Chapter 565: Uncontrollable (2)

Thinking about my choices at this moment, I began weighing it to pick the best path wherein the two of us would be able to understand each other.

Arisa-senpai hugging me this time was already eating away at my restraint. However, for the sake of everyone and Arisa-senpai herself, I decided to just grit my teeth for a while to stop myself from turning around and let loose with my attraction towards her.

It’s unbearable. It’s like when you’re already starving for a few days and suddenly there’s an aromatic steak presented behind you that you instantly salivate upon smelling its fragrance followed by an excited growl of your stomach. If you turn around, you can stuff yourself with your long-sought food. However, if you do so, you’ll be falling from a tall cliff with the possibility of not emerging from it again.

If both of us lost control at this moment, that would definitely lead to something else. And when it came the time to tell her everything, Arisa-senpai would definitely be hurt.

I clenched my fists tightly, my fingernails about to dig in my palm. “First of all, I sincerely apologize if that’s what senpai felt. I hadn’t thought that it would be that unbearable for you. If I had known, telling you that I would take the blame off your shoulder wouldn’t happen. Telling you everything about me would’ve been the best choice last week...”

I paused for a while as my hand slowly moved from my sides to her arms that were locking me tightly inside her embrace.

I thought of pulling myself out of it but in the end... I ended up placing it on top of her hands, trying to calm down the shaking of her body through it.

Upon feeling my hand on hers and digesting what I said, I felt little movements from behind me. Arisa-senpai was definitely shaking her head. Whether she’s rejecting my apology or just a gesture that there’s no point apologizing for things that already happened, I had no idea.

In any case, my aim to stop her shaking was somewhat achieved. Her arms loosened slightly as she stopped trying to tighten her hold on me.

Following that, Arisa-senpai lifted one of my arms to squeeze herself from my side as she slowly moved herself to my front without letting me go. And because of that, my arms that were just placed on top of her hands ended up being encircled to her back.

Even if I didn’t turn around to face her, Arisa-senpai put us in this position.

With her gaze rising to meet mine, I saw how conflicted she was. Perhaps she’s also trying to stop herself but unlike me, she failed to restrain herself.

And upon seeing her this close to me, my head just naturally lowered. While my arms tightened behind her, I then lifted her slightly, leveling her head with mine as my lips eventually reached hers.

As our eyes closed to feel the sensation of our lips on top of each other, Arisa-senpai’s shoulders relaxed as she let herself be absorbed by this situation.

Before we knew it, the two of us already moved from near the door to the middle of the room.

With only the two of us inside, the simple kiss where we only had our lips placed on top of each other eventually evolved to something more.

I knew the restraint that I had tried to put on myself was already about to break. Arisa-senpai was just this irresistible.

And surely, I’m just as irresistible for her.

After who knows how long, our lips separated, with a string of saliva in between us. It eventually broke anyway.

Following that, Arisa-senpai buried her reddened face on my chest, as her voice once again filled my ears.

At first, she couldn’t finish a sentence as if she’s finding it hard to gather her thoughts.

Nonetheless, that didn’t last too long. Her next words were about how she ended up meeting me here instead of Izumi-senpai.

She mentioned how she confessed about everything that happened to us with Izumi-senpai. Hoping that the girl would stop her uncontrollable desire for me.

However, instead of doing that, Izumi-senpai encouraged her.

Not the normal encouragement though. Izumi-senpai told her that if Arisa-senpai decided to chase after me, no amount of warning would be enough to stop her. That’s why rather than letting it become another point of their disagreement, Izumi-senpai suggested for Arisa-senpai to be the one to meet me here.

And that led to this moment.

Naturally, I couldn’t ask her about Izumi-senpai’s state when she told her about what happened between us. As much as we had our unspeakable moments, Izumi-senpai and I also had one.

Knowing that girl’s current state would only happen when we meet again. Later at their club or tomorrow at this room.

“Onoda-kun, Izumi... she’s afraid, right? Afraid that I will not believe her warning again just like back then. If I... if I take her words and speculate on it, does she know something about you? Something that you haven’t told me?”

“Perhaps she’s afraid that it will happen again, senpai. As you said, it’s something like a blot in the history of your friendship. Izumi-senpai most likely didn’t want to let you choose between her and a guy again, in this case, me. Just by that, it’s truly admirable how much you cared for each other. Instead of telling you about what she knows about me, she only left a clue for you to speculate leading to this moment.” I began caressing her cheeks as I responded to her words.

Despite her possible failed attempt at making Ogawa look at her, Izumi-senpai still managed to direct her friend to a path where she wouldn’t just be blinded with her uncontrollable desire or attraction towards me.

And due to that, it managed to somehow curb down our desire for each other. At the moment, after savoring that kiss between us, holding each other like this was already enough.

“And to answer your question, it’s true, Izumi-senpai knew something about me that I haven’t told you yet.” I continued.

And upon hearing that, Arisa-senpai eyebrows twitched as her attention instantly focused on it. With the same complicated expression, she stressed. “Then tell me! Tell me about what she knew and... about that past of yours. Let me understand you. Understand why you are still here with me. You’re cheating, cheating on Nanami... And I... I am betraying her just by being here with you, holding you like this and kissing you like that.”

“Isn’t that the reason why I am here? To tell you about myself. To let you understand why I am holding you like this and kissing you like that when I just told you that I am still loyal to Nami...” To prepare herself for what I am about to reveal, I met her gaze once more and shook my head. “Senpai, you’re aware, right? I also have a glib tongue like your ex but I was using it differently. On the same note, like him, I am also in multiple relationships. My girlfriend isn’t just Nami. The difference is... she’s aware of that. No, all of them are aware that... they’re not my only ones.”