It's not the first time I've heard this sentence. It's just
Hold on, hold on!
The bones of his fingers were white, and his white teeth clenched his pale lips, trying to transfer the pain from his chest to other parts of his body.
Skin pain, it doesn't matter, can bear.
But the feeling of heartache
Sorry! A sense of near collapse!
The heavy door closed tightly again, just like his heavy heart.
Sitting in a chair outside the emergency room, arms on knees, head up, waiting anxiously, praying.
Through the thin glass window, the setting sun is reflected on the tall body of LAN Shengyu, with a kind of desolate taste.
This figure
In just a few days, I have been waiting outside this emergency room for ten times.
"Is Mr. Lan's wife in the emergency room again?" It was the murmuring voice of nurses passing through the corridor.
"Well I hear it's more serious this time! "
"Ah Their family is so hard! It's said that they have received several critical notices... " The nurse lowered her voice and looked painfully at LAN Shengyu, who was still sitting on the corridor with her head down and eyes closed.
"Yes! Mrs. LAN is really strong. I heard from the attending professor that she has been hovering on the edge of life and death for several times, but she finally survived. Maybe she knows that there is a husband waiting for her who is so good and loves her all the time outside... " The nurse's words were full of appreciation and admiration.
"Don't they have a lovely little baby?"
"Well I've seen him many times. He's so cute! But the child is really pitiful. If he had lost his mother so early, ah It's hard to imagine... "
Their words are still going on.
LAN Shengyu on the corridor is still sitting there quietly, eyes closed, head impartial, and turns a deaf ear to everyone's discussion.
At this moment, his mind except her in the emergency room, all things, a blank.
In the emergency room, doctors rescue again and again.
"Electric shock..."
"One, two, three..."
"One more time..."
"One more time..."
"Again..."
"Didi didi..." The electrocardiograph of the hospital bed is still ringing, without any sound.
On the bed, it was still the pale sleeping face.
Lying there quietly, as if he were an angel far away from the dust world
Breathe, stop.
Pulse, stop.
Heart, stop.
The doctors looked dignified, finally shook their heads and began to pack up the equipment powerlessly, "give up Inform the patient's family... "
A few words, but sentence, bed, her life and death!!
Jiani really heard that
As soon as the doctor said it, tears could not stop flowing out.
Give up
Give up
Is she really leaving?
Want to leave this, have him in, still have small he in of world? Walk alone
Handsome face, lovely little face, again and again from the front of the rock.
Pain!!
Chest suffocation pain, breathing so hard, as if every breath is almost stepping on the sharp nails in general.
So painful, so painful!
The chest seemed to burst open.
Do you want to give up? Do you really want to give up?
However, she is not willing, also unwilling, there are more is not give up, not give up
Ear, as if there has been his familiar and charming voice calling himself.
"Jiani, Jiani..."
A sound, like every night that affectionate low voice, so panic, so hesitation, for fear of their own which second suddenly disappeared.
There is water mist constantly accumulating in the closed fundus
Close your eyes, bear the pain, very hard, very hard breathing
Again and again!!
In the face of death, unwilling to struggle!
Outside the door, LAN Shengyu's hands were clasped tightly, directly pale, and his fingers were tightly between his lips and teeth, praying with his heart.
For a moment, even his breathing became a little difficult.
Chest, as if hit by a sledgehammer, again and again, Dong Dong --
"Di Di Di Di --"
in the emergency room, it was still the harsh and cold sound of instruments.
All the doctors, with dignified look and dim eyes, "let's inform the family..."
What pain, burst in the heart.
A drop of clear tears seeps down the eyelid
Dye wet drooping feather eyelash, dizzy wet plain white pillow towel.Breathe
Again and again, very hard, very hard
"Dididi - didi - didi - didi -"
"there's a response, there's a response! Professor, the patient is coming through! "
Suddenly, the dignified look of the doctors was replaced by joy, "great, quick, quick!"
Pulse, normal.
Breathing, shortness of breath, still need to use respirator.
It's just, finally, breathing.
It was hours after the emergency room door opened.
The doctors went out one by one, looking relaxed. "Mr. LAN, Congratulations, madam, you've made it through again!"
Professor Qin reported the results to him immediately.
It's hard to hide the admiration for Jiani in the tone of speaking.
To tell you the truth, really, she is the first one who can survive in the face of death again and again. She has treated so many patients!
