54 CHAPTER 54 : Let her know you

In the high tower in the Qilin sect, a man is drowning on his sorrow. Overlooking the valley, the moon seems particularly bright tonight. The summer breeze is cooling the hot night. But the man in the tower is drinking without stopping. Forgoing the cup, he drank straight from the wine jar. "Is this how it feels to fall out of love?", he said sorrowfully to no one particular.

"She didn't even love me. She didn't have feeling for me", he continued talking to himself. Maybe he just doesn't deserve her love. Maybe they shouldn't have marry. But how about his child in her belly?. Is it even his child?. No! The child is his. That is what he most confident in. That night in the hut was her first time.

Afterwards, she has been staying in her house with barely any contact with outsiders. So, he should have been very happy that his beloved is carrying his child.

Yeah, he is happy about that, but shouldn't she hate that child?. Like how the empress seems to be hating him? . The child whom she believe to be the emperor's illegitimate child?.

"You should already understand her. She is different", a voice pushed out the doubts in Long Jie's heart. Yes, Li Xi Rui is different. The way she thinks is different. If there are two options, A and B, then she will choose C. That is how different she is.

"Sheng. She didn't love me", Long Jie choked on his own words. He naturally knows only Rui Sheng is brave enough to disturb him.

"En", Rui Sheng sat himself and stares disdainfully at the wine jar. He never did like wine. He didn't like to not have control of himself. Long Jie is the same. But tonight, his cousin is heartbroken enough to drunk that much wine.

"Sheng. What am I supposed to do?", Long Jie stared at his cousin. He hopes Rui Sheng would not be too difficult to decipher tonight.

"Give her a chance~", said Rui Sheng. Give her a chance to fall in love with you. "Let her know you", he continued. Li Xi Rui need someone to depend on- someone strong. Long Jie seems to fall into this category.

"I'm afraid. What if... she won't ever fall in love with me?", Long Jie asked. What if someday she leave him?. Won't that be more painful to him?.

"Give yourself a chance~", said Rui Sheng. Give yourself a chance to be loved. Rui Sheng had known on how Long Jie is lacking in that department. Growing up mistaken as the emperor's illegitimate child, he had endured too much. The empress who showed her caring and gentle attitude is nothing but a tigress guarding her territory. And the one crossing the territory is none other than Long Jie.

Forced to acknowledge Long Jie as her son, she had been especially hostile to Long Jie. Every day, she would remind him of his duty. The only duty he should never forget- To be the crown prince's supporter. From when he was a child, till Long Jie moved out of the palace, never did she forget to remind him. He is just a pawn. He didn't deserve love. He was just an orphan. Unwanted by his mother, cast aside by his father- the emperor.

The day Rui Sheng finally met him, Long Jie has always believed that the only family he have was the royal family. Oh, how wrong he was. He didn't have any blood relationship with the cold family at all. In fact, he did have Rui Sheng as his family. Wanting to repay the kindness of the emperor on saving him, he chooses to protect his son- the crown prince. Until the day the crown prince assumed his role as the emperor, he would be by his side.

"Thank you for finding me", that was the word he had said to Rui Sheng when he told him the whole truth. The 7 years old Long Jie had seems so mature at that time that Rui Sheng felt pity. For a child to be that mature what had he endure in the palace?.

*Splash!* out of nowhere, Rui Sheng pour a cup of water to Long Jie's face. "Sober?. Find her and talk", Rui Sheng didn't want them to end up like the last lifetime. So forgoing his teasing tendency, he decided to be frank.

Shocked and sober, Long Jie stared at his cousin. Rui Sheng seems to be out of character today. He seems irritated. "En", Long Jie nodded. His cousin is smiling but it just looks creepy.

Satisfied with Long Jie's answer, Rui sheng disappears into thin air bringing along his cousin. 'This is a charity', Rui Sheng had thought.