Chapter 3758

Two days have passed, but I still can't let go.

In the past two days, I have never been out of my room. Even the meals are almost delivered to my room by Xia Wanyu or my cousin.

I can feel that my whole person seems to have changed, and I also understand very well that such a change is very bad for me, but even if I understand this truth, I can't get out of the deep sadness in my heart.

I think no one is more sad than me at this moment, right? I belong to a sorrow.

For the sake of my children, I personally stabbed the knife into the belly of my beloved woman. I don't even know why I did it at that time.

Now Jiang Qingqing hates me. That's for sure. Jiang Qingqing is stabbed by me for no reason. It's strange that she doesn't hate me.

But considering the situation at that time, what else can I do besides this? Even if I am sober, if I don't do it to Jiang Qingqing, will the Jiang family return the child to me?

I'm afraid not?

Should I give up my own daughter for the sake of Jiang Qingqing?

This was originally a difficult multiple choice question, and my irrationality made me choose my daughter, which hurt Jiang Qingqing.

This choice is right or wrong, there is no answer, I can not think of an answer.

No matter whether this choice is right or wrong, I am really in a deep sense of guilt.

I'm also afraid to face other people now. I'm afraid to see the look in my eyes from my cousin and Xia Wanyu. Do they think that I have become a devil now? I have to deal with the women I love so much. Will they be afraid of me?

After such a thing happened, all the negative emotions appeared in my mind for a moment, and they were driving me crazy.

I've thought about it for countless times, but after thinking about it, it seems that no one can blame it, and I can only blame it.

If I could go back to Mordor earlier, wouldn't this have happened?

Thinking about Jiang Qingqing's future, when she sees me again, her face may be full of all kinds of hatred, and I feel pain like a knife cut in my heart.

Although Jiang Qingqing had such a state to treat me before, I was angry at that time, but I didn't feel so painful as now.

At that time, I always felt that Jiang Qingqing was sorry for me. Some of the things I had done made me feel that it was right. It was normal for Jiang Qingqing to have such a mood.

But now I hurt Jiang Qingqing. Jiang Qingqing didn't do anything and got involved in this matter. I even said it well before. I won't hurt Jiang Qingqing.

However, I still forgot what I said. Jiang Qingqing was still hurt by me in a very cruel way.

This makes me feel more sinful. I can't imagine what my life will be like in the future. I just feel that I seem to have lost something, the most important thing, in my heart.

Looking out of the window in the bustling city, sitting on the windowsill of my face without any expression, maybe now I have no strength to make other expressions, right?

This time I have dealt with Jiang Qingqing. I know she is the most unforgettable woman in my heart, but I still did it. I hurt her.

Will I do the same to Xia Wanyu, Wu Wu and my cousin?

Whenever I think of this, I feel inexplicable panic in my heart. I even feel that I have become a disaster, which may break out at any time and then hurt my closest people.

Without me, Jiang Qingqing would not be hurt. Without me, my daughter Xiaoyu would not even fall into the hands of the Jiang family.

Isn't such me a disaster?

At the moment, I know how terrible my idea is, but the more I think about it, the more I feel that my idea is right. This is the most terrible place.

I responded and slapped me on the back of the head.

What's wrong with me? Now I have been in such a state, what will I be like in the future? To be slaughtered?

There was a sound of opening the door. I turned to see that my cousin came in with a bowl.

My cousin took a look at me and put the porridge on the bed. She came to me and sat down.

"What are you thinking?" Asked the cousin.

I looked at my cousin in surprise. Every time she came to deliver food to me these two days, she would not talk to me. Maybe she also wanted me to think about it by myself?

Now my cousin wants to talk to me. Is she ready to enlighten me?

"Nothing." I opened my mouth, probably because I didn't say a word for several days. My voice was very strange, and there was a mechanical voice in my hoarseness."You've been thinking about some problems these days." My cousin said with a smile.

"In fact, it's no use thinking more. It's already happened, and At that time, you didn't know what you were doing. It's not your fault. "

I shook my head in pain, stretched out my hand and scratched my own messy hair.

"How can we not blame it? I did it. Even if I lost consciousness at that time, could it deny the fact that I hurt Jiang Qingqing? " I looked out of the window and said.

Speaking of it again, my heart is still so painful that I can't stand it.

"There's no way." My cousin sighed a little.

"At that time, there was no way for Xiaoyu. Even if you were sober, if you didn't do that, Xiaoyu would be given by the crazy Jiang family In a word, don't blame yourself for what you've done, because it's useless. "

I looked at my cousin in a daze. What my cousin said to me was the same as what master Ku said to me. Master Ku reminded me before I did that. Now my cousin also said so. Can't I really feel remorse for the wrong things I have done?

"I can't help blaming myself." I scratched my hair again.

"If I don't blame myself, I won't stay out these days. This emotion can't be erased from my heart. Elder sister, I really don't know what to do, you teach me, what should I do? "

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