I always thought that I was a special existence in Ruan Tang's heart.
He is a family member, a best friend and a confidant who can say nothing.
But it was not until this happened that I realized that I was wrong.
In fact, in Ruan Tang's eyes, I am no different from others and receive the same treatment.
No, it's worse than the treatment of others.
After all, Ruan Tang compiled more lies on me than others.
Now I just want to ask Ruan Tang when she plans to confess to me if no one else will know.
Will you be the first to confess to me?
"Sister Shen, I just don't want you to feel sorry for me." Ruan Tang probably guessed my idea and said slowly, with an apologetic tone
I shook my head and looked serious. "You're making me sad now."
Take a deep breath and stop worrying about this problem. Instead, he asked Ruan Tang, "if we didn't find out, what would you do after quietly transplanting manna into the uterus?"
"Transfer all my money to Su Xiangyang's account, and then travel around the seaside city I want to go to, quietly waiting for death." Ruan Tang answered without hesitation.
Obviously, she had already imagined the rest of her life.
And in this life, there is no us.
"You bad girl," I couldn't help tears, reaching for her cheek, but I couldn't help it.
There's hardly anything good about her now. Wouldn't it be pathetic if her face was pinched?
"I don't want to be your burden," Ruan Tang explained. "Just like now, when you know the truth, you have to take care of me and be sad for me. I just don't want this to happen."
"You are my sister. What do you worry about when you are sad? I am willing to do this all my life. Can you manage it?" I cried almost to the breaking of my voice.
Ruan Tang squeezed out a smile and opened his mouth, as if to comfort me, but he didn't say anything.
He asked me again, "are there no other questions? If not, I'll have a rest. "
Of course.
Agreed on three questions.
"The last one," I sniffed, trying to make my voice calmer, "can you let me stay with you until the end?"
After being stunned for a long time, Ruan Tang laughed.
Just smiled and began to shed tears again, hurriedly wiping, "really, what's the problem? It's clearly a request. Sister Shen, you don't mean what you say."
I didn't say a word and looked straight at her.
Waiting for the answer to this question.
After Ruan Tang cried, he nodded at me with red eyes, "OK, you accompany me."
Without hesitation, I walked quickly and held Ruan Tang tightly in my arms.
Ruan Tang also held me tightly, his voice choked and trembled, "in fact, sister Shen An, I'm really afraid. I don't want to die. My life has just begun, isn't it? Why is it coming to an end?"
"It won't end. We have to live together." I said firmly.
This is not a trick to Ruan Tang.
After leaving the ward, I went straight to the doctor.
The doctor's expression was very serious, "her condition is not very good, and she still wants to transplant the uterus. In terms of current immunity, she is likely to die directly because of postoperative infection, and she can't wait until her condition is completely serious..."
As soon as you say it, the doctor doesn't stop.
Most of the content is to scold Ruan Tang for not cooperating well with the treatment.
"If you don't do uterine transplantation and receive chemotherapy, you can replace everything you can. How long can you live?" I asked directly.
The doctor was stunned. His eyes were a little unbelievable. "Do you still want to continue the treatment?"
I nodded, "yes, if treated well, how long can I live?"
Afraid that the doctor didn't understand what I said, I specially explained in detail, "no matter how much it costs, it doesn't matter. As long as Ruan Tang can live longer."
"But... She is in the late stage, and now the treatment doesn't make much sense. It's just to prolong the time. Even if she has money, I don't recommend it." The doctor is honest.
He also told me, "the reason why I let her do chemotherapy now is that she wants to do uterine transplantation. Chemotherapy can prevent uterine lesions, but if she doesn't do transplantation now, she'd better go home and have a good rest."
"Will you die faster if you go home?" I asked.
"Yes... It will be faster, but for patients, the last time is spent with family and friends. At least they are very happy." The doctor replied.
I rejected the proposal directly.
"Family and friends can come to the hospital to accompany her. I hope she can live longer, doctor, please." I made a sincere bow to the doctor.
The doctor sighed helplessly, "well, since you insist, I will immediately call the doctors of the whole department to discuss the treatment plan."
"Thank you, doctor." I was suddenly happy.
The doctor shot back, "but also say well, for this disease, there are likely to be all kinds of accidents in the process of treatment. It is also very possible that it will not reach your expected state at that time. If you think you can't accept it, you can go back now."
I see what the doctor means.
He was worried that when I spent my money, and Ruan Tang didn't last long, he would come to him and the hospital for trouble.
Under the tense doctor-patient relationship, it is a good thing to speak clearly first.
I firmly nodded to the doctor, "I won't regret it. As long as I tried, she still died. That's God's arrangement. No one can blame."
After repeatedly confirming with me, the doctor promised to call the Department to study the treatment plan and give me a reply tomorrow.
I felt a long sigh of relief before I walked out of the doctor's office.
As soon as I came out, I met Su Xiangyang.
To be exact, Su Xiangyang is waiting for me at the door.
Seeing me coming out, he asked me directly, "what did the doctor say? Is it still possible?"
I was a little frustrated and shook my head at Su Xiangyang. "It's impossible. The doctor said that sticking to treatment now is just delaying time."
"You already knew the result, didn't you?" Su Xiangyang pressed my shoulder. "Didn't you just want to procrastinate?"
Yes, I went to the doctor to ask him for help so that Ruan Tang could live longer.
But when I really heard the doctor say the truth I expected, it was still too heavy to breathe.
"Probably because I can't cheat myself anymore, so I feel sad." I smiled bitterly.