Chapter 250 - I Never Belonged To You

Ch-250

"Do you remember how I was when you left me? I know... as a soldier working for the motherland is your first priority, even I am a social servant. Won't I understand you? huh? I even got ready to marry you. Don't I have the right to know a single word about your whereabouts? That day, You didn't even put the ring on my finger and just left me like that. I became a joker to everyone. 

"Every day, I have to hide from people. The whole national media was at my home. Even in an interview, the media asked about me to the president. Every single day is hell to me. Do you know what I used to think? I used to think.... when will these things end. At that time, My heart gave me an answer saying that these things would end, if you come back. I waited for you to return but all I am left with is... disappointment, an utter disappointment. 

"People called me an unlucky woman. They showed me an unwanted pity. Everyone says that there was nothing crueler than death but to me, their pity and their wishes killed me. To avoid thinking them, I joined my company and kept myself busy to the point where I don't have time to even eat but every day I was surrounded by gossip. 

"I still don't understand, why haven't you worn the ring to me? First, you used me to solve the case. To buy time and to save your life, you baited me on the dinner date. If I am not smart and haven't made preparations,  I would have been shot dead that day! And the stupid me, forgave you after you came back alive. And I 'FELL IN LOVE '  with you again. And even got ready to marry you. What did you do to me? Huh? You left me in the aisle all alone in front of thousands of officials to fulfill your so-called duties. 

"Shall I say something? Hmm? That day after you went to finish the task, Your friend Andrus disguised himself like your troop's member and joined your troops to protect you. He killed the remaining people. He searched for you like a madman and fainted there. By luck, he wasn't caught by those monsters. What if he was caught? If his identity was revealed as a prime minister he would have been dead that day! 

"Also, Henrieth tell me... where is your love? When have you shown it to me? You just used me as a person whom you can use at any time! First, you used me to take the Leuod terrorist case forward. Rose, you used her to bait me. She was such a poor girl. She also loved you but you made her disguised as a victim and sent her to me. That foolish girl was still loving you. You sent her to me with evidence and made me deliver that news to the President. So, that Leuod can target me and shift their attention from you to me, and then they can kill Rose! And then you called me on a dinner date, and coincidentally the finance minister was having dinner with his family there. That was the day where Leuod planned to kill me and sir. And you used me as your shield to get out of the clutches without a single scratch. 

"If not for my father, brother, and Hen's precautions and my precautions. I would have been dead that day and I was on the verge of death. Don't you feel guilty for all these?  Fine, let's say you have no choice but to do it.  But you hid from me for a year. I was so guilty that I liked you at that time. And after a year you came to me. After all your problems were solved and started chasing me. And the foolish me thought that you loved me, and accepted you, even got ready to marry you. What did you do then? You left me in the aisle all alone. Have you ever thought about how I would feel? How can I show my face to others? Putting on a ring wouldn't even take five seconds. 

"Have you ever thought that I would feel hurt? Did you ever consider me in your plans? Okay! I got it! Whenever you are free and have free time to think then you would remember you need a woman. And that woman supposed to be me, right?" Chasina said as she gave a mocking laugh. 

"And your will and your letter! You asked me to stay happy!? And that fucking marriage certificate! Huh!? I wonder why I signed that!" Chasina said with a sigh, 

"Henrieth! Eight years passed, the hurt caused by you was healed by others and one of the most important people who healed it was Andrus. It's not that I am being grateful to him, it's just that he showed me the meaning of true love and showed me what a person can do for love. He was willing to stay single for the rest of the life when I rejected him! 

"He never forced me to love him, when I rejected him, unlike you who forced me to love you back by pestering you for only six months after you came 'alive'. And do you know he was a kind of person, just to give me security he would hold a wedding earlier and marry me! 

"You were saying he wasn't worthy of me but in fact, I am the person who wasn't worthy of him. Do you know why he can be so awesome, because he held his morals uprightly; I am not saying you have shitty morals, we can take a gamble in business but not in life. I was broken into pieces by you, but he put me together while he is being broken! But he never complained. He was so good to the point.....I was afraid that he would leave me alone!" a lone tear escaped from her eyes as her voice turned lighter. 

"My heart always says Andrus is my destiny in this life. Henrieth, I just want you to move on, don't be stuck on me. The thing you have on me wasn't love but an obsession, an illusion that has a mistaken as love.

"We both were hard to get kind, so you were so sure that you wanted me at any cost. And you were a kind of man who leaves me whenever you pleased, here our both ego's made us want each other. I behave like a princess, so you want to tame me. You were like air, who was hard to grasp, I wanted you and kept you in my grasp. These are pure egos that led us to entangle with each other. Now also, you were afraid I won't belong to you if you miss me now. But it's just that.... I never belonged to you! Neither you belonged to me! 

"I thought we could be friends since.... you were Andrus's friend. But it's clear now we couldn't! Please leave! Before the media catches this thing and says that I am cuckolding Andrus!" Chasina said.