Chapter 44

“You’re welcome, darling. I’m your husband and I should love you.” He really knew how to sell his lies. He hugged her like hugging a pet and rubbed his face against hers.[1] “Why are you awake? Have I disturbed you?”

Xu Zhiyin was not asleep, so it was not he who had disturbed her from her sleep.

However, she didn’t know how to explain why she did not expose him when he came into her room…

She merely said coldly, “What are you doing in my room? Did you sleepwalk?”

Gu Nantian wanted to find an excuse at first but after hearing Xu Zhiyin’s suggestion, he answered, “Yes, I sleepwalked again! When I woke up, I was in your room. I don’t know why too.”

“…” Xu Zhiyin felt her forehead throbbing. She stared at Gu Nantian and wished she could strangle him to death.

After staring for a while, she couldn’t do it.

When he came into her room, she was really furious but now, when she saw his pitiful look, she felt her fury subsiding.

Gu Nantian was actually quite funny.

Although he introduced her in public and drove her into a corner, he had stood up to protect her when Gu Xinyi bullied her.

Xu Zhiyin looked at Gu Nantian’s wound beside his mouth. “What happened to your face?”

She had been angry and had not cared about him.

When Gu Nantian heard her asking about him, he became happy instantly.

He dared not be pleased with himself and he still had that pitiful look. “Darling, you finally care about me. Today, I was hit by someone and you only noticed it now!”

“Who hit you?” Xu Zhiyin looked at him with a puzzled look.

Who in this world dared to hit Gu Nantian?

Gu Nantian curled his lips, “Your ex-husband.”

“Ji Liunian?” Xu Zhiyin became anxious, “Both of you met? Is he alright?”

Gu Nantian was injured, could Ji Liunian be…

“Are you so concerned about him?” Gu Nantian was jealous. Xu Zhiyin’s anxiety showed that she cared for that man.

“You hit him?” Xu Zhiyin thought Gu Nantian might do such things. Although he was the big boss in others’ eyes, to Xu Zhiyin, he was like a wilful child.

Gu Nantian complained, “I didn’t hit him. He hit me. He was too much!”

Xu Zhiyin looked at Gu Nantian in disbelief and thought what he said was fake. “The Ji Liunian I know doesn’t hit anyone without reason. You must have done something that made him really angry.”

She had only once seen Ji Liunian fight. That time, he fought with someone when they were in school for Chuxia’s sake.

After he was injured, Xu Zhiyin went to take care of him.

Of course, that was also a time she felt sad because when Ji Liunian was admitted to the hospital, Chuxia kissed him to console him.

She knew that was Ji Liunian’s first kiss. When Xu Zhiyin was at an age when she was naïve and would blush whenever she thought she liked Ji Liunian, both of them had reached the kissing stage.

The past was always sorrowful.

She didn’t want to recall these moments.

Ji Liunian had not fought for many years.

When she heard he hit Gu Nantian, Xu Zhiyin found it hard to believe.

Gu Nantian was not happy with this. “You trust him and not me?”

Although he had provoked him, it was true that Ji Liunian hit him.

It proved that Ji Liunian’s heart held a place for Xu Zhiyin, or he wouldn’t have hit him after hearing what Gu Nantian said.

At the thought of this, Gu Nantian’s crisis awareness increased. “He was too much and you believed in him. What about me? I treat you well but you don’t believe me? We’ve known one another for so long, have I ever hurt you? Am I so much worse than Ji Liunian?”

The words he uttered were full of jealousy.

Xu Zhiyin looked at Gu Nantian. Although Gu Nantian was easily jealous, he was never jealous because of Ji Liunian.

His current look of grievance made Xu Zhiyin feel she might have wronged him. “You really did not hit him?”

“How dare I hit him?” Gu Nantian’s thick brows moved a little.

“Alright! I believe what you said.” If she were to doubt him further, this man would continue to feel aggrieved.

“You don’t believe me.” Gu Nantian hugged her tightly. “It’s my fault for being less important in your heart than him!”

“Gu Nantian…”

“My heart aches! I love you so much but you can’t sense it.” He did not look at her. His voice was full of sadness. It was as if not being liked by her was a great grievance.

Xu Zhiyin said, “Don’t be like that. I know what you’ve done.”

However, she didn’t like him and this could not be forced.

Gu Nantian raised his head, “Then, please console me.”

“Console?” She had no idea how she could console this man in front of her eyes.

“Just give me a kiss.” Gu Nantian acted like a spoiled child.

Xu Zhiyin stared at his childlike look. “Stop fooling around, you’re being childish.”

“Alright, I know. Ji Liunian is not childish.”

“Could you please not mention him?” In every of his sentence was a ‘Ji Liunian’, it was difficult for them to continue this conversation.

“If I don’t mention him, he won’t be in your heart?” Gu Nantian held onto Xu Zhiyin and nibbled on her cheek. “Darling, I’ve been waiting for you to forget him but you made me wait too long. My patience has limitations.”

His breath puffed lightly on her face. Xu Zhiyin heard his voice, “Gu Nantian…”

She didn’t know what to say to make him stop, hoping he would not put all his effort and hope on her.

She would not have a future with him and would never like him.

Gu Nantian looked at Xu Zhiyin. She was about to speak but hesitated. He said, “I like you calling my name. Can you please say it again?”

“…” Xu Zhiyin smiled helplessly, “You can find another woman whom you like but that woman is not me. I’m not good enough for you.”

Xu Zhiyin felt she was a woman whose heart did not belong to herself. She was merely a puppet who could breathe and talk. She was no longer her.

Gu Nantian shouldn’t like a woman like her.

Gu Nantian frowned. She was rejecting him again.

Xu Zhiyin said, “There are many good women in this world. You can really find yourself another woman to dote on and not put all your hope on me.”

Her heart had been broken and would not revive.

Since Ji Liunian hurt her again and again, her heart was dead.

Gu Nantian looked at her. He despised the words she uttered.

Like another woman?

How could this be an easy thing to do?

He lowered his head and sealed her lips, not wanting to hear any more despicable words from her.

The kiss was full of rebellion and resistance. Xu Zhiyin could sense it and she allowed him to kiss her.

Unlike the previous kiss, this moment, even if Gu Nantian was kissing her, he didn’t have physiological reaction. He kissed her purely for dependence of the soul.

[1] This man is a cat. puppy. cat. I can’t decide