Chapter 467

The whole person leans on the back of the chair, looks up at the cold moonlight and the starry sky, even through the window, you can hear the wind whirring and hunting in the rich night. Langley knew that he was in a terrible state, even worse than when he was filming "buried alive.".

The scene was interrupted before it was finished. This means that we need to continue shooting, or even re shooting. The rhythm of Xingyunliushui's performance has been interrupted. When shooting again, it is necessary to adjust the state and re-enter the role. This is not easy for the actors. It's like self torture. It's not enough to do it all over again. It's like doing it all over again.

But this is not a problem for lanli now. He is now fully engaged in the performance. Even if the rhythm is interrupted, he can easily re engage. The details and framework of the performance are vividly displayed in his mind.

The understanding and control of performance is changing little by little.

The real serious problem is that his physical condition and mental state are not optimistic.

From the appearance, he is just a little tired now, not too much different. But in fact, he is suffering and suffering.

His whole back was wet through, and his cold sweat came out in layers. Before that, he had dried it once, but it was wet through again; All his strength was exhausted, even a finger could not move, and every muscle seemed to be crushed by the roller; His temple was twitching, and the tough and sensitive nerve gently pulled down along the whole ridge column, pulling every nerve in his body, and the extreme pain could not even shout.

When shooting "buried alive", he almost thought that he was going to die again. That kind of personal horror made people fall apart. But it was someone else's experience, even though the boundaries between reality and illusion had been completely confused, even though the differences between Paul Conroy and Langley hall had been completely blurred, That is also the experience that Lan Li and Chu Jiashu have never really experienced.

This shooting of "anti-cancer me" is actually a real re journey of his own experience, from the suffering of illness to the fear of death, from the coming of darkness to the suffering of suffering, and finally to the other side of the light and rebirth, just like the movie "tomorrow's edge" and "source code". He must experience his own death again and again, and die again and again, Once again, pain again, again.

Every time I watched myself go to the end of death, but I was helpless. He can't help himself or ask for help. He can only repeat his own death.

Spiritual torment is like dropping water wears away a stone. Every time it is so real, so real and so delicate, it is extremely cruel to split the experience of death into countless details, just like dividing the "pain" into pieces, tasting it bit by bit until the soul is completely dissipated.

What is more terrible is that what he experienced was not only the death of chujiashu, but also the death of Adam. The torment of paralysis, the impact of cancer, so long and so fierce, as if never see the end, can only float in the endless sea of suffering.

He can't say "buried alive" or "anti-cancer me", which one is more difficult to shoot, but there is no doubt that the pain and suffering brought by "anti-cancer me" is so real that people can't escape. Even if it is out of illusion, even if it is out of the movie, even if it is over, in real life, the part of Chu Jiashu's soul still suffers from torture.

This is the cruelest place for illness and death.

The release of the scene just now, lanli has completely blurred the outline of the performance. Chu Jiashu in the last life, Adam in the film, will in life and himself in reality are all confused. It is no longer a performance, but a real cry from the soul——

After experiencing the ups and downs of emotion, from depression to release, from anger to despair, from unwilling to pain, from sadness to nothingness, from struggle to helplessness, until the final acceptance, the waves after the surrender are calm, with a trace of bitterness, self mockery, banter, ridicule, just like ripples, which is more intense than roller coaster and free landing.

Now he is almost exhausted.

His eyes were hot and painful. He tried to close his eyes and have a rest, but he found that the corners of his eyes were dry and cracked, and the pain was severe. The hot temperature was always baking the eyes, and the sour nose made the tears start to flow up, but before there was time to form water mist, it had evaporated and disappeared, and the whole eyes were very dry.

I can't even cry.

He dropped his eyelids and laughed, but found that just this tiny eye movement, the sharp pain through the temple, stimulated the brain, from the epidermis to the deep layer, just like drilling holes in the ground, suddenly the pain spread to every corner of his limbs, he had to clench his teeth, Bear unspeakable pain, but no sound.

