Chapter 243

Holding the cigarette in his mouth, Lan Li took a subconscious puff, which reflected that the cigarette was not lit. He's kind of impulsive and wants to light it up.

Just now that short contact, only three or five minutes, everything is so familiar, as if Lan Li never left the general, 18 months in a flash disappeared, once again returned to the memory of those years of depression and confusion, forbearance and struggle.

"You're not a genius. You've never been."“ You are not stupid. At least you should know how to give up. "“ Dream? That's the illusion that losers and poor people believe

Those icy words are constantly echoing in my ears. From small to large, they are always cruel, always indifferent, always cruel. It seems that they never disappear. They are like algae wrapped around the ankles, like nightmares, like sharp swords hanging on the top of my head, which can never be waved away.

After searching the pants pocket and clothes pocket, no trace of lighter was found. After the panic reached the extreme, it precipitated. Close your eyes, take a deep breath, take a deep breath again.

Maybe he is not an acting genius; Perhaps, the dream will not come true after all; Perhaps, persistence is just stupid and meaningless resistance; Maybe Hollywood's Vanity Fair will swallow him up in a twinkling of an eye; Maybe the bright performances of "Pacific War" and "buried alive" are just the flash of fireworks; Perhaps, after all, people have to learn to compromise with life; Perhaps, the beauty of man's transformation of society only exists in Utopia. In real life, after all, society has changed man; Perhaps, no matter how many edges and corners, they will be smoothed out eventually; Perhaps, to give up as soon as possible is kindness to oneself; Maybe, maybe... Maybe it's all facts, iron facts.

But he didn't regret it.

Looking back at his footprints, he faltered and bled, but he was happy and satisfied as never before. He spent ten years regretting, a lifetime hesitating and a lifetime groping. This time, he will not hesitate or hesitate again.

Even if the end is the abyss, he will not give up.

He's not chujiashu anymore. Open your eyes again, take the cigarette off your mouth, the turbulent and boiling thoughts in your mind settle down again, and become clear bit by bit. The long lost peace and touch come back again.

Looking at the strange and familiar scenes in the streets of London, he gradually began to appreciate the city.

Rethinking the scene again, Langley finds that his thinking has deviated a little, or his foothold has deviated. The key point is not the fatigue accumulated by applying for a visa, nor the speculation about the relationship between Jacob and Sam, Anna and Simon, but the shaking of faith.

Jacob and Anna both know clearly that there is a problem between them, but they don't know where the problem is, so naturally they don't know how to solve it. Their inner irritability takes the upper hand, and they begin to constantly accuse each other of the visa problem, the cheating of the other party, the fatigue of life, and the lack of understanding for themselves, even like Anna, Accusing Jacob of speaking too loud

Are these the root of the problem? Maybe they are, maybe they are not.

This kind of predicament and loss has shaken their faith.

Once upon a time, they firmly believed that love could overcome everything, distance could not separate them, and the obstacles of life would eventually be broken. Even if they climbed mountains and mountains, even if they were thousands of obstacles, they could finally get together; But now, they begin to question their original belief: can they go to the end?

It's like a placebo in medicine. The doctor tells the patient that it's a special medicine, and it's very hopeful that it can cure the disease, so the patient's condition is really improved, and even the cancer is cured - although the probability is extremely small, it really happened. People call it the power of faith.

However, when this "belief" collapses, the whole world established before will fall apart and disappear.

Jacob and Anna still love each other deeply, but their belief that they can overcome everything no longer exists. They try to find out the problem and long to accompany each other to the end, but it turns into mutual accusation, especially the kind of irritability and anger, boredom and confusion, which magnifies every emotional detail to the extreme, It's even starting to get ugly.

They are all working hard, but they all feel frustrated; They are all angry, but they all feel helpless.

This reminds Lan Li of the mood of watching "crazy love": they love each other so much, but they have to choose to break up.

Looking up again, there was no ALF or Matthew at the end of the street. If his faith is shaken, where will his life go?

