Chapter 158 - 157 Stop being over dramatic for Gods sake.

"Charan…" Shreya called out holding him back and sitting up on her bed. She looked up at him and gestured him to sit on the bed beside her.

Charan shook his head and said, "If you are going to continue with the previous conversation, I don't want to." He childishly went to stand on the farthest end of the room.

Shreya let out an exasperated and said in a raised her voice impatiently, "Charan stop being childish and listen to me for once for gods sakes…"

Charan sulked but he came and sat on the bed still pouting.

Shreya took a breath and calmed herself down before talking again. "Charan… please… stop being emotional and think rationally for a second will you. Think about Akira if not about yourself. It's just too dangerous Charan. Or else I wouldn't have suggested it. It's just for a while. Let's stay away from each other okay!!" She explained as calmly as she could given the circ.u.mstances.

Charan stayed quiet. There was an uneasiness he couldn't explain clearly. His gut was screaming at him to not agree for some reason. So he shook his head stubbornly.

"Shreya… Please. I will be good okay?? I promise. I won't defy anything you say ever again. So don't do this… Don't do this to us!! I promise. I will listen to everything you say and I won't even ask why or what!! Except for this!!" Charan practically begged.

"Charan… You think I would do this because you didn't listen to me… Do you really think I am that petty… Why are you not understanding that I am doing this for your own good… It's just for a while. We can be together after everything is wrapped up from my end and you know all too well why I can't walk away from this!" Shreya said assertively.

Charan really hated this rational side of hers. He absolutely hated the fact that she was making it seem so easy and so simple. It hurt like hell to look at her and know she means everything and that she would end up doing it one way or another, whether he agrees or not.

"You have already decided to stay away anyways… so why are you even asking me now!!" Charan accused sarcastically in a resigned tone that seemed to be masking absolute agony and anger. He looked at her one last time and just got up from the bed and started walking out.

Shreya lost it. Her composure crumbled in a matter of seconds. She did not like his accusing eyes nor the slightly stink in his tone directed towards her. She stormed after him and harshly pushed him on the back making him almost plant his face to the floor.

"Shreya…" Charan exclaimed angrily turning back to her.

But her anger had not subsided yet and was more than his. She pushed him all over again without even bothering that the wound in her palm might split and bleed all over again.

"DO you seriously think this is easy for me??" She asked angrily.

"You sure doesn't seem heartbroken…" Charan replied sarcastically. He knew rationally she was just putting up a front. But even then some irrational part of him wanted to hurt her for putting them through this… for putting him through this and making it sound so easy.

"What do you take me for?? Some sort of robot without any feeling?? Is that what you think of me after being with me for so long??" Shreya asked pushing on his shoulders all over again as angry tears tumbled down her eyes.

"Then why on hell are you doing this now?? Why are you doing this to us?? You said you loved me!!" Charan fired back.

"Charan, stop being overdramatic for God's sakes will you?? Yes, I love you… So what?? Do you expect something along the line of 'Oh I love you so much that I can't live without you'? Please! don't tell me you are that naïve!!?? Dialogues like that may sound good in books and movies but not in real life."

"I know you love me and I do too… But what's the point if you end up dead because of it??" Shreya asked angrily after a short pause. She was practically yelling at him but she did not care at the moment.

"But you protected me… And you can keep on doing it right??" Charan asked in a softer voice.

"Like hell, I can… I believed that too until a guy put a gun to your head and I couldn't do any damn shit to stop it. What do you think would have happened if Zack hadn't come right at that time?? Do you have any f.u.c.k.i.n.g idea how it felt to see you like that and to know I could lose you any moment?? What would I have told Akira?? That because of my carelessness I got her dad killed too??" Shreya asked and by then she had no control over what she was saying whatsoever.

Charan was in no better state of rational. So he fired back, "Then what do you think I felt like when you walked right into those guys without giving me any f.u.c.k.i.n.g choice?? How do you think I felt when you walked right into danger while I just stood there like a f.u.c.k.i.n.g idiot?? Did you ever consider that??" He yelled back.

"It's are not the same Charan!!" Shreya said dismissingly.

"How?? How the f.u.c.k is it not the same??" Charan asked back irritated.

"Because I am an orphan!! And you are not!! You have a family damn it." Words came out of her mouth without her even realizing it. Her deepest fear came to surface and escaped from her mouth without any conscious thought from her.

Charan froze for a second. His heart painfully twisted when he heard her answer. A small part of him wanted to hold her and make her pain disappear. But a bigger part of him felt as if she had just stabbed him in the heart and twisted the blade.

"Then what does that make me Shreya?? If you are an orphan… then what am I to you Shreya?? A passing affair?? Pass time??" Charan asked after taking a deep breath, his voice barely a whisper masking a world of pain behind them.

Shreya stared back at him blankly not knowing what to say while he looked at her with heartbroken eyes.

"You know what!! I will leave you alone as you asked me… I can't be here anymore!!" He said and stormed out of the room. He felt as if he would suffocate if he stayed there any longer.