Chapter 122

I walked very fast. When I passed the corridor, I saw some people gathered for a tea party. I rarely paid attention to their strange eyes at me. When I turned the corner, I collided with an zilou.

Seeing that I was in a wrong state, he asked me what was the matter, and I didn't say anything. I didn't stop until I ran back to my bedroom and closed the door. I was so desperate and sad. Why did I do this to me.

Unable to vent the pain and despair wrapped around my heart. The dense lines intertwined a net, bleeding my heart and tightening it more and more tightly.

I've been in love with a man for ten years. What's my two-year marriage?

Not even a joke.

In order to fulfill his promise to Yan Ruyu, Xiao Lelin can take care of other women and doesn't want to touch his wife. Even, he threw me with heavy medicine alone in the hotel.

My body was so cold. I held the quilt and tried to absorb some temperature, but I failed.

Seeing the fruit knife on the table, I thought of death. It's so dirty and disgusting. I rubbed my arm hard. If Qiu Linyan knew that I hadn't been touched by Xiao Lelin, but was touched by another man who didn't know who, would he still want me?

All kinds of negative emotions occupy the whole brain. I go to the table, pick up the fruit knife and put it on my wrist. If I row it, won't it be painful.

With a little force on the left hand, the blade touches the wrist, which is cold and biting. If you exert more force, blood will seep out.

Think carefully about how sad my life is. My mother doesn't want it. My father doesn't love it. After being bullied, the only elder who thinks he is good to me has been using me. He has to be so ruined by a pair of dogs and men. What's the meaning of my life.

"What are you doing?" One hand reached over and grabbed the blade.

I looked up, stared at Qiu Linyan, and suddenly struggled, "you let go, you let go of me."

"Yuanyuan, you can see clearly that it's me and Qiu Linyan." Qiu Linyan was frightened by me. He hugged me hard and held the fruit knife tightly in one hand for fear of being robbed by me.

"I won't let me go. Go away. Don't take care of me. Don't take care of me. Qiu Linyan, I don't deserve it. Don't come to me again, OK? Let me be alone."

I've lost my mind. I just want to end my life. I'm so dirty. Where do I have any qualifications? When I face him again, I try my best to grab the fruit knife back and draw it out towards my arm.

Qiu Linyan suddenly turned pale. As soon as he grabbed it, he directly caught it on the blade. He grabbed it very hard. His palm was immediately cut by the blade, and blood flowed out in an instant. I stayed in place for a moment and stared at Qiu Linyan's hand.

Each of the bony hands is slender and perfect. Now this hand, in order not to hurt myself, would rather face the blade directly, but the more Qiu Linyan treats me, the more painful I am. As long as I think I have been slept by many men, I just want to die.

Seeing that my complexion was getting more and more distorted, Qiu Linyan suddenly stretched out his hand and threw me a slap. This was the first time he hit me. It hurt very much. I was completely quiet and stood there in a trance.

Seeing that I was finally quiet, Qiu Linyan said tentatively, "loosen your hand first. My hand hurts. You don't want to cut off my fingers."

When I was frightened by this, Qiu Linyan immediately took the knife far away, threw it into the bathroom, turned around, he held me in his arms and said nervously, "don't be afraid. Tell me what happened, Yuanyuan, everything still has me. You never need to be afraid, do you know?"

When I heard this, I finally collapsed and cried in his arms. After crying for a while, I pushed him away, "don't touch me... Sobbing... I'm so dirty... Really dirty..."

"No, you are not dirty. In my heart, you are the cleanest." Qiu Linyan didn't know what I said. He still tried to comfort me. He leaned over again and let my face lean against his chest.

"No, you don't know. Qiu Linyan, you don't know. I'm really dirty. I've been slept by many people, you know? I was left in the hotel by Xiao Lelin and slept by many men. Do you want me?"