Chapter 24 - 24

Reiner's p.o.v

Life has no been easy since that day that I officially ended things with Brandon. I have tried everything that I can think of to get him out of my mind but everything reminds me of him. I have moved away from my sleeping to get away from him. It would have even worse if I saw him every morning and every night, I just want to forget it all like a bad dream that it was.

I have transferred classes and now I am taking the classes I should have taken from the beginning. I only joined his class because I wanted to be close to him. He was the only good thing that happened in my life since my mother abandoned us and married another man. I thought that he was different but he was just like her the only difference is that the pain he caused is much worse than she did. I avoid him like a plague because I am afraid of what will happen when I see him.

He not only betrayed me but also shattered my trust and the thing about trust is that it isn't easy to fix when it is broken.. I have repeated his explanation in my head a hundred times over trying to believe it to be what happened but what my eyes saw goes against what he said. So he not only betray me by cheating on me but also lied about it. He could have just told me if I wasn't good enough for him and I would have backed away. He didn't have to embarrass and humiliate me the way he did. I will never be able to forgive him for what he has done and now I won't ever trust anyone again.

I have put in all my time to my books and sports to get it all out somehow and try to forget but not even the difficult mathematics equation keeps my thought from thinking of him. I go for football practice every day and burn out my frustrations by playing aggressively, it doesn't help to get my anger out when I feel him staring at me. His stare is one that I can never mistake and I always feel it on me every time I come for practice. I even question myself sometimes if I go for practice to train or because I know he is there watching.

Apart from me feels good that his eyes still look for me but when I remember the kiss he shared with that boy I become furious. He was mine and he should have remained mine, he wasn't supposed to kiss or look at anyone else. I have made a point to avoid him stop me from going insane with all these mixed feelings but we always cross paths around the school. He looks worse than when I first met him, I want to take him in my arms and comfort him but his betrayal stops me.

I can not just ignore what he did to me and to top it all this could just be another plan for him to trap me and use me. I fell for it once but it won't ever happen again, I will never let him come close to me just to ruin me again by using me. Sometimes I grow weak and wish to be with him even if it is all just a joke for him but I stop myself.

I am not so weak that he would break me apart. I know that I will pick myself up from everything that has happened. I just have to have so much work on my hand that I don't get the time to think about anything but work. That is why I asked my dad to hand the responsibility of the school to me. Now I not only pay attention to my studies but also to matters that concern my school but I should have known that it wasn't easy to let go of the past. Because the first case I received was of Brandon, the teachers were complaining that he might fall into depression.

They say that he suffers from a weird heart disease that even the doctors can't recognize. He doesn't pay attention to his studies and he has kept to himself. Even his friends don't know what is wrong with him, he has withdrawn himself from the rest of the school and hasn't spoken a word in a long time.

My heart ached when I heard all they said, I wrecked my brain trying to find the reason he was like that. I asked around to find out when this change began and learned that it all started after the incident that happened that drove us apart. I called his family to the school to talk to them to find out if they were responsible for his condition. Something told me that our fight was the reason he was like this but I refused to listen, I didn't want that burden on myself. They informed me he never went back home that day and came straight to school. They suggested that he should see a specialist and I agreed.

I approved for the specialist to come to see him in school when he refused to go to her. I asked her to keep me updated on everything that she found out. For long she has only given me the same answer and that is, he doesn't say anything and just looks at me. Today was the last day that I heard given her to be here. If she doesn't find the problem with him then I will have no choice but to send Brandon away from my school. I was busy with the preparations for the board meeting that was to take place soon but then I heard a knock at the door.

"Come in," I said and a lady dressed in a cleaner's uniform came into my office.

"Sir the doctor that treats Brandon has asked for you," she said and I excused her. I was curious as to why the doctor wanted to see me so I left the work to my secretary and went to see her. I walked across the building to reach the hospital wing in the school. I go directly to the room that they were in. I didn't bother to knock since the door was open and walked in. I looked at the doctor and didn't let my eye wander to him even though I wanted to look at him.

"I was told you wanted to see me," I say and she asks me to take a seat next to Brandon." I am a sorry doctor but I don't want to sit next to him," I say and she raises her eyebrows at me.

"Why is that Mr. Devon?" she asked and I stayed silent. I can not tell him about what happened between us in the past. "Mr. Devon, I believe I asked you a question. What is going on between you and Brandon?" she asked and I became nervous. Could Brandon have told her about us I thought and glared at Brandon? He looked up from his hands and locked eyes with me, he didn't look sad or happy and I couldn't tell what he was thinking. His eyes were clear as they stared at me, the eyes that looked at me with love once looked at me with no emotion at all.

I guess I was worried for no reason, he isn't like this because of me because he never really loved me.