Chapter 190 - My Soul Is Broken

The hand squeezed his and he turned to his husband, walking closer, needing to be near him.

"Did you know?" His voice wavered.

"No, not until recently or else I would have told you beloved. I promised I would be honest with you. I intend to not break it."

Wang Li spoke softly and he squeezed the hand in his.

"How… how do I know this is the truth?" He turned his golden eyes at the golden light, "You were not honest with my master, you were not honest with us. How do I know this is true?"

"I assumed it was not needed after the Ghost King died, but then the demon gathered the broken soul. The Ghost King had returned and you have became the way you are once more… but worse," Jade Emperor paused for a moment, "He must return to release himself, Chosen One. If he stays, this world will not survive another war, even with your students trained for battle."

Ying Yue stared blankly at the heavenly being.

"Fine. Wang Li will return to me every 2 moons."

"No."

"Why not?"

Ying Yue dipped his brows, staring angrily at the Jade Emperor. Arm wrapped around his head, pulling him to press his face against his lover's shoulder.

"My soul is broken, Ah Yue. If it weren't, I would agree every 2 moon I shall return, but with my broken soul, the cracks are forming. It would be harder for me to release it quickly. I have to recover in the Netherworld," he heard the deep sigh against his ear, "If I didn't, I would be here always."

Wang Li whispered and pulled the hand gripping his to place on his heart. Ying Yue closed his eyes and sent his energy through to feel what his lover was saying. He felt the chipped edges, the cracks spreading inside of his lover's soul core. His heart stuttered and his throat closed up.

This… this was going to break him.

Ying Yue tried to pull his anger back. He did not want to add to all the other things his husband had to carry because of him. Letting out a deep breath with his eyes closed, he tried to clear his mind and let what was said wash over him.

"Forgive me, my husband. I continue to make you worse," he whispered, but quickly felt hands cupped his face.

"I won't. There is nothing to forgive, beloved."

He nodded and smiled when he felt lips pressed against his. Wang Li moved to kiss his forehead and he sighed.

"Tell me, Jade Emperor, there is nothing else. My heart cannot take anymore loss. Ah Li's soul may be broken, but so is my heart."

"Nothing."

"Then, how long would he need?" He looked at the Jade Emperor before looking at his husband, "Ah Li?"

"Ah Yue…" Wang Li closed his silver eyes and sighed, "Many moons."

Ying Yue bit his lips from crying and he pressed his face to take in as much scent as he could from his lover. He was going to miss his husband all over again.

'Why must it be this way?'

"Once a year."

"What?" Ying Yue pulled away to stare at the heavenly light.

"One day each year, the Ghost King is allowed on surface."

"…"

"…"

"Autumn Festival."

"…"

"Wang Li will return to me on that day. He is strongest during that day."

Ying Yue turned to see widened silver eyes, before they crinkled with a grin on those lovely lips.

"Very well."

"Really?" Ying Yue blinked surprised.

"When the sun begins to rise to when the moon begins to set, you both may be together. If you stay longer or show up too soon, there will be no visits and we will remove the Ghost King's power."

"That is f-"

"He is only alive because of it, child."

The blonde thinned his lips.

"He is dead. You are tainted. This world will tip and death will occur once more."

"Do not threaten us, Jade Emperor. Wang Li already sacrificed himself for your prophecy to be completed. If you take away his power, then I will not hesitate to bring him back to me or force myself into Heaven itself to get his powers back."

"Ying Yue," Wang Li said gently and pulled his face to face him.

"It is true. Even if my mind and soul is clear of any anger or hate, even if I block my memories of you, even if you were thrown to a different world without me, I will find you. It is my turn, Ah Li. I will not make you wait any longer."

His husband's eyes watered as he laughed so beautifully that there was no way Ying Yue would ever let his lover go. Even blocking his own memories of Wang Li, his heart was still yearning for the silver eyed man. They were connected. The Jade Emperor and the Heavens were at fault as well for creating him, for connecting him to such a beautiful man, for his indiscernible need for his husband.

"I know your love for the Ghost King, child. We all do. Do not think we do not regret many actions we took," the golden light sighed.

"Then release the curse, please Jade Emperor. I beg you," Ying Yue went to his knees and kowtowed in agony.

"My child," there was a softness in the heavenly being's tone, "What is written will stay. You both tried to overwrite it for many centuries. Staying together, sacrificing Heaven's Chosen, killing the Ghost King, faking his death."

"It was not a fake!"

Ying Yue shouted crying and he felt Wang Li kneeled beside him.

"I stabbed him and watched him die in my arms, then watch him leave my fingers. I broke him, shattered his soul! He died! It was not a fake! It wasn't!"

Wang Li pulled him into warm arms and warm chest. He cried loudly with his entire heart and he clutched his lover's robe tightly. His mind provided him with the events of the past. Memories of that fateful day, the day he wished to drown himself in wine to forget, flashed back brightly in his mind.

"The prophecy, my children, always ended with the Ghost King's death, your Wang Li. Do you understand what this means? No return."

Wang Li leaned down to kiss his wife's lips and held the platinum blonde closely.

"For true balance, the Ghost King must die for good, but we in Heaven know this is not an option for either of you. You are both stubborn and selfish."

Wang Li tightened his hold around is wife for a moment, before removing his lover's warmth. He closed his silver eyes and bowed lowly, kowtowing to the Jade Emperor. This startled the golden light of heaven to see their first chosen, one who only demanded and caused them trouble, bowing to him.

"Jade Emperor and those in Heaven. I apologize for all that I have done. I know I have caused you much trouble and it is not a lie that I would do so again. You've connected Ying Yue to me. You cannot sever this bond. But, I am willing to sacrifice myself for my wife and this world."

"No! Ah Li, you cannot."

Ying Yue threw himself on top of his lover, still with his forehead to the ground. He shook his head as he cried, wiping his tears on his husband's robe. Hiccupping and holding his lover tightly, he knew he was selfish. He kept choosing Wang Li over the world in this life and the other.

"Very well."

"No! Please, please don't-"

"Once a year, the Ghost King will be allowed to the surface world. It does not complete the prophecy, but you will see one another. Return to your realm, Ghost King, by the time the sun rises. As for your death Ghost King and your pain Chosen One, I will speak with the others."

The golden light faded away.

Wang Li, still bowed lowly, did not speak a word. The only sound in the room was his hiccups and crying. His husband wrapped his arms around him as he sat up, bring him into his lover's lap. He continued to cry, tucking his head against his lover's neck, just wishing and praying that they could stay together. That was all they wanted. Why couldn't they have that?

His husband pulled his face away and wiped the big droplet of tears off him cheeks. Wang Li smiled at him and kissed his lips, smoothing his worries away. Yet, all he could think about was that he would be away from his husband again.

Ying Yue kissed his husband hard, deep, pressing himself to his lover. He pushed Wang Li onto the bed and reached down to unbuckle the belt. He quickly pulled his lover's robe away and slipped his hand into the bottom. Wrapping the thick cock, he pumped it still with his lips sucking and drinking everything of his husband.

He was on a frenzy to take all of his lover while he still could.