"Mrs. LAN is really strong Let's all admire it
"Thank you..." LAN Shengyu was moved and bowed his thanks.
Seeing Jiani again seems to be several centuries away.
She was so quiet lying in the hospital bed, with the respirator, again and again, very strong breathing.
He held his breath and sat quietly by the bed, looking at her suffering painfully.
Fingers, again and again stroked the back of her hand.
For a long time, take a deep breath
Instead, he went out of the ward.
Stand on the porch, take a deep breath, again and again.
I don't know how long she will endure such pain.
He was almost unimaginable.
Every time, when he received the notice of critical illness, he was afraid that he would never see her again. Even he could hardly bear it.
People say that a good man is safe all his life.
Oh! It's all bullshit!
I don't know how long they had been standing on the corridor. Until it was dark, LAN Shengyu went back to the ward.
Come back again, Jia Ni has already woken up, holding a pair of water pupil, eyes focused, eyes have been fixed in his body.
"Awake?"
The bright smile replaces all tired colors, and the tenderness of the fundus is very deep.
Jiani nods.
Pull out a shallow smile, some pale.
LAN Shengyu sat down on the chair beside her, took her little hand and put it tightly into her palm. "It's painful, isn't it?"
Jia Ni shakes her head, "OK..."
"Be brave!" LAN Shengyu said with a smile, "Jiani, you are so great. Even doctors say you are the greatest girl they have ever seen!"
"Really?" Jiani's eyes flashed a little bright, but soon, it was a little dark, and her eyes were covered with a thin layer of water mist. She looked at LAN Shengyu with a tired face and said, "it's hard to wait outside, isn't it?"
LAN Shengyu said with a faint smile, "it doesn't matter. As long as I can wait for the answer I want, it doesn't matter how long I wait!"
Every time, he believes that she can survive!!
Tears, zhijiani's eyes open
"Shengyu..." The thin little hand crossed LAN Shengyu's thin cheek, "if I leave, you may be better than this. At least, you don't have to suffer from this kind of suffering all the time?"
Jiani's words made LAN Shengyu suddenly stiff.
The next moment, the dark smoke pupil dyed a touch of red, even the throat also followed dry a few minutes, holding the good neon big hand suddenly tight a few minutes.
"Jiani Don't test me... " His lips were pasted with Jiani's fingers, "I don't want to live without you, for a moment, I don't want to, Mianmian doesn't want to You know... "
His tone, so panicked.
It's all about her expectations
Jia Ni's heart, followed by bursts of tension, tears can't help but seep into her eyes.
This kind of him, let oneself heartache unceasingly, "sorry, Shengyu, I I shouldn't have said that... "
She just didn't want to see him sad and see him suffer.
LAN Shengyu shook his head with a smile, and his eyes were misty. "Jiani, I believe you, and you have to believe me. We'll get through it..."
It will be!!
This family of three, do not know from which moment, no one can do without who!!
***
it never occurred to LAN Shengyu that he was really asked to wait for a call claiming that he was a doctor of cardiovascular sarcoma.
"Hello, Mr. LAN, my name is Niu. I accidentally saw your post on the Internet. I wanted to send you an email directly, but I think what I said on the phone might be clearer! I think I can help your wife... "
This is the first sentence that Dr. Niu said to LAN Shengyu when he received this miraculous call.***
"you said you Can you help us? " LAN Shengyu's big hand holding the mobile phone suddenly tightened and asked him at the other end of the phone in disbelief.
"Yes..." Dr. Niu seems to be very sure, "Mr. LAN, if you can, I hope you can ask your wife to stop chemotherapy right now. Just using this kind of medical method will only make your wife die in suffering. Believe me..."
LAN Shengyu was really surprised, "Dr. Niu, where are you now? If you can, I'll send a special car to pick you up! "
At the moment, LAN Shengyu was almost excited.
No matter whether this Dr. Niu on the phone is true or false, there is no doubt that it really gives him a new hope.
"Hello, I'm in Shanghai now. If I can, I'll fly there tomorrow. Mr. LAN, please give me your address!" Dr. Niu seems to be very kind.
"Well, I'll book your ticket. Thank you very much."
"No! It's OK. I can afford the air ticket. Mr. LAN, I'm just trying my best. To be honest, I've spent more than 20 years studying your wife's illness. So, this time, I want to have a try! " Dr. Niu made his purpose very clear.
Helping is only one aspect.
On the other hand, I want to study this case clinically.