Chapter 244

Drake began to search in the house. At last, they actually found a keyboard in the storeroom, which was stored in a dusty black leather case. The thick dust seemed to have not touched for many years. But when opening the leather cover, it could see that the keyboard was wrapped carefully with foam paper, and it was still as clean as new. As if time has been blocked outside the leather case, did not touch the keyboard inside.

They didn't know the story behind the keyboard, but Lan Li couldn't help thinking, was there ever a dream sealed in this leather case, or was there ever a firm belief abandoned at the end of the bumpy

Sitting in front of the keyboard, looking at the bright black and white keys, you can even reflect his face, and the mixed thoughts are surging gently in my mind.

Man is really a strange animal, isn't he? We used to believe something firmly, and then overthrow it by ourselves and rebuild our faith. But then we found that it was still wrong. So we overthrow it again and rebuild it again. Gradually, we become what we don't know, or what we used to hate.

We can't help comforting ourselves that this is growth.

But the innocence of childhood and the persistence of youth can no longer be found. Once, we believed in the dream, freedom and future; Once upon a time, we believed that our hands could change the world; Once, we thought we were the center of the world; Once upon a time, we were pure and true, as if we could not contain any impurities... Eventually, all of these things were annihilated in the occasion of years, and then grew into a mediocre member in the turbulent crowd of society. All the edges and corners disappeared, and thousands of people were at the same time.

Is this growth or death?

Hands fell on the keyboard, the clear keyboard sound poured down like the moonlight, the light music spread slowly in the lazy atmosphere in the afternoon, suddenly looked out of the window, and then found that the sky did not know when it was covered by dark clouds again, and the whole world fell into a twilight gray.

"In the night you announce the end of everything, but you are just lost in the dark."

The mellow and vicissitudes of sound curls up in the melody like smoke, hiding the fragility and confusion, just like the crystal tears hanging on the eyelashes, blurring the line of sight, but never falling. The loss makes the eyes lose focus, and makes every effort to look around. The whole world falls into a dense light spot, gorgeous and colorful, But I can't find my goal, and the empty feeling in my heart begins to fall slowly.

"Presuppose all your emotions, hoping to bring comfort; I don't want to continue to climb the barriers, I don't want to continue to break through the barriers. I don't know if I still believe, I don't know if I still believe, I don't know if I still believe, what you said to me

Felicity only felt her chest stuffy, as if she had been hit by a heavy fist. Suddenly, tears of despair filled her eyes and burned her cheek. She opened her mouth wide, but could not make a sound. She just stood still, as if she could see her world falling apart with her own eyes.

They are themselves. They have built barriers between each other. They have pushed each other out of their lives. They have wrapped themselves up again. They have given up communication, dialogue and trust. As a result, the hot and boiling heart has gradually cooled down.

She didn't know whether she still believed that they could go on to the end; He did not know whether he still believed that their efforts were the right decision; She did not know whether she still believed that their love could overcome everything; He didn't know if he still believed that they still loved each other.

She doesn't know, and he doesn't either. Faith and belief have collapsed, but they still don't know.

The fact pinched her neck so hard that she could hardly breathe. Tears whirled in the eyes, but could not fall. What is more terrible than despair is their numbness. So they can't go back after all, can they?

"I have a strange feeling that your words are not sincere. I'm tired of misunderstanding each other. Is there any other explanation? I don't know if I still believe, I don't know if I still believe, I don't know if I still believe what you said to me. "

Felicity covered her mouth for fear of making a sound. What the hell are they doing?

She was accusing him of stealing, but what was she doing? She's accusing him of yelling, but didn't she start the war? She was complaining that he didn't want to live in London, but wasn't he trying his best? She's complaining that they're drifting apart, but didn't she make the first mistake herself?

She doesn't want to be like this. She really doesn't want to. Those words are not true. Those accusations, those anger, those complaints, those exhaustion, are not true. She just... She just... She just doesn't know if she should continue to believe it.

"Then open my eyes and tell yourself that I'm deceiving myself. We can't go on if I have to guess what's going on in your mind."

Felicity opened her mouth and tried to say something, but found that all the words were stuck in her throat, her brain was blank, and she could not say a word. She wanted to tell him that she still loved him deeply, that she still dreamed of their life, that they could overcome all difficulties, and that their happiness was each other, She still firmly believes, she still believes

However, the words were so stuck in the throat, Leng in place, a little voice can not be issued, she can only shake her head, shake her head in denial.

"Say something, say something, even a 'I love you'; Unless you want to turn away, don't leave this annoying noise

In the passionate and surging melody, the cry of sadness and pain completely defeated all the defense lines of felicity, holding her head in both hands, and crying out silently“ I love you, I love you, I love you... "She really likes to love him, but she pushes him farther and farther. After the pain reaches the extreme, she can hardly breathe.

She is like skydiving in the night sky, slowly falling, constantly falling, gravity crazy pull her down, the free fall of the sprint so that the whole body launched an alarm, but she was indifferent, just let her continue to fall, that is about to powder the possibility of broken bones, fragile and desperate, actually brought a trace of pleasure.

And then she landed.

"I don't know if I still believe, I don't know if I still believe, I don't even know if I want to believe what you said to me."

"I don't even know whether I want to believe it or not", the query of the extreme sadness pulled her into the bottom of the ocean. The huge impact of free fall made her quickly surrounded by the cold water. The cold and piercing darkness bit by bit devoured her flesh and blood, and even her soul began to feel the heartbreaking sadness.

How did they get there? If time comes back, will things be different? Is it meaningless to persist? Why are they arguing and why are they insisting?

She opened her eyes again. In a trance, she became Anna, looking at Jacob's lonely back, unable to adapt; She became felicity again, looking at Langley's attentive side face, sad from the heart; She became Anna, listening to the melody under blue Li's fingertips; She became felicity again, listening to Jacob's sigh and sobbing.

"Then open my eyes and tell yourself that I'm deceiving myself. We can't go on if I have to guess what's going on in your mind."

The golden musical charm is dancing in the air, sad but gentle, painful but helpless, desperate but at a loss. The faint emotion firmly grasps everyone's heart, ferments, dense and curls in the mellow and hoarse voice. The questioning is more like asking yourself, and the bitter and lost taste slowly faints on the tip of the tongue, The passionate and cheerful melody seems to be the march of carnival, reflecting the loneliness and loneliness everywhere, dragging the ankle to start falling and falling.

Before the brain realizes it, tears break through the defense line of the eyes and fall down in a mess.

They understood, everyone understood. This is the story of Jacob and Anna, but also the story of every two people who really love each other but work hard to separate. Even if we love each other, we may not be able to reach the end.

No one can be an exception. It's like being surrounded by the melody and savoring every emotion in the song. It's like a minstrel who has gone through many vicissitudes. He sees through the world, the world and the life, but with a trace of indifference in his sighing. He doesn't roar, cry, and cry. He just sings out his helplessness and sadness, But it's easy to penetrate the defense line and defeat everyone's softness.

Drake has completely collapsed, standing in the same place, drooping shoulders, like a lost child, helplessly wailing, how can not stop. He knew that they had missed, after all, the woman he had loved all his life and would continue to love.

The melody stopped, everyone put aside their cheeks and wiped their tears in embarrassment. The sound of blowing their nose came to mind, which disturbed the silence of the room, but more and more let the helpless sadness outline out. Before the tears could be wiped clean, the eyes blurred again.

Note: believe Mumford sons