8 Have a girlfriend

Jason watched them sit at his table while his hand gripped the book he was reading, he has seen her with a lot of boys and he can't understand why he feels hurt seeing her with Cash, and besides, this is the first time Anna is choosing another table over he's, normally she invites her boyfriend to join his table, so why is Cash case different? He had to force himself not to walk out, thereby giving Cash what he wanted but there is one thing he knows for sure, this attitude will only fire up the already discussion that he is in bad terms with his sister. He sighed and stood up before walking to the counter to get himself some lunch.

Anna stole glances to his table, he appeared calm to the outside but she can she his feeding was with difficulty. Jason can't be angry that she is sitting with Cash right? She wondered and there on decided to see him before going to her next class.

Cash wouldn't shut up, he kept asking when she will visit him at his place. He told her his mom traveled and they can be alone should she visit, of course she knows where he was going too and can't help but wonder if he can at least give her three days to being his girlfriend before wanting to have sex with her.

"So what are you saying? Are you coming over?" She heard him asked again and she couldn't help but frown.

"No Cash, I can't come. I won't be chance" she replied and her frown deepened when she saw Megan and her cousin Courtney walked to Jason's table, Why is Courtney here?

"Oh, I see. Well, my mom will be away for a week so maybe within the week?"

"Yea I will try" she answered absent mindedly as all her her attention was now on her brother's table.

She saw Courtney grabbed his hand while smiling beautifully and how her brother returned the smile. She couldn't explain the pain that gripped her heart, is she going to be his first girlfriend now? She winced at the thought of him kissing her or doing anything with her. Her mind chose to torment her by bringing an image from her dream last night, they were both entangled in that passionate moment except that the girl was not here again but a dark blonde with light gray eyes, Courtney.

She shut her eyes immediately, willing to shut her mind too but it was to no avail. Can she be punished anymore harshly than being in love with her brother?

Cash saw her lack of interest and followed her gaze to her brother's table. He was surprised to see Courtney and seeing the way she was chatting and laughing with Jason, he became jealous, he wants her to be like that with him. He was hoping to go after her once he is done with Anna, but Jason that bastard, he has run over and claim her.

Courtney reached out her hand to swipe away a few strands of Jason's blonde hair from his eyes and he subconsciously looked at Anna, they eyes met and he couldn't look away again, although there might be a distance between them but he was able to see the moisture in her eyes. is Cash hurting her? But she is staring at him, is it because of Courtney? He had a vague idea that she doesn't like seeing him with girls, but why?

Anna saw the frown on his face and how he appeared to be wondering over something and immediately averted her eyes but in time to see him release his hand from Courtney's hold. She sighed but can't get herself to think over it. She just want to leave the place and thinking about leaving, she stood up immediately.

"Where are you going?" Cash asked immediately.

"Restroom and back to class, the bell will ring soon anyway" she replied and gave him no room for objection as she left quickly. She got to the restroom and stood staring at herself in the mirror. Just why is her life like this? She had noticed about the difference in her feelings for Jason when she was thirteen and had kept it hidden for good two years now.

It was never easy but it was manageable if she don't have to see him making advances to any girl and it has been like that since then. But this Courtney now, she came and suddenly he was interested in her. She had once thought he is gay because of the way he was hardly seen with girls but after getting a confirmation from him that he wasn't, she had given it up and prayed day and night that he should not see a girl he likes, it will be so much harder then to have to see him doing everything he can't do with her with his girlfriend.

She took a deep breath and let it out slowly "your life is a mess" she told herself and she found herself wishing for the one thousandth time why he is not her foster brother. She had had that many thought and wish for as long as she can remember, but it's most definitely not going to come through, she already knows that.

She sighed and turned on the tap and splashed water of her face, she hand combed her hair and tried to keep her emotion in place before turning around and walking out the door, she collided with a strong masculine chest immediately she stepped out "ow" she breathed in and she was so familiar with the scent. The person was holding her already to support her and she looked up to see a pair of worried blue eyes.

"What is wrong?" His deep voice asked her and she could sense the worry in his voice.

"Nothing" she answered while she savored the feelings of being held in his arms for the day.

Jason looked intensely at her, searching to find a hair out of place and when he found out she was okay, he let out a sigh of relief "I saw you walk out and you took so long to come back."

She was surprised to hear that, how can he be entertaining Courtney and still be able to keep an eye on her? Does this mean, she is still his number one priority? She found herself smiling genuinely at that and couldn't explain the sudden burst of happiness. He will still choose her above all else "I'm fine" now, she almost added but bit her tongue to keep it in.

"Did Cash hurt you?"

"No."

"What was he saying to you?"

"He was inviting me over to his place, said his mom traveled and will be away for a week and that we would be alone should I come."

Jason had a sharp intake of breath at that "that bastard."

"What?"

"Nothing. Let's go back to class."

"But the bell..." She was saying when it rang.

Jason gave her a look of 'you were saying?' And she laughed for the first time in the day. He smiled too and just can't understand how this sister of his really affects his mood, she is happy and he is happy, she is sad and he is worried.

"What about Courtney?"

"She will have to leave now since Megan will be going back to class."

"She came over to see you?" She asked the question in her mind.

"Well, sort of."

"Do you like her?" She held her breath as she waited for his answer.

Jason sighed as he wrapped his hand around her shoulder and pulled her with him into a walk to her class "she is okay, lovely."

She furrowed her brows, that's not the answer to her question "you haven't answered my question."

He chuckled and gave her a side glance "why do you ask?"

"Since when do you start asking that? You normally just answer the question" she pouted.

"Well, I really can't say but she appears okay and I enjoy her discussion, she is free and jovial" he shrugged "it won't be hard to like her."

Anna felt her heart breaking into pieces, he has never answer her question like that, although he didn't come clean in saying he like her but he has also never talked so about a girl "oh. Um, so...you want to make her your...girlfriend?"

Jason smiled and stopped in his track to look at her "do you want me to?" He raised his brow with a sexy smile playing on his lips.

She looked away immediately to avoid drowning in the smile "well, I'm not supposed to be the one to tell you but I'm just saying as the loving sister I am, you know she doesn't live around, so if you don't want a long distance relationship" she shrugged "then you know, you can't be with her."

Jason looked at her and smiled "I have heard your advice sweet loving sister" he joked and she grinned "but it will be nice if I have a girlfriend right? Or I'm I not allowed to?"

"Of course you can have a girlfriend, you are very much allowed to" she replied but her heart said otherwise.

Jason smiled and kissed her forehead, there were at her class by then "see you after class."

She nodded "is dad back yet?"

"We will have to wait after school to find out" he replied and she nodded again before he walked away and she sighed and walked into her class.