Chapter 363

The steps under my feet, like stepping on the wind, became faster and faster. Finally, I ran to my own accommodation.

He lives in a villager's house.

The young children of this family have gone out to work, leaving the old grandmother to guard the house at home.

On weekdays, I'm lonely. It's rare for children in the city to come and have a lively time. Therefore, I'm very enthusiastic about Mu Si, and I also like it.

"Grandma Liu."

Mu Si ran stepped into the house.

Grandma Liu was sitting on the Kang for dinner. Seeing mu siran coming in, she hurriedly got up, "doctor mu, have you eaten? Come on, if you don't mind, have some with grandma? "

On the Kang, there was a bowl of humble vegetables.

Mu Si ran looked a little sour. He lifted his lips and smiled. He sat down on the Kang opposite grandma Liu, "grandma Liu, I've had a group meal and I'm still holding it now! Please eat more. "

"Oh! Then why did you come back at this time? "

On weekdays, they doctors don't have time to come home until 10 p.m.

"Grandma Liu, I want to ask you something. Is there any way to get in touch with the outside world in our village? "

"Yes! You can write or call, but... It's expensive! "

Grandma Liu looked distressed and shook her head, "I saved a year's money before I was willing to call my son and write a letter..."

Indeed, even a dollar is a luxury for them in their remote areas.

But when he got the news, Mu Si was elated.

"Grandma Liu, where is the phone? Isn't there no communication in our village? "

It would be great if there were a phone!

He is now anxious to call the girl, want to make a voice to retain her, and want to tell her not to go to the United States, but to go with him... "Of course not in our village! You have to go outside and climb over the mountain opposite. Can you see it? After finding the main road, walk dozens of kilometers to the outside of the village. "

Mu Si ran looked in the direction pointed by grandma Liu, and a towering mountain peak came into his eyes.

Mousran visually observed that it would take at least a whole day to climb over the mountain and walk?

"Grandma, how long will it take?"

"Soon, it's almost two days. I have to go once a year and call my son!"

Mu Si ran took a deep look at the white haired old lady in front of him.

He thought that after leaving the village, probably the first thing he had to do was to call his son for the old lady!

Two days

Mousran was in trouble.

"What about the letter? How long does it take to send the letter? "

He asked again.

"Letters are fast! It can be sent out in more than a day, but that's very expensive, thieves are expensive! It's nothing important. Don't give it away. It's very expensive! " Old lady Liu quickly waved her hand.

Mousran doesn't care how expensive this letter is. He only cares about timeliness!

Because he has no time!

"Grandma, this is a very, very important letter..."

Mu Si ran wanted to be a little excited. The depressed mood these days seemed to be relieved for a moment.

He shook the old lady's hand, "thank you!! I must send this letter. It may be related to my... Happiness all my life! "

"A lifetime of happiness?"

The old lady blinked, then smiled and bent her eyebrows, "it turned out that she wrote a love letter to the little girl..."

Love letter?

Mu Si ran smiled and nodded, "yes, it's a love letter."

In his life, he never wrote a love letter to anyone, and today... Obviously, it's his first time!!

Mu Si ran fell on the Kang and seriously wrote a love letter.

I wonder if it was because of inexperience that he found it so difficult to write for the first time.

He didn't straighten it out until he discarded the third piece of stationery.

Sit down and write.

The letter reads:

"Dear saner, see you!

When you receive this letter, you must be surprised. Why do people still place their thoughts in such an old way these days.

As I told you on the phone before I came here, this is a remote mountain village in a remote and remote place. It is no exaggeration at all. Transportation basically depends on walking, heating basically depends on shaking, public security basically depends on dogs, and communication basically depends on roaring.

What I wanted to say next was to tell you on the phone, but my landlady told me that if I wanted to make a phone call, I had to climb over the mountain in front of the village. It took two days, and it took about four days to go back and forth. I'm not reluctant to go, but I don't have much time. I need to treat my patients, and every patient here is dying, They are struggling in front of the line of life and death, so I'm sorry, I can't call you personally, let alone send myself to you and say these words to you personally... Saner

The prelude seems too long. Next, I will officially enter the theme.

But I hope you will seriously reconsider after reading the letter and don't make a hasty decision for yourself and me. "

Mu Si ran paused here.

Thin lips tightly closed, thought for half a second, and then continued to pick up the pen.

Vigorous and powerful pen and ink jumped on the paper.

He said:

"I'm sick.

