I observed for a while, but there was no camera or other monitoring equipment, or maybe I didn't find it.
At this time, I felt like peeing and wanted to go to the toilet.
When I was in the hospital, I could only go to the toilet with the help of nursing workers, but now there was no one in the room, and Yang Min and Yang Yu were not there. I was embarrassed to shout them to help me, so I had to bear it.
But the more urgent it was, no one came in. I feel a little pain in my abdomen. I can't help it. I can't pee on the bed. I had to try to climb out of bed by myself, but my legs didn't listen to me. My upper body got out of bed, and my upper body was still on the bed. I leaned forward and fell to the ground like a dead fish.
There are independent toilets and bathrooms in the room. I try my best to climb forward. I tell myself that I must not wet my clothes. I want to maintain the little dignity left in my life.
But my legs didn't work, and I didn't have any strength at all. I relied on my arms and dragged my numb legs forward. I moved little by little, slower than the tortoise. Tears came out, and suddenly I thought I was dead. What's the point of living like this?
Just when I was choking and sweating, someone finally came in.
"What are you doing, ma'am?" Yang Min yelled.
I turned to look at her and said to her in a praying voice, I want to go to the toilet. I have to solve it immediately with her help, or I'll really pee in my pants.
Yang Min helped me to the bed, and then brought the bedpan. With her help, I finally solved the big problem.
"Ma'am, it's convenient for you to call me. There's a button at the head of the bed. I'll hear it as soon as you press it. Don't do that next time, or my husband will give me a meeting. As Mr. Wang said, if you are wronged, he will never forgive us. "
Yang Min said that he was worried that I would tell Fang zhe about it. In fact, how can I tell him such a disgraceful thing? What's more, I'm not close to him. He's my enemy. I just can't help it now. I can only rely on others and be controlled by him.
"Sister min, I need a wheelchair. So I can move in a wheelchair. I'm always in bed. I'll get sores. " I say what I think.
"The wheelchair is ready. We didn't give it to you because we were afraid you would be angry." Yang Min said.
"Now that I am disabled, I will inevitably face the problem of using a wheelchair. I won't be angry. Also, I need some adult diapers so I don't have to trouble you every time. And if I call you at night, I'll be sorry. "
"Madam, you have no disability. Your legs can be recovered. It just takes time. Madam, you must not be discouraged. You must persist so that you can get better faster." Yang Min comforted me.
"I know. I'll try to recover. You can help me with the diapers. "
"In fact, my husband told us to prepare something before, but he said that unless you offered to do it, we would give it to you. Just a moment. I'll get it for you now. " Yang Min helped me lie down and went out.
After a while, Yang Min brought me the wheelchair and diapers. With her help, I put on my diapers, put them on, got into a wheelchair, and then tried to operate by myself, walking around the room.
I have to face the fact that I am disabled and try my best to be self reliant. So I can barely keep a little bit of self-esteem.
Only by maintaining self-esteem can I live like an individual and persist until I recover.
After nearly an hour of practice, I can basically operate the wheelchair by myself.
Yang Min praised me beside, "my wife is really smart. I learned it in a few minutes. It took me a long time to figure it out. This is an intelligent wheelchair specially made by my husband from Germany for his wife. It has many new functions, such as listening to music, making phone calls, and measuring heart rate. The husband is very kind to his wife
Fang Zhe's strength lies in that he makes everyone feel that he is good to me. No one believes that he will be the murderer who killed my mother.
I don't understand why he kept me, why he didn't let me die. Is it to humiliate me, or does he have a bigger plot.
Open the curtain, there is a big balcony in front. I swung my wheelchair onto the balcony, and the wind came.
It's really in the middle of the mountain. Looking around, it's a late autumn scenery. In the distance, you can see the tall buildings of the city, but you can't hear the noise of the city.
I stand quietly on the balcony. The setting sun is like blood. It's time for the tired birds to return to the forest. The cool wind blowing head on, let me awake a lot, also a lot of spirit.
"Sister min, what's the name of this mountain?" I asked Yang Min, who was standing by.
"I don't know. I come from the countryside to work in the city. I really don't know what it's called here."
I don't know whether Yang Min doesn't want to say it or I really don't know.
"It's called moon mountain. It is located in the south of Zhuhai City Fang Zhe's voice came from behind.
I didn't speak.
"This is a protected area, so we can't build houses here. This half mountain villa is the only private house in the mountain. It was built by a relative of an official. I bought it at a high price. I hope you like it." Fang zhe said softly.Every time he talks to me in a whisper, it always makes me have some illusion that he is not my enemy, he is my close lover, but the reality is too cruel, reason will quickly pull me back to reality, he killed my mother, he is my enemy, I can't be confused by his superficial tenderness.
"I don't like it here." I said in a cold voice.
"Why, is it because some birds are too noisy, or do you think it's too calm here?" Fang zhe asked.
"No, because this is your place. I don't want to accept your alms. I want to get out of here. "
Fang zhe was silent for a moment, and suddenly reached out to turn my wheelchair around and let me face him.
"Listen, whether you like it or not, you have to stay here because you are disabled. If you want to leave here, you need to be able to walk freely and then walk down the mountain with dignity. Otherwise, you'll have to stay here all your life and be kept by me like a pet dog. "
He again sent out that kind of cold air, with fierce eyes, like an eagle.
I'm always shocked by his aura. I'm afraid that if I contradict him at this time, he will slap me in the face.
I don't want to be beaten by Fang Zhe in front of Yang min. it's too humiliating, so I put up with it.
A burst of pigeon whistle came, a large area of pigeons suddenly flew by, there are two still stopped on the balcony.
It seems that the pigeon is not afraid of people, so it stops there, looks at me and makes a cooing sound.
Fang Zhe and I didn't talk. We all looked at the pigeon.
At this time, Fang zhe stretched out his hand and stroked my head, "you are just a pigeon whose wings are injured temporarily. You will eventually fly back to the sky."
Touch is the action he used to do to me, this action once let me very infatuated, let me have a warm cold life.
But now he does this action to me, but it makes me feel like I'm just a puppet, and everything is under his control.
I have to find a way out of his control.