Chapter 340

"Don't cry. It's hard for me to do that." Shen Yue hugs me again, but I cry even more fiercely. But at the end of crying, I still want to push Shen Yue away. I don't want to be affected by my emotions and fall into the trap of Shen Yue's tenderness again.

I've been cheated by Shen Yue once. I don't want to be cheated by him any more. I'd rather Shen Yue be merciless to me and let me die completely.

But Shen Yue's heart is also likely to be a tug saw. Seeing me like this, he can't help kissing me again.

Shen Yue finally put pressure on me. I sighed, closed my eyes and let Shen Yue vent on me.

I suddenly remember the first time we had a relationship, when Shen Yue cheated me into his house. We were lying on the bed in his bedroom. At that time, I didn't know what it meant to have a relationship. Shen Yue was just kissing me desperately. He first put his hand into my clothes, and then stayed in front of my chest. When he couldn't help it, he finally asked me in my ear if I could let him He went in.

At that time, I didn't even understand the word "go in". I didn't understand Shen Yue's saying that he wanted to go in. Where was he going to go? Isn't he already on me? Is there anything more intimate than that? Later, Shen Yue pulled my pants off, and I realized what Shen Yue wanted to do. But at that time, I was really in pain, but Shen Yue refused to give up. They persisted for a long time, and I felt that I was going to break my skin. Shen Yue succeeded, and he finally entered my body.

I will always remember the conversation between Shen Yue and me after that night. I was crying in his arms. I asked him to promise me that he would love me forever and marry me. Shen Yue promised me, and even he swore in front of me. But can these vows really guarantee our love? In the end, Shen Yue and I broke up.

I don't know if Shen Yue can remember what he said to me that night. I think he has probably forgotten. As long as a man gets a woman, he will lose interest completely, because there is no hope of conquest. For him, this woman is an appendage, and the dominance of love has been transferred to men. He doesn't need to worry about women's dissatisfaction Will leave him, and he doesn't need to put all his energy into this woman as before.

And the more a man grows up, he will feel that love is not as important as he imagined. There are other things in life that are more important than love, such as wealth, such as status, such as brotherhood. Shen Yue is just like this. He slowly moves me from the first position in his heart to the second and third Finally, he moved out of his mind.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help crying again, but I didn't dare to cry. I was afraid that Shen Yue would find him in my body. I hugged him and he hugged me tightly. We hugged each other as if we had never been separated.

After that, I lay in Shen Yue's arms. Shen Yue kisses my forehead and says "sorry" to me, but I don't want to talk any more.

What else can I say? No matter what I do now, Shen Yue wants to break up with me. I don't want to guess what the purpose of Shen Yue's relationship with me tonight is?

"Man Xin, I'm sorry. I really don't want to hurt you."

"You don't have to apologize. I know what you mean." I sighed and put my finger on Shen Yue's lips. "You really want to break up with me, but your body still wants to be with me. That's why you are so hesitant and contradictory."

"I I am Shen Yue choked. I guess that's what he meant, but when I said it, he thought it was too cruel.

"It doesn't matter. We are all adults. Everyone can understand it." I tried to smile, "I will slowly accept the reality that you and I have broken up. Please give me more time."

"You give me some time, I really feel guilty for Lily now. I think we are like executioners, pushing her to this end step by step." Shen Yue took my hand and put it on his chest, "do you know? Before Lily's accident, I really wanted to get back together with you. I thought I cared about you and Gu Yuze very much. Every time I thought about the picture of you and Gu Yuze together, I didn't want to see you, but I didn't want to tell you this feeling. In the end, I had to part with you... "

"I know."

"But after I parted hands with you, I regret it very much. I miss you so much. I'm used to sleeping with you every night. Especially when I'm tired, I like to hold you in my arms. I feel a sense of sureness, and even feel so kind in my heart. That's why I come to you that night. I can't help missing you in my heart."

"But why are you with lily?"

"I didn't stay with her, so I feel very guilty. I think it's because of these things between me and you that I involuntarily implicated lily. Originally, Lily would know my state, but later I found out that she was an unconscious girl, so I didn't dare. I didn't want to destroy her, because I didn't love her very much." Shen sighed. What he told me should be the truth.

"Not very love, that is a little love?" I suddenly got angry. Shen Yue's words annoyed me for many years. I know Shen Yue doesn't love Lily very much, but I also know that a person like him can't have no feelings at all. Otherwise, how can he kiss Lily? He's not Jiang Ming Ming. He can't do this kind of thing at all."Man Xin, don't ask me this question. I don't want to talk about it."

"You don't want to talk? Then we can never go back to the past. I'll bet another new thing will happen after Lily's affair. I don't know when you will stimulate me again and what will happen to me. "

"Why don't I leave Guangzhou? I'll give you Tianzheng. I want to be quiet for a while. Otherwise, I really can't solve these things in my heart."

In fact, Shen Yue said that this is the best way. If I promised Shen Yue at that time, even if I didn't let him resign, that is to let him leave for a period of time and give us a quiet space, he and I might be able to go back to the past, but I didn't promise. First, I can't afford Tianzheng alone. I need Shen Yue to stay in Tianzheng And Shen Yue, but I still don't want him to leave Guangzhou.

Shen Yue thinks the same way. He is also worried that I can't make the right day by myself. After all, he has been fighting with me for so many years. Even if Jiang Mingming joins in, he is worried. In addition, he doesn't want to leave me.

So I shook my head. I didn't want Shen Yue to resign.