78 Deep Solitude When Afraid of Losing Reincarnation of Peace Creator 'sMagician's

"Will you stop crying already?"

I don't know myself why am I starting to cry in the first place, I feel a big cut deep inside my heart the moment I saw Yuika cries, my tears drop before I know it and I can't stop it.

"Look, you will be a strong man in the future, why are you so whiny, argh... why am I having a having a crush on yo..."

"*sniff... I'm sorry..."

"Uh, ahh... don't worry about that... haha... hahaha..."

"*sniff... What do you want to say again, Yuika...? *sniff..."

"Uh, ah... yah... nothing, nothing to worry about, hahaha..."

Why is she laughing so nervously, I think I better wipe my tear and stop crying now, Yuika is trying to console me now, we sit on the bench near the garden, the one we use this morning, I believe Yuika want to say something, but I forgot what that is.

The wind blows slowly whistle my ear a melody of deep loneliness from Yuika's heart.

"Why are you crying like that? Hold yourself, Erwin, how can I allow you to enroll in that magic academy if you are like this?"

I sniff back the snots that about to come out from my nose, but no matter how hard I try, it keeps coming and feel like there's no stop of it, I wish I had my handkerchief at the moment like this.

"But you say you don't want me to enroll in that academy *snots..."

"I don't want..."

I can't really understand what she just said, she suddenly talks with a low voice and not even look at my eyes.

"What is it, Yuika?"

"I don't want..."

I keep my eyes on Yuika, I'm keeping my ear on, trying to listen to what Yuika want to say, but somehow I can't really hear it.

Is it because I cried just now? I don't know it will affect my hearing like this, I find it a bit hard just to listen to what Yuika want to say to me, it's stupid to not to be able to hear clearly, her voice is just too low.

I move closer to Yuika, our knee touch to each other, the smell of the shampoo she used blended with the scent of the fallen petals, her hair tickles my nose the moment it touches my nostril, but the strong smell of bouquet like of her hair makes me ignore the tickle on my nose.

Her face blooms a red rose, a beautiful one without any pricker because it's all have fallen out the moment she hugged me before.

"I don't want to be apart from you..."

"I'm sorry, Yuika, what was it again?"

My hearing sure becomes terrible, I'm not sure if it is because of the wind or because of me cried like a stupid kid just now?

"I DON'T WANT TO BE APART FROM YOU!!! YOU HEAR THAT?"

Woah, that startled me... suddenly scream like that after turning her face to me, our eyes meet, and she brings our look close together. Our lips almost touch together, I can feel her warm breath moistening my reddened lips because of the blood running wildly to my face.

Her beautiful eyelashes really matches her beautiful eyes, I quickly move back to make some distance from her, I don't want Yuika to have a wrong idea and mad at me again, I'm on fault here because I suddenly moved closer to her without her noticing, how if she run and cry again, I don't want her to hate me.

"Where do you want to go?"

Yuika suddenly reaches my hand, pulling it back to her and it makes our face get closer one more time, this time her eyes looks sharp, her cheeks are blushing, but she looks at me deep into my eyes.

"Ah, I'm sorry, Yuika... your face... too close..."

I try getting away from this situation because suddenly I recall the memories of me getting in a difficult situation with Marina-san before the lunch in my room and when in the stairs before I ran away from her and found Yuika in the garden.

"Erwin, can you promise me?"

"Um... what is it?"

Why is her face getting closer all of sudden, she keeps closing our distance, I can't even move anywhere now, the hand rest is blocking me from getting away , Yuika is still moving closer and closer, I can feel her breath on my hand, it's so warm, and the warmth suddenly spread to my body and making my nape hair strained.

"Honestly, I don't want you to go and enroll in that academy, but, Elis-nee was right, I want you to become a great magician, uncle Alto-san was right, I want to brag about you once you become a great magician, Ilya-nee was right, I should support your decision too..."

"Uhh... what do you mean...?"

What is she talking so suddenly? Is she really mad with my decision to enroll in Blotyce academy? Is she still angry about that? But, I want this opportunity to be able to attend a magic school.

"Elis-san wanted to use you as her stepping stone to achieving her dream... I don't really like her intention, but, she gives you the chance to be able to be known as a great magician, you can change this world if you want,"

My head suddenly hurts, I feel like it's spinning, my vision starts to blur.

Get hold of yourself, Erwin!!!

I take a deep breath, close my eyes, and hold my head, enduring it until the pain goes away.

"Erwin, hold yourself! Are you fine?"

Her voice is starting to disappear, my head feels lighter, and my vision slowly turns black.

Why is this event seems familiar? When did last time I feel something like this?

Wait, don't tell me I will be going to that God place again, I don't want it... that place is just so dark and so dull.

My head is full of weird thoughts right now, I slowly smell something metallic and sweet, it's the same smell I remember from the rabbit I killed in the southern forest before, but suddenly I smell something different.

Something burned... it isn't a mere scent of burned firewood, it's something different.

This smell... it's entering my nostril, going inside and making me feel a strong urge to sneeze, it's a smell of a powder, but, I don't like this smell at all.

"Erwin wake up!!!"

I feel like there's a burn sensation on my left cheek right now, it turns my consciousness back and restoring my soul back to my body, those metallic, but sweets scents and the powder scent is gone, I can't smell it anymore.

"ERWIN WAKE UP!!!"

Wait, why do I feel like there will be another burn sensation appear on my right cheek, I can already feel the sensation of my left cheek swollen. I have to open my eyes, please, open now!

What appears before my eyes is a flying palm, she's rising high her left arm while closing her eyes, I feel like she's frightened of something, and before I know it, very painful slaps are barraging my face, not just once, or twice, but it's a lot. I can barely see her hands movement before she slaps me.