Chapter 86 - Mommy's Toy

"He said what!?" exclaimed Lia starling me making me drop my chicken.

"Unnie! You made me drop my chicken." I whined as I pouted and picked it up not letting it go to waste.

"No how dare he? That misogynistic prick. I should have been there. You went easy on him Tally. I would have unleashed the beast." she fumed and I ignored her as I started on a new drum stick.

She continued on her rant as I quietly ate not giving a damn about what happened today.

I had taken a nap when I got home and slept off the anger so I was fine now.

I really wanted to forget what happened today but Lia was so upset by what happened that she has been curing ever since she got home and Minjae told her.

I was giving Minjae the silent treatment for two reasons.

One being that he didn't defend me and two that he was a man.

Despised the lesser species at this moment and he just had to be one of them.

"Tally are you okay? You are being quiet and you usually aren't." she asked concerned when she noticed that I was detached from the conversation and was quietly eating.

I sighed as I placed the cleaned chicken leg bone on my empty plate using my napkin to wipe my fingers and mouth, "Lia, Unnie, I'm fine and I'm over it. You do not have to be upset for my sake. I handled it already and what's done is done. It's in the past. Now if you'll excuse me I would like to turn in early for the night."

I excused myself from the table without giving Minjae a single glance and went to my room where the kids were sleeping.

I brushed my teeth and avoided looking in the mirror not needing the negativity of how bad I looked in my life.

I hate to admit it but that bastard was right.

I really let myself go and my mental health was plummeting.

I cant even take care of my own kids with out help.

I have been invading my friends privacy for the past two weeks and I am such a burden chasing a dream that seems farther every day.

I sighed as I laid on my back on my bed as I stared up at the ceiling and tears rolled down the side of my cheek filling my ears.

What was I doing?

Who was I kidding?

I could not do this and I wanted to give up.

I silently sobbed as I held my hand over my mouth as to not wake the kids when I decided to go for a walk.

I tiptoed to the from door silently opening and closing it with my jacket threw over my shoulder.

It was not very cold out but I brought it just incase.

They were not lying when they said that 12:00 am in Seoul is just like 12:00 for Cafes and restaurants were still open and people were busy about.

I slowly walked around the busy streets trying to gather my thoughts and looking threw windows at business places to see those who were hiring.

Maybe this building an empire thing was not for me, maybe I just needed a simple decent enough job or maybe I should just go back home.

I sighed as really considered moving back home with the twins when I saw a sign on a building that was available for purchase.

My eyes lit up and my heart felt alive again as I ran closer to the sign reading the details.

The building was huge, and I mean huge and it was perfect and very tall.

I felt excited and as if I had purpose again as I wrote down the number in my phone and ran in the direction of home stopping to buy a strawberry milkshake.

I was really obsessed with those.

It was after one in the morning when I returned home so I had to be quiet but I had to tell them of the amazing news so I quickly walked in the direction of there room opening the door with out knocking which I regretted as soon as I did it.

"Guys guess whaaa-OH MY GOD!-!" I yelled as my mind registered what was happening in front of me.

"Atalia what the fuck-" said Minjae as he fell off the bed grabbing the sheets to cover up his naked body.

Lia's cheeks were flushed not only from embarrassment but also from the sex.

"Tally. We didn't know you were still up. We were umm-"

"Making Heesung a sibling yeah I know" I cut her off as she began to explain.

She chuckled all flustered as she held the sheets up to her chest and I decided that it was time to leave.

"Yeah I'm gonna just-yeah. Continue with what you were doing and pretend like anything didn't just happen. I know I will. Good night." I said as I closed the door behind me eyes still widened and body ridden with shock.

I shuddered in disgust desperately trying to erase the putrid image from my mind, but it would just not go away.

I sighed as I tip toed to my room shaking off my jacket and placed it on the hanger in the closet before going to lay under the warm and comfy sheets.

The thought of Lia and Minjae going at it was still in my mind but soon it shifted to thoughts of the first and last time that I had sex.

I remember the way we kissed and how hard he felt against my wet and throbbing pussy and I closed my eyes clenching my thighs to try and recreate that feeling.

I remember how expertly her tongue worked around my clit and he pumped his fingers in and outside of me and I clenched my thighs even harder.

I needed a relief.

I haven't had another orgasm since him even though I had bought my self a vibrator a few moths ago.

Oh yeah that's right!

I had a vibrator.

I rolled over to my side as I opened the bed side table rummaging around until I found the little magical toy.

I had never used it before and was not sure as to how to so I just turned it on and heard the low vibrating hums.

I positioned my self comfortably on the bed as I laid on my back placing my hand that held the vibrator under the sheets as I edge it closer and closer only to chicken out when it was really close.

I took a few deep breaths as I mustered up my courage and I placed my hands back under  the sheets again and the vibrator came in contact with my clit this time.

I felt a surge of emotions and I quickly slapped my free hand over my mouth as twisted and turned being overcome with pleasure.

I saw stars at the back of my eyes and my they rolled back and I threw the sheets off me suddenly feeling hot and claustrophobic. 

My heart picked up as I stifled my moans and my eyes felt as if they were glued shut and I tossed and turned in bed desperate for a release.

I had much pent up aggression deep inside me and this was the perfect source for a release.

A few seconds later of fighting for my life I felt a knot in stomach before I felt as if I was on cloud nine as I felt a sense of relief.

I was sweating and panting by the time I was Finished and my arms and kegs flayed about as I tried to steady my breath.

That. Was. Awesome!

I chuckled as looked at the toy being mesmerized and wanted to go for round two.

I repositioned myself to the original spot and placed my hands under the shirt switching my toy on but to my disappointment it didn't make a sound.

"No no no not right. I literally just used you once you piece of junk!" I whisper yelled as I sat up in bed hitting the damn stupid thing.

"Fucking shit!" I cursed as I threw it on the floor and fell back into bed feeling more stressed and angrier than before.

I tried my best to go to sleep tossing and turning until I gave up and decided to use my fingers.

I was back to square one of being scared, but then I placed my pinky finger in and didn't like the pain.

I sighed as I removed my hand and laid on my side and tried even harder to fall asleep.

At this rate my vagina will be sewed shut like my stomach.

Well at least I can say that I have the needle eye (Jamaican reference meaning tight vagina and is usually a compliment or flex).