Chapter 520

Okazaki returned to the sunflower field. He was here at the beginning, and now Xiaoxi is here.

At the beginning, he forgot his happiness, and Xiaoxi was looking for the happiness she longed for.

"Looking all the time?" Okazaki looks at Xiaoxi's little figure, walks over, and looks at his daughter with his eyes of unprecedented concentration - he has never seen her with such eyes before.

Small figure, shuttle in the flower field, confused and sad hanging in the face, she has been looking for.

"Well." Xiao Xi lowered his head and made a dull sound.

When Okazaki looks at Xiaoxi, he will think of his young self and his father who has been taking him forward. He squats down. Xiaoxi raises his head and looks at his father. Okazaki gently says to Xiaoxi, "Xiaoxi, that robot... May not be found. There is no way to do this. Shall I buy you a new one? "

Xiaoxi bowed her head mournfully. The tears rolled in her eyes, as if they would fall in the twinkling of an eye, but she locked them in her eyes - because this is not the place to cry.

"That's unique..." Xiao Xi said in a low voice.

Very lost, very sad, but also very stubborn.

"Isn't there a lot more in the shop?" Okazaki said.

"It's selected for me and bought for me..." Xiaoxi clenched his fist and began to clench his skirt.

Okazaki was stunned. Xiaoxi looked up at his father and said, "it's dad, the first time..."

Okazaki's eyes widened and his throat stirred twice, as if a stone had stuck in his throat. Sad, regret, pain and other complex feelings rush to my heart.

He lowered his head.

Xiao Xi. From birth. It's been five years.

But it was the first time she had received a gift from her own father.

It's not such a precious thing. It doesn't even look like a girl's toy at all. It's just a very common and cheap one. There are a lot of robot toys on the container in the convenience store of the station.

However, this is the first time her father bought her a gift, for her, this gift is unique!

This gift is more valuable than anything else!

How did Xiao Xi come from his childhood?

When you see other people of the same age have mothers. She... Never met her mother.

When she saw that other people of the same age had fathers, she knew that she had a father, but she never lived together.

When other peers ask their parents "how did they get here?" what about her?

Other parents said it was just a joke, but Xiaoxi really picked it up - she was abandoned by Okazaki.

Parents, who are very familiar with others, protect them, cook for them and bring them laughter.

But to Xiaoxi... Xiaoxi didn't know what "father" and "mother" were.

No matter how much Zaomiao and Qiusheng like Xiaoxi, how much they love Xiaoxi. But they are not "parents" after all, their love and their parents' love. It's different.

So the night she lived with her father, she asked him something about telling my mother.

Mother, everyone has, but for Xiaoxi, she can only understand a very fuzzy shadow from other people's mouth, and can no longer feel it with her own body and mind.

A very common problem is how sad, heartbreaking and compassionate it is.

For most people, they can receive countless gifts from their parents from birth, but for Xiao Xi, this is the first gift since he was born.

For her, who has almost never been loved by her father, this represents her father's love!

So, for her, it was a gift more precious than anything else.

When she lost it, she was sad, frightened, and obstinately wanted to find the gift, because in her little cognition, her father would not live with her. After this trip, her father will leave again, so she can't play with him like this, and she can't enjoy the time with him.

This gift is not only a memory of this good time, but also a love from her father. As long as she has this gift, even if she can't live with her father like today, she can still hold the robot and feel the warmth of love carried on it.

If this gift is lost, it is as if she has lost her father's love.For her father is very curious and looking forward to her, she is afraid of losing this hard won father's love.

So she wanted to find it anyway - her lost father's love!

Countless scenes and words flash in people's minds, and finally form a small lonely figure looking for the lost things in the flower field - Xiaoxi.

However, these are just things that happened in a moment, but in this moment, the strong dam in my heart has been washed down by the tsunami of tears.

"Xiao Xi."

"Well?"

"You have been very lonely..." Okazaki suddenly asked.

"Well." Xiao Xi answered in a low voice - she was very lonely.

"Do you feel happy traveling with me?" Okazaki's voice became softer and softer.

"Well!" Xiao Xi nodded hard.

"Xiao Xi," Okazaki's voice began to tremble, lowering his head, as if he had no face to face his daughter, "can I be with you? Although he has been an incompetent father for a long time, he will work hard for Xiaoxi in the future. So, can I be with you? "

Okazaki raised his head, tears in his eyes, full of hope and supplication, looking at his daughter, Xiaoxi.

This is an incompetent father, begging his daughter's forgiveness.

He is also an incompetent father, atoning for his daughter and his wife.

"Well!" Xiao Xi places his head seriously.

"Really?" Okazaki's eyes were full of tears. He couldn't believe that his daughter, who had been abandoned by him, would really forgive his incompetent father.

