon.

He pursues his favorite things, his freedom, his long lost smile and the greatest happiness in his life.

At this moment, he deeply understood that he really could not lose Chu Jinran. She was his soul and his soul. Without her, his life would not be meaningful.

The mood is nervous and urgent. He thought about it many times in his mind. When he saw her, how should he talk to her.

After all, it's been a long time. They haven't seen each other for a long time. They must be unfamiliar.

Even, it is very likely that Chu Jinran has put him in the depth of memory, she may have no feelings for him.

But Lu chennian knew that no matter how he would give up this time, he would definitely chase her back.

In the past, his indecision and stubbornness made the happiness that originally belonged to him slip away. This time, he would not be so stupid. He would love her and keep her by his side.

"Chu Jinran You wait for me, I'm coming... " Lu Chen's young and light murmured, and a gentle smile appeared at the corner of his mouth.

This time, she couldn't escape from him.

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Paris.

Chu Jinran is preparing sesame paste for the only child in the kitchen. His nose is itchy and he sneezes suddenly.

Inexplicably, she had a bad premonition, but also very familiar from the feeling, let her heart fluffy.

How could she be so superstitious, shaking her head and trying to clear her mind of strange ideas? She bowed her head and made food for the only one.

The doctor said that when a child is older, he should not be fed breast milk and milk powder all the time. He should try to eat something similar to solid food, which is semi fluid and semi solid. This can promote the development of children's intestines.

So recently Chu Jinran has been trying to reduce the only milk intake.

She began to reduce the intake of milk powder for him, although the only obvious maladjustment, but he is still very good, appetite is good, several times down, also eat very fragrant.

Mingming just now she has been brewing children's food for the only one in the kitchen. How can she suddenly feel fluffy?

It's strange. It feels like something's going to happen.She picked up the small bowl and the sesame paste smelled good. When she came out of the kitchen, the only one who had already climbed to the dining table was ready.

This guy is really a greedy cat. When he knows that he has something to eat, he immediately runs over. He is very similar to her.