Chapter 7 - Confusion

JAYDEN POV

I heard her crying. I was so mad when I saw her with that guy. I lost control so I dragged her into her residence and did this.

I stopped and when I looked at her, she was a mess. There's a mark on her wrist from when I grabbed her hand and pinned her down, her lips were swollen and has a small cut, it was bleeding. There's a mark on her neck which I made when I kissed her. Her clothes were totally ripped. Her body's trembling.

This is not what I want. I released her and sit on the bed. She didn't move. She was still laying down on the bed like she was dead. How can I do this to her?

I stood up and walked out of her residence. When I went out of the building, I saw Kian. I can see his furious. Who wouldn't? His girlfriend was dragged by her ex.

"Is she there? What did you do to her?" He asked.

I have to be a villain in front of this guy. "Why don't you see for yourself?" I smirked and walked away.

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I was already sitting on the bed when the door swung open. I thought Jayden went back but it was Kian. He rushed into me and hugged me.

"Hey. Are you okay?" He asked.

I just cried. He was caressing my back to calm me down. I was doing it to him earlier and now he's comforting me. He pulled the blanket and covered my body with it. I forgot I was half naked. The only clothing that wasn't ripped was my skirt.

"Did he -?"

I shook my head. "He stopped when I cried."

"Peggy are you in love with him?" He asked.

"I - I don't know. But it's hurting me inside. When I saw her with that girl, I was jealous and it's like someone is stabbing my heart. When he forced me earlier, I wanted to die. My mind is against it but my body responded. It's just painful because I felt like he just wanted my body. Because he knows I'm still a virgin." I don't know why I told Kian about it but I feel like I can trust him.

"It's because you love him. You're confused right now because you've never been in love. It hurts so much because you don't know what he feels about you. Your heart and body wanted to give in but your mind wanted to be sure of your own feelings."

Kian is like me. A one-sided love that we can never be sure if the one we longed for can reciprocate our feelings. The only difference is Kian was satisfied with it but I'm not.

He smiled and pat my head. "You're a mess. Take a shower and change your clothes. Second period will soon start."

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JAYDEN POV

After class, I asked the boys if they can accompany me for a drink. We went to Soul Escape Bar. The bar is not crowded and there's a VIP rooms if you want to drink in private.

We went inside on one of the private rooms and ordered drinks and food.

"So what happened? You did it to Peggy right?" It was Luke who asked first.

"What did you do to Peggy?" Andrew asked frowning.

"Nina didn't tell you? Peggy went to class after this guy dragged him out of the music room. She has a mark on both wrists, her lips were swollen and has a small cut and she was not wearing the same clothes this morning. Her eyes looks like she just cried. Alora was mad and she actually wanted to come to you as Camila." Luke sounded disappointed.

Camila was his fiance's other self. She has dissociative identity disorder and quite violent when she takes over Alora's body.

"I thought you two broke up. You already got a new girlfriend right? That Debbie from the Gold Class? And Peggy is currently with Kian, her classmate." Percy exclaimed.

"I got pissed because of that guy. I just wanted to teach her a lesson."

"Why?" Luke asked.

"She shouldn't associate herself with another guy." I continued.

"Why?" Luke asked again.

"Because -" I looked at them and they were staring at me.

"No. I'm not." I said.

"Not what?" Percy asked.

"You're going in circles man! Just admit that you're jealous because Peggy got another boy toy. Admit that you already fell for her." Andrew blurted out.

I laughed. "No I'm not in love! I couldn't be."

"Why?" Luke keeps on asking why. I don't even know why.

"I was like her. I changed girlfriend once I don't feel like I needed them anymore. When she asked me to be his one week boyfriend, I agreed because in my mind it's easier to break up since we think the same. But when she said we're over because it's been already a week, I got mad. Then we both agreed to extend our relationship but she changed her mind and really broke up with me. When Debbie confessed, I wanted to show Peggy that I can easily replace her but I didn't expect she will be asked out by a guy in front of everyone. I was pissed. I wanted to punch the guy in the face." I explained.

"Why are you competing with her? And you haven't answered my question earlier." Luke insisted.

"Because I'm jealous! If that's what you want to hear jerk! She didn't eat lunch with us then I heard someone saw them went in the music room so I went there. I saw that guy leaning into her chest and she was hugging the asshole so I lost control."

"But you know what you did was wrong. Why don't you just talk to her and tell her you love her?" Andrew said.

"I'm not sure about my feelings. I've never been in love. And if I do, I won't tell her. She's rich. She's an heiress. Look at me. I'm a nobody. And maybe right now, she hates me from what I did." It's true. I maybe a CFO of Luke's company but I'm still a regular employee unlike her.

"You know Peggy is a rebel, commanding and rude but she's not Emily. She doesn't care about how rich the guy is or if he's a nobody. She's not like that." Percy said.