"I hope you'll be with me." Xiaoxi said with great certainty.

this sentence. It's not just Okazaki. As for countless fans. No matter how her father used to be, she always wants to live with her father. This is a love that no one can replace and make up for.

However, Xiao Xi lowered his head again and became depressed. His tender voice was full of sadness: "but today is a very important thing, so it's very sad..."

It was her first gift from her father since she was born.

"Dad, that one." Xiao Xi's shoulders trembled slightly, and her voice began to sob. She lowered her head and clutched her clothes with both hands. "Already... Don't you have to bear it? Zaomiao said that the only place to cry is the toilet. "

While on the train, because the child next to him who is coquettish with his mother causes inner pain, Okazaki turns his inner pain into anger and roars out at them. Xiaoxi is scared by Okazaki's appearance.

I ran to the toilet and came out. Red eyes, she said. The only place to cry is the toilet.

How heartbreaking, I don't know how many times Xiaoxi went to the toilet in the silence?

In the face of all kinds of grievances and sadness, how many tears did she shed secretly in places that people couldn't see?

People remind each other of what Xiao Xi said to Okazaki when he was on the train: he looked at Okazaki timidly and secretly, a little curious, a little starting point, a little scared, and he wanted to talk but stopped.

She didn't finish.

"... and in dad's arms."

The only place to cry is the toilet and dad's arms.

Xiao Xi had never felt what it was like to be in his father's arms.

This ordinary sentence, and let countless fans once again tears.

The only place to cry is the toilet and dad's arms.

Xiao Xi's simple words are full of loneliness and yearning for his father?

"Well. Well Okazaki forced his head, tears finally gushed out of his eyes, will regret, guilt and so on a burst of crying out.

Xiaoxi lowers her head and rushes into Okazaki's arms. Her small arm hugs Okazaki tightly and buries her head on Okazaki's shoulder. Her shoulder shakes more and more fiercely. Sobbing gradually turns into wailing. She raises her head and tears flow into a river on her face.

Finally, she did not have to endure the sad tears any more. She could cry freely in her father's arms.

Finally, she no longer had to go to the cold toilet, her father's warm and strong embrace, which could contain her, dispel all the sadness for her, and make her dare to feel the security, warmth and happiness she never had.

Okazaki put his backhand around Xiaoxi and put his arms around her little body. He wanted to hold Xiaoxi in his arms forever and never let go."Sorry... Sorry... Sorry..." Okazaki whispered.

The open field of sunflower echoed the cry of two people.

It's a sad cry.

But also the cry of happiness.

Xiaoxi no longer has to rely on that toy to feel her father's love and warmth, because she has got what she once dreamed of, and can hold her father with warmth forever.

"Xiao Xi, do you want to hear mother's story?"

"Well."

"Well, let's do it this way."

Not long ago, Xiao Xi wanted Okazaki to tell her her mother's story. However, Okazaki, who was immersed in the sadness of Zhu's departure, evaded everything and was not willing to mention anything about Zhu.

On the return train, Okazaki mentioned the topic that he had been avoiding to Xiaoxi.

This is the story of his wife and Xiao Xi's mother.

Xiaoxi sits next to Okazaki. Okazaki gently looks at Xiaoxi and slowly tells his story.

"Let me see..."

"Mom, she seems to cry at any time. The first time I saw her, she was so insecure and weak. She always stood at the bottom of the school ramp, and then guess what she said. Unexpectedly, I said "bean paste bread" with my eyes closed. "

The picture goes back to the day when Okazaki and Xiaozhu first met. The cherry blossoms are falling at the speed of 5cm per second. Suddenly, a breeze blows. The petals of the cherry blossoms whirl between Okazaki and Xiaozhu, like a bridge of destiny. In this way, their lives are completely connected.

"It's mom's habit to say what she wants to eat, so that she can get courage. Aunt Zaomiao was busy with her work at that time, and she hardly had time to make Bento for her. If she had to ask, aunt Zaomiao would certainly squeeze out time. But mom didn't do it. Mom is such a person... "

"And then... And then, mom, she..."

Unconsciously, Okazaki's tears gushed out of his eyes and left along his face. Drop by drop, they fell on the back of his hand and gradually began to burst into tears of memories.

Xiaoxi pulled Okazaki's clothes, she was also infected by Okazaki's sadness, shed tears.

Okazaki dried his tears for HSI and wiped away his own.

With a cheerful smile, he continued to tell Xiao Xi his mother's story.

He completely walked out of the shadow of Zhu's departure, faced life directly, understood the responsibility, and his stagnant life finally began to move forward again.

Zhu, I found it.

I finally found it.

Only I can guard things.

Only I can protect, irreplaceable things.

Okazaki's big hand took Xiaoxi's small hand.

So

Right here（ Not finished, to be continued