Gently spit out a breath, hot lungs like needles in general, the air coming up with a smell of blood, full mouth diffuse. He felt that he was like a paralyzed patient suffering from cancer. The sickle of the God of earth had been clamped around his neck; But he still gritted his teeth and refused to give up.

Is this in vain?

The moonlight and starlight in the sight cast a thin halo, and the whole world became hazy. The hot eyes and dry lips seemed as if there was a fire burning in the belly. The fuel was his blood, spirit and soul. When the fire went out, it was the end of his life.

The corners of his mouth gently pulled, showing a ridiculous smile.

Lanli knows that it's an illusion. He's just acting. Chu Jiashu is transformed and reborn into lanli hall. Will in his life successfully goes through the operation, and Adam in the script is reborn through the operation. This is not the end of his life. However, at this moment, in this play, his mentality is maintained in such a wonderful and sad position.

It's amazing to perform, isn't it?

In the final analysis, whether they are methodological or experiential, they all set up resonance between actors and characters, awaken their own emotions, bring those emotions into the characters, and then burst out the power of the plot.

Although the Methodists are more opportunistic, it is still not easy for them to reach the peak——

For example, in Brokeback Mountain, even if Heath Ledger takes Jack Gyllenhaal as the opposite sex and falls in love, he has to convince himself that Jack is a "opposite sex" and convince the audience. This is his ability and the embodiment of the methodology polished to a certain extent. Later, when heath speculated about the clown role of "Batman: The Dark Knight", he broke the barrier of methodology and really forced himself to the end with the way of experientialism.

As for the experiential school, it's too risky. It's like performing with life“ It may be better or worse if the performance of "buried alive" is put into the performance for the second time, but it is certain that it will never be the same as the present finished product. Because the performance of experiential school is just a flash of youth. In a specific node, it bursts out the most real memory in the soul, completely confusing the boundaries between performance and reality, and also confusing the differences between roles and individuals.

This is not replicable.

That's why Hollywood encourages more Methodists. If every actor uses the experiential school, after reaching the extreme, he can no longer perform for a long time, or even get involved in the play too deeply, unable to extricate himself, leading to a series of irreparable consequences, it would be unthinkable.

Russia still encourages the performance style of experiential school, which is really thought-provoking. This is also the reason why Russian films always have a rough and savage temperament, just like their literary works.

But for lanli, he doesn't mind the method school or the experience school, because no matter which method is, it is a new experience and exploration for him, opening a new world for him, re understanding performance and re learning performance.

He tried to calm down and think about how the play was performed just now, the details of the difference between the thinking method school and the experience school, his own emotional input and performance output, the context of the performance, and the experience after the release... But before his thoughts had time to surge, his brain began to ache.

After a while, the pain began to spread, just like tens of thousands of embroidery needles were punctured at the same time. The piercing pain made his muscles tense. But now he was exhausted, and he could not even grip his fingers. He had lost the sense of his fingers and was not sure whether he could control them. His muscles were so numb and stiff, It seemed to be completely unconscious, but the pain didn't abate at all, wave after wave, just like a wave.

Then the temple began to ache again, and the nerve of the rope was pulled to the extreme, just like the main control rope of the puppet. When you pull it up, the whole body will stand upright, and you can feel the strong sense of involvement in every corner, and then you will lose control of the body completely.

The cold sweat seeps out again. Even if you are sitting in the car and don't open the window, you can't feel the cold wind, but the shiver still comes one after another. Lanli couldn't tell whether it was a side effect after chemotherapy, a weakness caused by cancer, or a chain drop after paralysis, or... His own illusion.

So he sat quietly in the driver's seat, slightly lowered his eyes, but his body was suffering from the tearing and torture of the waves. Pain to the extreme, so that he began to enjoy up, the corner of the mouth radian, gently up. Bitter but sweet.