Chapter 178 - Realm Of Her Memories

Lilith's POV (Sakamaki's Narration)

***Graphic Scenes, Reader's Discretion Advised***

This entire chapter is from Lilith's perspective, but it's being narrated by Sakamaki.

As I was still inside her mind, it seemed like feeling someone else's emotions and memories was taking a toll on my body as my head was slowly aching and it felt like my heart was beating faster, too.

The sound of her howl started becoming fainter than her vision, also started getting dark and blurry. Soon there was darkness again in front of my eyes. From what I had seen, these were the transitional phases between her memories when everything got dark and a new scene played.

The silence ringed in my ear, and after what felt like an eternity of nothingness, I could hear the faint tone of a voice saying something. The voice kept getting clearer and I could tell that it was a deep voice of a man, who was indeed talking Lilith.

Though the image of the man never showed up in her memories, I could understand each and every word the man was speaking.

Again, the period of darkness came and everything around me vanished. Albeit, I was inside her mind. A chill ran down my spine for some reason, as I could feel the temperature around me falling rapidly.

My headache was getting worse, but I was hyperactive at that moment for some reason, so it also blocked the option of passing out for me. The pain was unbearable, as it felt like someone was hammering the inside of my head constantly.

Suddenly it felt like someone was stirring up my stomach as I was feeling sick to my stomach. Almost like when you're on a rollercoaster and it glides downhill at full speed. I was feeling all kinds of things in that slight instant.

Bright lights were flashing in front of my eye and it seemed like another set of memories was flooding in. My brain was suddenly in a state of anxiety and panic, and was getting a premonition that something terrible was about to happen.

The feeling was overwhelming, as at a point it completely lost me to what I was feeling except a strange uneasiness. Neither was I sad or delighted. And the fact that they were Lilith's emotions, and I was feeling them, was already messed up.

I didn't even know why this was happening to me in the first place, but all there was to it was that I can't get out of her mind and neither could I get unconscious. I was stuck in this weird place and was being forced to watch her memories.

With another bright flash of light and a heart wrenching screech, a new scene started playing in front of my eyes. From what it seemed like, Lilith was standing in some sort of court with a large crowd of people surrounding her.

I could feel their eyes on me, as it seemed to be full of hatred. The faint noise of their whispers was filling up the courtroom. I looked up at a man standing a few yards away from me with his sharp gazes piercing me.

He had a rather large build and was wearing really fancy attire. From what I could, it looked like one of those fantasy world clothes. His long white hair was tied up in a ponytail as he was standing still with his arms crossed over his chest.

There were a few more people who were also wearing the same kind of clothing as they all were looking at me with contempt in their eyes. Some were whispering and laughing, while others looked completely disgusted.

It appeared like Lilith was the centre of attraction in that room. Suddenly, the crowd grew wild as they actively started threatening Lilith and swearing at her. But still she remained in silence without batting an eye.

I was confused as to why they were acting like that. I was also surprised by the fact that all the devils aren't how they depict in the mythology. They were really similar to us, whether it was their nature or looks. 

Suddenly a heavy thing hit my head, but I didn't feel any pain at all as the thing which appeared to be metallic fell on the floor with a loud noise. I touched the place where it hit and my hand became red with the blood seeping out of the wound.

But they didn't stop at that as they kept throwing several things at me, and I stood there in silence. Not a single person in the courtroom came forward to help me, rather, everyone seemed to be busy passing comments and laughing among themselves.

As the things kept hitting me, bruises and cuts covered my body, I couldn't help but feel empty at that moment. What Lilith felt at that moment was nothing. The words, the pain, everything appeared meaningless.

"Am I that terrible?" Were the thoughts that came into her mind at that moment.

"But I didn't do anything wrong."

"I did nothing wrong, but still I'm being treated like this?"

"Did I deserve it?"

Many thoughts ran wild in her mind, but neither of them seemed to carry any weight. They were more like random thoughts that were wandering around. Her mind felt quite different from what it was in the last memory.

Suddenly the world around me turned black and the face of a man with Silver hairs appeared in front of me. With a stern expression, the man let out a heavy sigh.

"Traitor!" were the words that left his mouth, as it was the breaking point for Lilith. Suddenly, a rush of emotions came flooding in and my heart started beating faster too as I felt like my heart would jump out of my chest.

"But Father… I didn't…" With agony in her voice, which seemed to have matured since the last memory when she was a child, she said but the man interrupted her, "You are a Disgrace!"

With that, the man's crimson eyes narrowed at her as I looked into his eyes and felt a strong gut wrenching sensation. There was a strange pressure in those eyes that Lilith felt at that moment, and by default, it was inflicting the same effect on me.