Chapter 257 - TO be with you…

Madhu did not know what to think at that moment. Her mind was blank…

She could hear her heart hammering against her ribs and Akash's hands gripping on her waists were not helping her one bit. She could feel her cheeks burning up almost to the point where it resembled a ripe tomato… but she knew she cannot do anything about it now.

Goosebumps rose to make her skin shiver slightly… but even she did not know whether it was because of the cold water that was seeping through her top from Akash's still wet skin and dripping hair or was it because of their close proximity.

One part of her was screaming for her to get up from this place and run… but there is this other part of her that wanted to stay there… maybe even snuggle in. And honest to god, she did not know which part was winning.

While she was going through her internal struggle, she heard Akash's question.

That brought her out of her head…

"I… I am not s-scared… I just…" She started but she did not know how to say it right… she was fl.u.s.tered and nervous- yes… but she was not really scared in that sense where you would be terrified to be just near a person.

"You do not sound so convincing, you know?" Akash replied looking at her intensely while one of his hands just went ahead and tucked some of the stray hair behind her ears.

And with that little bit of touch, she lost her train of thoughts just like that.

Madhu was sitting sideways on his laps… so Akash had a clear view of every last bit of emotions playing on her face… he could see the smallest bit of changes in them instantly.

So, of course, he saw her eyes go from clear to daze with just the simplest of touch from him which just made his mood go from bottom to top instantly. But he still wanted to know what the rational side of her brains thought of the whole situation.

So, he picked her up and sat her down beside him… he then got up from his place and half sat in his legs in front of her and ran his hand over her red cheeks.

Madhu yelped in surprise before meeting his eyes.

"I just want you to know you don't have to be scared of anything when you are around me!!" Akash said with all the seriousness he could muster.

Madhu's eyes softened as she leaned into his hands smiling. 

"I am not scared of you, Akash… at least not in the sense, you presume. I am just scared of myself around you…" Madhu mumbled seeing as Akash was still looking at her intently for an answer.

"What do you mean?" Akash asked not really understanding what she was getting at.

"I mean… I have no bottom line when it comes to you and that scares me at times…" Madhu murmured. She did not want to admit it but it was the truth.

Akash seemed startled for a second… A part of him was ecstatic and flattered but another part of him was confused…

"I still don't get it. Can you give an example?" Akash asked.

Madhu bit on her lips thinking about how to explain it to him…

"Well, if you kill someone, I would probably help you hide the body!!" Madhu deadpanned after a while. She knew it was an extreme and unrealistic example… even overdramatic but a part of her actually believed that she was capable of going to such extremes for him… She did not know how to reason it or rationalize it. But she just knew that if the time came, she would end up doing just as she said without a second thought.

Akash blinked and blinked some more looking at her dubiously. He would have laughed out loud if only Madhu did not look so serious at the moment.Find authorized novels in , faster updates, better experience, Please click <a href="#%E2%80%A6_50831566707935774">#%E2%80%A6_50831566707935774</a> for visiting.

"Why would you do that?" Akash asked after calming down a bit…

"TO be with you…" Madhu mumbled in the lowest of voices. "I know that was overdramatic and over the top example… but like I said… I would do anything to be with you to the point where I get scared of myself… Do you want to know why I was so out of it on the road here? I was preparing myself mentally to sleep with you today even before I walked into your house and your bedroom… if you wanted to that is… That just made me so jumpy and out of sorts!!"

The reality of the situation did not matter… but she wanted to clarify to what extent she had covered when she said 'She would do anything'. She did not know whether this came from absolute trust or desperation.

The worst part of it all was that she did not know what she wanted anymore… Except to be with Akash, it did not matter what else she had or did not have in her life…

Madhu was someone who had people around her… who had a proper life and education. She had never starved in her life and she was just a baby when her parents had adopted her. So, she cannot really say she had suffered in her life. At least, physically, she had always been content.

But emotionally, she had been practically starved from childhood to now. Because of her lack of support at home, she never had the confidence to go ahead and make friends�� she had never been bold enough to go to someone and talk.

The only person who ever cared about her was Karthik, her friend. But even that never gave her much of a confidence boost given neither her birth parents nor her adopted parents seem to be able to actually love her.

And the very first person to say he loved her was Akash… and the giddy happiness she felt at that moment was something of euphoria for her… and she was scared to lose it. To the point where nothing really even mattered.

She knew Akash was not someone who is going to demand anything from her she did not want to… but it did not really matter what she wanted anymore… If it was Akash, she was ready to do anything to please him… even if it meant sacrificing her body or her morality…

Akash, on the other hand, could just gap at her. Suddenly, all her jumpiness made sense. After all, Madhu had improved a lot after their two-week trip… She was no longer as shy or as self-conscious as she used to be. She talked her mind freely after that… the blabbering and all. And she was comfortable with him physically too… at least, he could hug her or hold her hand without her shivering away.

But all that went back in reverse today… which had bothered him… but now, it actually made sense. She had thought he had brought her here to sleep with her… and she thought she had to go with his pace if she wanted to be with him.