Suffering from leukemia.

Don't be in a hurry to shed tears and don't cry. Tell you this fact. I don't want to see your tears. Be obedient and be good... You probably know that I suffered from leukemia when I was a child. With the efforts of my parents, I was lucky to be cured at that time, but today, my condition has relapsed.

I'm afraid you're sad, I'm afraid you're worried about me, I don't want to see you cry for me, and I don't want you to think about food and tea because of me.

I don't want you to know and I'm afraid I can't accompany you forever, so I try to push you away and keep you away from me... In fact, the so-called Heyu dream wedding in my mouth is lying to you. I just want to keep you away from me!

I'm naive, aren't I? But it seems to work.

You are jealous, and you shed tears for me

I really deserve it. In my lifetime, I didn't try to make you happy, but I did everything possible to make you cry!

I'm no different from an idiot!

Just, mention Yu Meng...... "

Mu Si Ran's pen stopped here.

He put down his pen and looked at the bits and pieces of writing paper, his eyes darkened.

He didn't know how to tell her about his drunken night with Yu Meng, so he planned to tell her himself when he went back.

Admit your mistake, apologize and be punished with her.

However, as long as she doesn't go, he will never let go! Never let go... Yu Meng's topic didn't continue.

He didn't want to say it, but he was afraid that a few words on the paper could not explain the situation that night.

"Baby, remember that night three years ago?

I yelled at you angrily and scared you into crying.

Later, I cruelly kicked you out of the door.

In my impression, that was the first time I was angry with you.

Moreover, still make such a big fire!

I know I must have scared you that day.

In fact, that night, I was annoyed not by you, but by myself!

As a brother ten years older than you, you were only fifteen years old at that time!

You're just a child!

But I already have the desire to occupy your bath!

I think I must have scared you!

I was annoyed by such disgusting myself, so when you were still ignorant to drill into my arms, I angrily yelled at you and drove you away.

In fact, it has always been like a thin cotton needle, stuck in the bottom of my heart and couldn't be pulled out.

I always wonder if Mu Si ran at that time had already moved his heart to Gu Xiaosan, so he wanted to possess her and take her for himself... Is it because this deviant thing happened that Mu Si, 25, began to resist Gu Xiaosan's simple and active love and was afraid of the shameless thing that happened three years ago, Afraid of falling in love with his innocent and inviolable child... Yes! In Mu siran's heart, Gu Xiaosan has always been a child, naive, pure and capricious.

And love are irrelevant.

But even so, even with more resistance and more psychological resistance, Mu Si ran still fell in love with Gu Xiaosan.

Moreover, love is so true!!

Saner

I want you to stay, stay with me and don't go anywhere.

Not to America, not to distant cities

Just like before, he chased after me like a little follower.

Naughty broke the heating in his room. It was noisy and too cold. He had to sleep with me.

Suddenly I miss you hanging around my neck and leaning in my arms.

I don't know if my body can hold you up and let you hang in my arms in the future, but I know that as long as I am still alive and have one breath, I will have the strength to hold you in my arms.

Saner, maybe you think it's selfish for me to keep you as a patient. Obviously, we can't guarantee a long life together, but we still want to hope for future happiness... Yes! I admit that I can't promise you to grow old together, but I can promise you that I will try my best in my life to grow old together with you.

Baby, I apologize to you for the harm caused to you by my willful behavior these days. I'm sorry! I'm willing to go back and plead guilty at your disposal.

I've already figured out what to do for you. For example, you can be angry and ignore me for three days!

However, it can't be longer than three days, or you will torture me crazy.

For another example, you can punish me for cooking for you every day, and then you make a small face and tell me that this meal is much worse than sister-in-law Li's, and it needs to be improved next time. "

Mu Si ran wrote here and smiled unconsciously.

It seemed that he had seen Xiao saner sitting in front of the high table, holding his chest and a queen's posture. He had a small face and told him, "what kind of food are you cooking? How awful! "

And what about him?

Squinting her charming eyes and smiling at the corners of her mouth, she let her pick and choose from herself. Finally, she put her pink cherry lips in her mouth and asked her, "what about me? Can the taste still enter your mouth? "

Mu Si ran finally took back his God from his wonderful fantasy, smiled and continued to write.

"Saner, in fact, I thought for a long time when I wrote this letter. Finally, I thought, no matter what the result, you have the right to choose. We have no right to decide your future for you.

So I chose to tell you all the truth.