Chapter 309

Chu Jinran sits on the bed of the bedroom alone. She has some pain in her heart. She doesn't know why. She always wants him to leave, but when he does leave, her heart will be so miserable.

Why is she so down? After so long, I still can't forget him.

Once he hurt her so deeply, but she still can't hate him. She is too soft and weak. For him, she really can't hate him.

But why did he come back to her this time? Isn't he already engaged to Nian Shiya? Did he realize her importance again? Chu Jinran thought extravagantly, and immediately gave up this ridiculous idea. How could he suddenly realize her importance?

They have been separated for such a long time. If he really loves her, he must have come to her long ago. How can he wait until this time?

Chu Jinran shakes his head and grins bitterly. She is too naive after all. She should always be a dispensable person to him. How can he see her so important?

He always had this illusion that he would laugh at himself when he was too unrealistic.

Since he had been able to be so cruel to her, it proved that he did not love her so much, love a person will not let her so sad.

Chu Jinran heartache thought, has been her self amorous bar.

She held the only hand a little trembling, for his sudden appearance, or ripples in her heart.

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Lu Chen did not go back for many years. He was alone in a strange French Street, surrounded by blonde foreigners, looking at him strangely as a yellow Asian.

All the girls passing by are looking at Lu chennian with some fanaticism.

I've never seen such a good-looking Asian before. He's really handsome, like a delicate man coming out of a cartoon.

He looks very charming with his frown.

There is a sexy girl with blonde hair and blue eyes in a miniskirt. She looks at him boldly and hotly, and her eyes are seductive.

Lu chennian didn't notice at all. He was really impatient. His mind was full of Chu Jinran's giving birth to a child for another man in France. He had no brain to think about other things.

Anger and jealousy quickly occupied his reason and made his heart burn.

For her, he could never help it.

He loved her all the time. For so long, he didn't decrease with the passage of time.

Since he recovered his memory, he has known it clearly.

No one can replace her position in his heart, she is a wonderful and important existence for him, no one can replace her.

All the time, he missed her.

In every lonely and helpless night, he couldn't sleep.

In every return to empty home, so big room, empty, let his heart panic.

I always feel that something is missing in my heart.

All the time, he knew what was missing in his heart. The feeling of missing a piece of heart was empty. There was a feeling of emptiness in the softest part of the heart, like a faint coolness when the wind came.

He was at a loss for that empty cold feeling.

After she left, he lost his sense of belonging.

There is no feeling of home. All the time, he is like a dandelion floating in the air, flying around by the wind and falling in pieces.

It's like a helpless wild child who doesn't know where his roots are.

He always felt that he was abandoned.

How he wanted to come to her. He was afraid that he could not bear to see her live happily with other men while he was still alone.

He's just afraid to see that she doesn't belong to him anymore.

When he came, he was nervous from the time he was on the plane. He didn't know what his heart was flustered about.

But he summoned up the courage to come here and saw the happiness of her and other men.

What kind of man is so important in her heart that she is willing to let her give birth to a child for him and endure loneliness with her child alone.

Does she love that man very much?

The thought that there was a man in her heart who was important enough to have a baby for him made his heart ache.

It took him so long, but he didn't go deep into her heart. What kind of magic does this man have? He can let her give birth to a child in more than two years. He is willing to raise the child alone and stay here alone.

He is really a failure of the man, no matter what method can not keep his beloved woman.

He can run a Lu's enterprise well, can read a postdoctoral degree before he is 30 years old, and can even develop Lu's enterprise to its present position by his own efforts.

He can do what so many people do.But he just can't make her love him wholeheartedly.

He really failed, which is the most difficult thing he has ever done in his life.

Her heart to him is like a distant beauty, he can't chase it.

The pain and loss in his heart became more and more intense. He felt helpless deeply. No matter how hard he tried, there was no way for her to love him. Maybe he was a loser in the world of emotion.

Growing up, he didn't feel warm.

Xu Yuanyu loves him, he knows, but she is a strict mother and never expresses a mother's tender maternal love for a child.

She would only blame him for not doing this and that well.

Growing up, he knew to reflect on himself, but he was also secretly envious. Why are other children's mothers so gentle? Why is only his mother always so strict with him?

But he did not say that he was lonely, she said, he only obeyed in silence.

Growing up, he didn't experience warmth and love. His heart was also full of loneliness. He really longed for a person to warm his cold heart.

Since Chu Jinran appeared, I finally realized what is called warmth.

She is like a small sun, suddenly appears, brings her warm and warm feeling.

Her simplicity and loveliness, her warmth and carefulness made him seem to be surrounded by bursts of happiness.

No one has ever been able to give her such a warm and happy feeling. Even when she was a child, Xu Yuanyu failed to make him feel this way.

She is always warm, with her hot light warm him, let him be frozen for a long time heart gradually melt, began to have a real living feeling.

After knowing her, he deeply felt that he was a real person.

It's a person with family, love, warmth and warmth.

She taught him love and warmth.

Let him have been lonely heart had to rely on, with her together, he never felt lonely and cold.

Only when you are with her can you feel that you are a loved one.

Her gentle, let his heart warm, gradually full of flowers.

He naively thought that he would never have to endure loneliness from now on. He naively thought that after having her, he would have the best happiness in the whole world. He naively thought that he would accompany him all his life, keep him and belong to him all the time, and she would be the only person around him.

He even felt that if he could be with her all his life, then everything would be enough.

No matter what happened, he was full of power as long as he had her around him.

He never dared to imagine that one day she would leave him. He never dared to imagine that one day his world would be like without her.

At that time, he felt that he would never want to live without her again.

But he lost her after all.

In the end, he was still alone.

Why is it so difficult to get happiness? Why is it so difficult to find someone to accompany him for a lifetime? Why did he lose all his important things? Is he destined to be lonely all his life?

Lu chennian doesn't know what's wrong with him now.

He walked alone in the streets of France, with deep pain and anger in his eyes. He walked fast and vigorous, but with blazing anger in his eyes.

No one knows why this delicate and handsome Oriental man is so angry. No one knows what happened.

He was alone in the streets of France, heartache alone.

Loneliness and anger bit by bit attack his heart, let his heart gradually cold.

He didn't know how he got back to the hotel. His car was all on the downstairs of Chu Jinran's house, but he didn't have the strength to go back. He didn't know how long he had been walking, and finally he went back to the hotel.

He opened the door and threw himself heavily on the bed.

Lying in a big soft bed, his heart is empty, no dependence.

What on earth is he doing here? Did you come all the way to France just to see her give birth to other men's children?

Lu chennian smiles bitterly, remembering that when he and Chu Jinran had a good relationship, she always had a silly imagination about what kind of baby their children would be.

She said that she hoped their children would have big eyes, small mouth and white skin. Her children would be lovely and excellent. She said that she would make her baby have the best love.

She also said that if they had children, they would look like him and have character like her.

She even said that if she was born a girl, she would be called Lu Niantong. If she was born a boy, she would be called Lu Nianchen. She foolishly said that these two names are especially like the names of male and female masters in idol dramas.

He always dotes on the smile, said that if she likes, the child's name can be anything.At that time, he felt that as long as she was happy, he could give her the best things in the world, as long as she could stay with him for a lifetime.

Now she really gave birth to a child, really big eyes, small mouth, white skin, that child is really beautiful, unfortunately, the child's father is not him.

And they should never have a chance to give birth to a child named Lu Niantong or Lu Nianchen.

He is really going to be lonely all his life.