9 I Cried My Heart Ou

The next day I went to the clinic and told her I'm going through with the abortion, she tried convincing me otherwise but I made up my mind already.

Then I went to mama Mei's house and Yoshino and his father were there.

I looked at her and her eyes were red, you could see she cried and you could see how angry she was; I greeted everyone and Yoshino called me to the backroom to speak.

We sat opposite each other and he spoke.

Yoshino: "Ty-chan, there's something I need to tell you."

I looked at him.

Yoshino: "Erina's pregnant with my child."

Me: "Okay."

He looked at me and squinted his eyes and opened his mouth and asked: "Is that all you're going to say."

Me: "What do you want me to say?"

Yoshino: "Say something!"

Me: "Be specific."

Yoshino: "I don't know, swear me if you want to."

Me: "Why would I do that?"

Yoshino: "Well because… Erina's pregnant with my child."

I stood up and tried leaving but he grabbed me and pulled me into his arms and said: "Please say something."

I looked into his eyes and said: "I know you don't love me so stop pretending."

He looked at me and loosened his grip, I got up and walked out.

I went to the kitchen and got me something to eat and drink, then went to the lounge.

When I got to the lounge, the three of them looked at me and Yoshino's father asked me: "Why didn't you let Yoshino finish?"

Me: "Finish what?"

"He wanted to have a serious conversation with you and you left."

I looked back at Yoshino and he wasn't looking at me, he was looking down at the floor and I walked up to him and stood in front of him and said to him: "I hate you."

He looked at me with widened eyes and I threw my bottle of water at him and walked out.

I didn't go far, I stopped on the porch and sat down on a chair.

I heard a slap come from inside the house and my head started pounding.

I leaned forward on the chair over my knees and looked at my toes, my toenails were long so I went back into mama Mei's room and got a nail clipper and started trimming my nails.

Yoshino's father came into the room and closed the door behind him, I looked at his face and there were no red marks, I guess Yoshino was the one who received the slap.

He looked at me with a puzzled expression, then sat down next to me and started talking to me: "Min Hee?"

Me: "Yes father?"

"Leave what you are doing and listen to what I have to say."

I looked at him, then continued to clip my nails.

"(Sigh) Did you understand what Yoshino said?"

Me: "Mn"

"Is there something you wish to say about it?"

Me: "There is but…"

"But?"

I looked at him and sighed, I wasn't someone who spoke much and for me, it seemed like this father of mine wanted me to just say something.

I got up, walked to the door and looked at Yoshino, he was standing in the middle of the lounge looking at the ceiling.

Me: "Yoshino!"

Yoshino looked back at me anxiously and I continued: "I lied"

Yoshino: "Lied about what?"

Me: "I don't hate you."

He bit his bottom lip and I continued.

Me: "Being with you made me feel disgusted, I'm glad she's pregnant with your child, now I don't have to marry you because of the arrangement between our fathers, I want you to get out of my sight, the sight of you makes me sick to my stomach."

My heart was screaming!!!

This is not what I wanted to say.

His mother looked at me in shock.

And Yoshino, tears started falling from his eyes, I knew he loved me but I… I don't know.

I really don't.

I looked back at his father and smile as I said: "Are you happy now?"

He looked at me with shock written all over his face.

I walked to the kitchen to get another bottle of water, then went to the spare room and closed the door behind me.

About 5 minutes later I heard a car pull away and mama Mei came into the room.

The minute I saw her, I broke down, I couldn't keep calm any longer and cried my heart out.

It was bad, mama Mei didn't know what to do and ended up crying with me.