Qin Zhan holds min Jiangxi up to her arms and says nothing. Min Jiangxi closes her eyes and tries to pull herself back from the abyss of despair and guilt by Qin Zhan's temperature. She keeps saying to herself: can't collapse, can't collapse, she still has Qin Zhan, and she's a good girl, and there are those who still dare not call, but have been worried about her carefully.
By adjusting her breath silently, min Jiangxi controls her mood in a calm range. Qin Zhan's embrace is not only warm, but also reassuring. Min Jiangxi didn't sleep well last night. She was sleeping again.
After sleeping for more than three hours, min Jiangxi didn't change his posture, and Qin Zhan didn't move. When he opened his eyes again, it was Qin Zhan's chest. Min Jiangxi raised his head slightly and saw that Qin Zhan was also sleeping. The familiar face and the familiar high nose bridge were the only two swollen eyelids that made people dance. His body slowly lifted up and moved back. Min Jiangxi wanted to step back to make Qin Zhan sleep more comfortable, The result just moved, Qin Zhan immediately opened his eyes, the fundus is red blood.
"Awake?" Qin Zhan asked vaguely.
Min Jiangxi said, "you can sleep a little longer."
Qin Zhan immediately asked, "where are you going?"
Min Jiangxi said, "I'll go to the bathroom. You can sleep. I'll go downstairs for dinner."
Qin Zhan sat up and said, "I wake up and go down with you."
Min Jiangxi said, "are you sure you want to go down? Don't wait to relax and say, "I didn't remind you."
Qin Zhan hesitated for a few seconds, "what do you want to eat? Let someone send it up. "
"I'm not very hungry, just have a drink," Min said
During the conversation, min Jiangxi lifts the quilt and gets out of bed. It's not that Qin Zhan can't help it, but min Jiangxi's whole pregnancy is as agile as usual. If he didn't always remind him, min Jiangxi has tried to get out of bed with a carp.
Looking at the still slender figure, Qin Zhan worried and said, "slow down."
Min Jiang Xitou did not return, "I know, every day wordy."
As soon as the door closes, when they are in separate spaces, they both change their faces. Qin Zhan no longer pretends to be the same as before, and min Jiangxi no longer acts indifferent. It's not that they deliberately whitewash peace, but that there must be private space in their bones, so that they can place their faces after taking off their masks.
Min Jiangxi stands in front of the washing table. After staring at her familiar face in the mirror for a long time, she gradually becomes strange. They all say that xiangyouxinsheng loved to laugh when she was a child, and the corners of her lips are always raised in the photos. Unlike now, when there is no expression, the corners of her lips are flat. Everyone says that she is good-looking, but she sees the mean and disgusting from her eyebrows and eyes.
She resented Jiang Yuan for more than ten years. After countless expectations were broken, she not only once thought maliciously that since she would not come back, she would disappear completely.
Tears fell down. Min Jiangxi didn't blink. She didn't know who to blame. If this was her wish, God helped her to achieve it, and it was long ago.
When Jiang Yuan disappeared, min Yi frantically looked for her everywhere. She never gave up until she committed suicide. On the contrary, she unilaterally declared that Jiang Yuan had nothing to do with her or the family. She refused to see her again. If she had ever taken action for more than 20 years, For a moment, Jiang Yuan would never abandon his wife and daughter, would he... Would he never lie there alone for so many years.
When she resents in her heart, will Jiang Yuan know? Will he be sad? When she left the winter city with Minyi's ashes, did Jiang Yuan do his best to yell, telling her not to leave, not to leave him alone
Despair spreads all over her body. Min Jiangxi stares at her pale face in the mirror. She doesn't know that she hasn't breathed for a long time. She wants to be buried by herself. Jiang Yuan is sure to dig three feet into the ground and find her out. What is she? What kind of daughter she is, what kind of family she is, what kind of thing she is!
The fingertips hanging on the side of her legs trembled uncontrollably, and her face turned pale due to long-term suffocation. Min Jiangxi couldn't move at all, like burying her neck, until someone suddenly kicked her foot, which was a bit heavy. Min Jiangxi instinctively frowned and covered her stomach.
Just this foot is not finished, min Jiangxi across the pajamas to see the belly drum drum drum, like the monkey king in the eight trigrams furnace, turned the sky.
Well behaved, usually the thunder can't move, and the fetal heart rate monitoring depends on shaking people. Suddenly, min Jiangxi falls from memory to reality, holds his stomach, and whispers: "well behaved, well behaved, are you ok?"
I don't know whether it's mother's comfort or mother's voice, but min Jiangxi suddenly burst into tears, "I'm sorry..."
She's really useless. She can't be a good daughter or a good mother.
Tears fall on the pajamas, darling just moved again, min Jiangxi quickly raised his hand to wipe away tears, try to smooth tone said: "it's OK, I'm ok, very good."
Obediently slightly move, min Jiangxi touched his moving position, softly asked: "do I affect your mood?"
He didn't respond. Min Jiangxi said to himself, "you're so angry. Who do you look like? Your grandfather is gone. Can't I be sad? "
Unfortunately, she moved again. Min Jiangxi raised her eyebrows. "Are you challenging me? That's my dad. I can pay a little attention to my mood for you. Can you also take care of my mood? I'm your mother, not a container without feelings. "
Outside the door came a familiar voice: "Xibao."
Min Jiangxi responded: "what for?"
Qin Zhan asked, "what are you doing?"
Min Jiangxi looked in the mirror, the trace of crying is not obvious, but Qin Zhan will certainly find out, she said: "can I still eat in the toilet?"
Qin Zhan said, "slow down. Please call me if you have something to do."
Min Jiangxi: "I see. Five minutes."
After Qin Zhan left, min Jiangxi sighed and looked down at his stomach. He didn't move any more. Min Jiangxi reached out his hand and touched it gently. He said in a low voice, "don't learn from your father. Stare at me all day. Be careful that I isolate you two."
Out of the bathroom, Qin Zhan has been sitting on the sofa in the living room and waiting. There are a lot of food on the table, most of which are liquid food. Qin Zhan looks at Min Jiangxi's face, but he doesn't see too many different things on her face. But he doesn't want to break the tacit understanding between adults. He always leaves each other an inch to vent.
Min Jiangxi doesn't want to eat, and can't help eating, so he has to go back to the next place and choose to drink. Just open your mouth and swallow it.
Qin Zhan also had a bad appetite, and then they chatted with each other. When they finished eating, Qin Zhan said, "if you have time, please call Jiangdong."
When min Jiangxi heard the speech, he looked at Qin Zhan. Qin Zhan looked down to eat, and said, "I don't want him to talk about it. I don't want to deal with him."