Chapter 475 - Hate

The moment a curse spilled out from Gideon's mouth and Vera felt his hands leaving hers, she swiftly reached out and wrapped her arms around his neck, possessively pulling him back towards and into her. His body was so stiff he did not seem to be able to react fast enough from her pulling him and thus, he ended up crashing into her. That only caused them both to suck their breaths at the impact of that body clash. 

"I was… but not anymore…" Vera said, drawing in air through her teeth, breathing through the pain of that forceful penetration. She tightened her arms around him, letting him know that she did not want him to stop now. Not when they have already reached this stage. She was adamant in that she did not want him to pull away. "And I… I am beyond happy that you are the one who took it. I wouldn't want anyone else to take my first time but you… so please…" her voice wavered a little as she kissed his skin with so much emotion, "please don't stop. Don't go and leave me here. You've promised me tonight, remember? Take me… have me… all of me…" she pleaded with him.

She felt his body trembling after her words, and she dreaded he was going to pull away. But to Vera's greatest relief, he did not. However, he did not make even a small move, but just kept still as he continuously trembled as he rested his forehead against the pillow. 

Why… why was she doing this to him? Gideon questioned silently. His emotions were all over the place right now. He could not believe this. Somehow, all he ever brought to her were hurt and pain. He was going to send her away, to cut her off from him for good… he had made sure she had understood that clearly. Yet, she still decided to do this. To finally offer herself up to him like this. He… he did not deserve this… he had no right to be that special one who deserves to be her first… he just did not deserve her. Period.

All of a sudden, his trembling body shook all over when he felt her tongue licking his ear. He then realised that she was copying him! Following just exactly like how he had done to her, whispering in his ear. 

"Gideon… I want you… make me feel good again, pleasure me again…" she uttered in a breathy and pleading voice, causing his blood pressure to shoot through the roof and almost loose his cool. And with that, he was seduced hopelessly his member that was still impaled inside her rapidly swelled again. 

She pulled away a little to look at his face when she felt him stretching her inner walls again, wanting to kiss him on the mouth. But she paused at the look that he had in his eyes. She saw self-deprecation in them. It was obvious that he hated himself… so much so that the hate was so intense, so rooted to his deepest core that she could feel it reflected in his eyes. She was taken aback and wondered what could have happened in his past that was able to cause such amounts of hatred to be kept within him. 

It made Vera's heart hurt again. She caressed his face and a soft smile bloomed on her face. If she could, she would do anything to erase that hate in his eyes. She would trade anything she had for it. 

"You are… you are mine tonight." She reminded him gently, caressing him continuously, as soothingly as she could. "You had said that I can have all of you… so please stop thinking about anything else. Let me have all of you… your body, your soul… your… your thoughts too…" she kissed him, "think of me only… just for tonight… forget everything else but me…" her soft and sweet voice seemed to wind seductively into his ears, shooting for his heart and it seemed to have an effect on him.

And Gideon finally responded to her. He suddenly roused from his statue-like state and kissed her back. She felt his body seemed to have roared back into life once again. He did not move his hips, but his mouth and hands began to explore her wildly. And his touch just ignited the fire inside of her into an inferno again. 

"Gideon…" she moaned out his name as he licked and sucked on her tongue. When he pulled away from the kiss, he had lifted his torso from crashing against hers. Looking up, Vera could see a gleaming silvery thread connecting them from his lips to hers. Her heart lurched at the sight and happiness swelled within her. Then looking up at the new expression in his eyes, the utter desire that was pouring out from them, as though he was seeing nothing else but her now, made Vera's insides throb. Her lower parts tingled and clenched in a very pleasurable way that made her think she could get used to it.

"Right…" his voice echoed. "… you are now mine…" he declared, and he withdrew his length from her very slowly before he dropped tiny kisses at the corners of her eyes. "I'm going to move now…"

"Yes," she replied, "yes! Take me!" 

He pushed himself into her and Vera winced at the pain. She felt him kissing the corner of her eyes again. "It'll feel better soon, I promise." He whispered lovingly as he continued pushing in and pulling out slowly, making sure that she would have the chance to get used to his size first. 

A low groan escaped from his lips as time ticked by. She was so tight it was taking him everything that he had inside to control himself from plundering her wildly and not caring for her comfort. However, his conscience would not allow him to do so to a virgin like her. He needed to be patient for her but she… oh god, she felt like heaven. How was he supposed to keep himself under control? 

He had been in hell for so long that a taste of heaven would have totally unravelled him in no time at all. But… he must not lose control. Not now. For her, he cannot hurt her. 

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