Taking back his sight, Lan Li went back upstairs and opened the door of the room. Everyone was still crowded in the spacious hall and stuck to their posts. No one relaxed or slacked down. Lan Li nodded to everyone and apologized, "sorry for the delay. I'm ready to shoot now. "

Drake, however, pulls lanli and shakes his head. Lanli doesn't know why. So he throws a puzzled look. Drake points to his hoarse voice. After taking the risk to speak just now, he is almost speechless. He points to the position of the kitchen, shakes his head, stares round his eyes and tries to explain something to lanli.

But lanli was at a loss.

Assistant director Brian Stannis, who was standing beside him, had to step forward and explain in a low voice, "felicity is not in good shape, very bad. She sat there without saying a word and hasn't moved since you left. Just now Drake tried to communicate with her, but she dropped her glass on the ground

Langley can imagine everyone's shock, because felicity is usually a friendly and gentle character. Suddenly, she can't restrain her irritability, which may frighten everyone to death.

However, lanli also understood felicity's feelings, as if trapped in a transparent cocoon, can clearly see everything outside, but no matter how hard he struggled, he could not break through. The brain is completely in a mess, unable to sort out the ideas, forced to perform, the result is just more and more confusion, completely lost rhythm and touch, this feeling is really bad.

But even if Langley wanted to help felicity, there was nothing he could do.

Performance is a very personal thing, others can teach methods, know-how, but ultimately depends on the performer's own understanding and digestion, and then reinterpret it. The same role, or even the same emotion, different actors feel different at different times - that's the charm of stage drama. A "Hamlet" has been seen for half a century, but people still enjoy it. That's why.

What's more, lanli is still in the exploratory stage on the road of performance, far from reaching the height of guiding others.

Felicity needs to come out on her own.

Langley silent down to think, maybe he can't direct guidance, but can give some guidance, his own understanding of the play to felicity. But the problem is that felicity is in a state of irritability and confusion, and she has no way to calm down and think. Dialogue doesn't solve the problem. So, they're back to the origin.

"..." Drake raised his chin, pointed to the direction of the kitchen and gave lanli a look. This time, lanli understood. Drake hoped lanli would do something to solve the problem.

However, Lan Li shrugged his shoulders to show that he could do nothing.

Drake rolled his eyes, pointed to his watch and then to the camera. It was funny, like an acrobat in a circus.

Langley understood that Drake was saying that when he performed before, he was able to play a guiding role and bring out the best state of the actors in the opponent's play. So was felicity and so was Jennifer. But lanli is not a magician. He can't make something out of nothing. When felicity is in a state, he can guide; Now felicity is not at all in shape, and he has nothing to do.

"What about that?" Drake's eyes widened and said hoarsely. There was almost no sound, as if a ball of steel wire was stuck in his throat, which made Langley laugh. When he saw the smile on the corner of lanli's mouth, Drake was angry and angry. He wanted to get angry, but he immediately imagined that this state was too funny, so he couldn't help laughing.

The problem is, Drake can't even laugh. Only with a smile, he began to cough, and then his throat hurt sharply as if it had been exploded by gunpowder. He had to quickly pick up the water cup next to him and fill it with water. That's funny.

The atmosphere of the film set immediately became joyful.

In fact, the crew is under great pressure, not only because the play is very important, but also because the state of Langley and felicity is both in a bottleneck, and because Drake borrowed the house from his friends. Tomorrow is the last day. After that, he can't even pay for it, but the problem is that, Tomorrow, they still have two scenes of Anna and Simon that are not finished. Time is getting more and more urgent, but they are stuck here now.

But at this moment, we still laugh, temporarily put down the inner worry and pressure. Lan Li looked around and looked around at everyone's happy expression. An idea came out of his mind.

Maybe music can be a bridge between felicity and Anna. Now felicity's brain is in a mess, unable to think at all, and her way of communication is blocked; What about music? The language and metaphor of Yuefu can always be a powerful tool to break barriers and establish a connection between reason and emotion.

I'm not sure it works, but at least try to see.

"Can you find a keyboard at your friend's house?" Lenley looked at Drake, and then saw a blank expression on his face. He chuckled. "If you want to get into the shooting quickly, find a keyboard."