Chapter 24 - Panic Attack 2

'Nice!!' Minwoo notices he sounded too enthusiastic and clears his throat. To be honest, he was worried when Wonho pushed his hand away just now, thinking the guy hates him. But the man seemed out of focus and scared it just made him want to calm Wonho down. Who would've thought he would be that scared just by getting lost?

They walk in silence. Wonho kept looking around restlessly until Minwoo finally spoke. He continues looking down since, only listening and nods when needed. Sometimes he also talks, but only to answer what was asked, nothing more.

Wonho seems uncomfortable and that makes Minwoo nervous. He usually never needs to start a conversation with strangers, nor had he try to hold one longer than required.

Among his old friends, they usually talk about omegas, and with the betas, about girls. Sometimes they also talk about cars and sports, but Wonho does not seem like he will be interested in that. Basketball, maybe, but Chansol said he only likes to play.

Owh yeah, books. He should talk about books.

'So urmm… do you have a girlfriend?' What the fuck? That is not what he wanted to ask. Minwoo swallows hard and peeks at the slightly shorter man. Wonho is also taken aback by the question.

'No. I mean. Boyfriend? Or whatever. I'm not judging. Omegas maybe. Omegas can get pregnant. There's nothing wrong with dating omegas. Or boys. Whichever. Okay.'

Minwoo licks his lips. He just made it worse. Why did he have to be such a chatterbox? Where did his cool go? Wonho's jaws are clenched and Minwoo really thinks he is over. It would an overdramatic thought but Wonho can be a jerk who hits people he hates. He does have that cold, emotionless gaze.

His heart almost dropped when the other suddenly replies, 'No. I don't like omegas, and I hate alphas.'

He hates alphas. Minwoo feels his shoulders drop. Hate is a really strong word. On the other hand, that can just be the way he talks. Or maybe he just has a very depressing personality. Minwoo doubts that though, seeing how happy he is with his pack.

On the bright side, as long as nobody tells the guy about him being an alpha, Wonho will never know about it, and he will still have a shot at this. And omegas… just thinking about them makes him lose his temper. 'Looks like we have something in common! I don't like them either.'

Wonho looks at him, eyes wide probably surprised by the answer. He is studying Minwoo and looks like he wants to ask something; but turns his gaze back to the front, much to the latter's disappointment. He almost sighs before he notices the other walking beside him.

Wonho had been behind Minwoo all this while and now, they are side by side.

There are still silence but Wonho now has his face upwards, looking in front of them instead of on the ground, giving Minwoo a good display of his side profile, making him thirsty all of a sudden.

'Do you always like to stare at people?' It is Wonho who breaks the silence, catching him off guard. Minwoo turns his head back to the front, feeling hot suddenly.

'I'm not good with words.' He hears a soft chuckle and looks back at the other. The man has a really nice half smirk, and it stayed there until their eyes lock with each other. 'Wonho-sshi are you-'

'Owh we're here! Thanks, Minwoo-sshi!' Wonho runs away from him, towards the main road. He waves at Minwoo, before disappearing completely less than a second later.

'-gay?' Minwoo sighs and waves back. He doubts the guy will get himself lost again in medical department, and he might not be able to meet him at the architectural class either. His only chance will only be the hiking trip, which he has yet to know the details of.

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Wonho runs back to his room as fast as his legs can carry and sits on his desk. What happened today should not happen again. No one should be able to see him in that pathetic state ever again. He needs be able to bring his meds wherever he goes.

He pulls out all his medications, trying to fit the bottles in his pockets. It makes his pockets bulge, Wonho hits the table in frustration. Placing his head on the surface, he bites his lips, too tightly it almost bleed.

'Wono-yah?' He jerks up when he hears the older omega's voice. Standing up to face the man, all the medicine falls out of his pocket and Wonho quickly gets down on the floor to collect them before the older sees how many he has. 'Can we talk?'

Honestly, he wants to be alone. After everything that happened today, his mind is already in a mess. Talking is definitely NOT what he wants to do right now. 'I don't feel like talking.'

'It's important.' Before Wonho can reply, Haneul had already close the door and sits on the bed, signaling him to do the same. Wonho holds his annoyed breath and leaned against his desk, wanting to put a distance between them. He does not want to be touched, just like he does not want to be near anyone right now. 'Okay then. We'll talk like this. Wonho, have you been taking suppressants?'

'No.'

'You don't give off scents outside the dorm. And I'm not the only one who noticed it, everyone else does too.' Wonho wants to argue about that but holds himself back. He wants the conversation to be over quickly because he has other things to concern himself with. 'You're not going to say anything? Any explanation?'

'I'm not taking it. And what I'm doing shouldn't bother anyone. I can hide my scent if I want to, and all the other omegas should just shut the fuck up.'

He is referring to his damned classmates who are spreading rumors about him, ostracizing him. They are probably the one who keeps talking about his lack of scents too, which is why Haneul knows it in the first place - because he never has to hide it when with the older.

Unfortunately, Haneul seems to think Wonho is asking him to mind his own business, judging from the brief tensed look he had a few moments before.

'Well, I'm only concerned about you. You said you haven't had your first heat and yet you're taking those pills. You'll damage your body if you keep on-'

'I'm not taking the damned pills!!! I told you that!'

'Scents just don't disappear, Wonho! And fine, even if you do have a prescription for it, you should not get more than a week's.' Haneul is accusing him of buying those stuff illegally. This is bullshit. He does not need this, today is already bad enough as it is.

Wonho clenches his fists and heads towards the door. He almost reached it before Haneul pulls him back, making him to sit on the bed. Wonho winces at the sudden force, pulling his wrist as soon as the man lets go of his hand.

'I'm sorry Wono-yah,' the man suddenly calls him with a gentle voice, completely opposite of his action just now, shuddering Wonho who is still shocked. 'You can't keep acting like this. You're not going to the therapist, you're not getting your check-ups, and you're taking suppressants. You're going down a dangerous path.'

'I did all of that. I spent half a year to heal. I'm fine!'

'Then tell me why you're not getting your heat yet.'

'None of your concern.' He replies coldly. All omegas are the same. Even Haneul. Always sticking out on people's business. What does his heat got to do with the older anyway? Is him getting his heat means that the other can get pregnant?

'Wono-yah. I'm not your enemy. I'm only concerned, as a friend. As a guardian. I know how scary it is to get your first heat. Even more for you since yours will be in the absence of your mate. But you need to let your body experience the first heat. I bet the doctors also told you the same thing. First heats are important for an omega.'

'I know.' It is impossible not to know. That is the first thing the doctor told him when he was at the hospital, and that is also what the police officers and lawyer talked about when they interviewed him, and that is what his therapist taught him during one of their sessions. Everyone is only concerned about his first heat, as if he could die if he doesn't experience it.

'And I'm not taking suppressants. Believe me or don't believe me, I don't care. My heat will come when it comes and if it doesn't then, lucky me. Can I leave now?' Wonho stares at Haneul, challenging him to try and hold him here. Fortunately for him, Haneul seems to already give up trying to talk to him. Grabbing the chance, he walks right out the door, not bothering to lock it.

'I'll be here when you're ready to talk.' He hears the man offer before turning the corner and exits the damned place.