25 I'm sorry

"I'm sorry" he bit his lip "I...I just..." He sighed and his eyes strayed to Anna, seeing the expectant look in her eyes, he wondered if she actually did come to his room or if it was really a dream. When he woke up in his room with the terrible headache, he had gone into the bathroom to wash his face but he has seen his swollen lip and teeth marks on his nibble. It's not the first time he is seeing her in his dreams or having a heated romance with her but it is the first time of him waking up to see changes or marks on his body and he had taken the next ten minutes wondering if it was all real.

"Jason, what could it be that you can't tell us?" This time, Samuel was the one that asked.

Jason looked away from his sister and tried to bury his thought, now he can't tell his family that he is actually thinking if he had kissed his sister this afternoon neither will he tell them that he actually got drunk because he was celebrating the freedom from his loveless relationship "I went to Megan's place to see Courtney" he began.

The whole family looked at him expectantly, they all know Courtney cause she had made it a habit to visit every weekend, now they want to know what link she has to Jason drinking to stupor this afternoon "I went there only to see her with Cash, it turned out she has been cheating on me" he finished.

"Courtney?" Veronica was the first to recover from her shock "why would she do that?"

"I don't know" Jason licked his lips "all I know is that, I was hurt, very hurt. I left immediately and couldn't get myself to think straight. I only wanted to buy few cans of beer and didn't know when I paid for a carton, I decided to take just few, I didn't know when I drank to that extent, I'm really sorry mom. I'm really sorry you have to see me like that" his eyes were teary and everybody was shocked because they have never seen Jason so emotional.

"She doesn't deserve you, I have always known that" Anna accused and Veronica looked at her, telling her 'not now' with her eyes.

"Baby, it's something that everybody experience" Veronica began before sitting beside him "heartbreak is a kind of lesson, although it hurts me that you have to experience yours like this but it's inevitable" she caressed his hair "I'm so sorry you have to go through this, I really am."

"It's okay mom, I'm better now" Jason assured.

"I wasn't expecting this from Courtney" Samuel said.

"Well, it's not being written on the forehead" Veronica interjected.

"I think it's my turn to console you" Anna added before standing up to sit beside him. Jason stared at her and her words got him thinking again, haven't she already? He thought but can't just tell if she has, oh now he hates why he had let himself got drunk, at least if he hadn't, he would have been able to know if he have had a special moment with his sister, but now he can't even tell if it is a dream or not.

"It's not fair" he heard Anna say and looked at her "when I get hurt, I run to you but you" she frowned "you ran to a beer, is it that I'm not enough to console you, to hug you and tell you everything is going to be okay?"

"I'm sorry" Jason apologized but deep inside him, his mind is in turmoil. If she really had come to his room that means she should have known about Courtney and wouldn't need to act surprise now but how would she have known? It didn't happen in school and she had been in school when he came back. Courtney wouldn't have come home and tell her herself, damn, this whole thinking is really bringing back his headache, he groaned.

"Why don't you have your dinner and then go take a cold shower, maybe it will help with the headache" Veronica suggested and Samuel nodded.

Jason nodded and stood up, he really need to work on his memory, was he with Anna today? He really can't tell. The feeling of having her in his arms, kissing her and the passion she rose in him feels real but the possibility of that happening, makes him doubts his memory. Just why would she allow him to kiss her? Why would she let him suck her nipples? Thinking to that, he remembered that full, round, soft boob that he had held and sucked and his little brother stood on attention.

While eating his dinner, he kept glancing at his sister to know if there is something off about her but she acts quite normal. Her only anger is that he didn't tell her that he is heartbroken so that she will comfort him like he always do to her, apart from that, nothing else and then he decided, maybe it's really a dream and the only real life like dream he have ever had.

He went to his room after his dinner and stood at the mirror in his bathroom staring at that little red marks round his nibble, although it's faint now but he can still make it out to be teeth bites, he sighed and shook his head. There is no way Anna would do such to him, it's all the effect of alcohol, it made him think it's real, whereas it's just a dream as always, after concluding to that, he stepped inside, closed the glass door and tuned on the shower.

The next day, Jason broke his SIM card, he didn't want Courtney to call and start begging like she had been doing since last night. He left the house to get a new one, after that he visited Josh who called the rest of the guys and they went out to have fun. His friends were surprised to see him living quite normal and having fun unlike someone who just experienced heartbreak for the first time.

"Dude you sure you have not been thinking of breaking up with Courtney, I mean, you don't look affected" Josh commented and the rest nodded.

"I have been thinking the same thing and not just that, you are not even considering forgiving her since you went and got a new SIM card" put in Peirce.

"She did it with Cash, you guys know how I feel about that guy and I can't see myself dating any girl he has been with" except for my sister, he almost added.

"Well, that is understandable" agreed James "I mean I too won't date any girl he has been with. I will see it as if he have taint them. Except for your sister though, I don't give a damn if Cash has dated her, besides it didn't even last up to four days" he grinned at Jason who threw his empty coffee cup at him.

"You are not dating my sister, so stop dreaming" he shouted.

"Dude calm down, you won't marry your sister okay" Tom added and the rest laughed at that.

"Whatever" Jason added while he tried to hide how hurt it feels to know they are right, he can't marry her even if he wants to.

They stayed a few more minutes before they left for the school gymnasium, they have game.

After the game, Jason rode with Josh in his car and he dropped him off in front of his house before they said goodbye.

Anna just finished taking a shower, she reached for her towel and wrapped it around her chest, she stepped out of the glass door but then she felt something crawling on her skin, she untied the towel immediately to see a big cockroach crawling on her stomach, making it's way to her breastbone. Anna screamed and slap the cockroach away, it hit the floor and ran away and she too was already sprawling on the floor while watching it run.

Jason opened the door from outside in time to hear Anna scream, he rushed up the stairs in twos and threes straight to her room, he pushed opened the door but when he didn't see her in the room, he rushed to the bathroom and forced the door open but just to see his dear beloved sister on the floor, crying and completely naked. He froze at the door as did Anna who was now looking at him shocked.

His eyes traveled to her full boobs staring at him and he gulped, his eyes traced down her stomach to her closed legs before going to her face again to see her shocked eyes, he blinked then and looked away, more like tried to look away "are...are you..you oka..okay?" He stuttered.

Anna waking up from her shock reached for her towel to cover herself, not that she doesn't like the look in his eyes when he looked at her body but that it's what that is expected of her to do "there was a big cockroach" she sniffed.