Chapter 1114

Ryan stone closed his eyes carefully. The warm fundus of his eyes made his eyelids tremble gently. He had no eyes at all, but still revealed a trace of palpitation in his heart; Listening attentively, the movement of the body is so still in place, unconsciously swinging, little by little capturing the sound fragments from the wireless telex.

The smile on the corner of the mouth is so happy and so bright, but the heartbreaking pain and despair are gently surging between the eyebrows, just like the gentle waves washing the white beach on the blue coast, which is breathtaking, but after a moment of bloom, the sadness and loss will linger on, dragging for a long time.

Ryan relaxed the strength of his hands, shoulders, waist and thighs bit by bit. In the weightless environment, he swayed gently like water plants. His face with his eyes closed showed a trace of peace and peace, like a baby lying in the cradle and gradually falling asleep. The light sadness and shallow pain gradually disappeared.

Like ripples, it seems to have disappeared, but the lingering charm is spreading.

Re open your eyes, the expression has been completely calm, even the corner of the mouth smile are calming down, seems to be completely flat down, "peace just, let your dog call a few more, OK?" Ryan said softly, as if enjoying a lullaby. Worried that Anning just didn't understand what he meant, he continued to explain, "dog, barking, barking, dog."

Then, he heard Anning just learning wolf's cry, cheering happily.

All of a sudden, the smile and sadness rush up at the same time, the corner of the mouth rises again, the eyes are closed again, and the complex emotions are all locked in the chest, but the struggle of forbearance and repression makes the situation at this moment full of words.

"Woof, woof."

"Ouch."

Ryan learns to bark like a dog, while anninggang learns to bark like a wolf.

The different cultures and languages of the two countries are reflected in the onomatopoeia of animal shouting, which perfectly combines the absurdity and crisis of this moment. Finally, all the weight falls on Ryan's strong shoulder, which is about to fall apart but refuses to completely collapse. It's unbearable.

Ryan also realized this, so he followed Anning. He just started to imitate the wolf howling, the dog howling, the wolf howling, completely confused. But the two people were in harmony, and they really began to shout to each other, just like naughty children rushing to play.

"Ouch! Ouch

Ryan released all his emotions to his heart's content, leaving behind his reserve, bondage and mask. He regained his childishness and howled wildly, as if he had completely released all the negative emotions in his chest. At this moment, he tasted his reluctance and anger again.

However, the more angry he was, the more powerless he was, the more unwilling he was, the more hopeless he was. At last, he turned into a thick sadness and hit his nose hard. A burst of pain broke out in an instant. Ryan only had time to close his eyes tightly, but a touch of moisture still blurred his eyes, and the corner of his closed eyelids glittered with tears.

He clenched his teeth like this, and his voice was thumping around in his chest. Choking and crying were all suppressed in the depth of his throat, and no sound was leaked out. However, the sliding Adam's apple and the tight jaw could not be concealed at all, which revealed the collapse and tsunami in his soul.

"Ouch... Ouch..."

He tried to make a little voice again, pretending that he didn't care, but he failed, leaving only a fuzzy syllable rolling in his throat intermittently, unable to vent, unable to vent, so his hands clenched into fists, tightly clenched up, and his whole body was tight to the extreme.

If he can, he just wants to punch hard and smash at anything; But he can't.

Finally, the emotion broke through the bank. "Ouch... No, no, no, no, no..." Ryan shook his head gently and made a meaningless murmur. He took a deep breath and took a deep breath again. It seemed that in an instant, the control force came back again. The emotion gathered up again. Then he gave a smile and showed a happy smile, He said quietly, "I'm going to die. I'm just in peace."

The calm, reflecting the loss and sadness of the bottom of the eye, became more and more rich. There was no misty tears, no collapse of emotion, but the bitterness of the bottom of the heart was vividly outlined.

He shrugged gently, but in the heavy spacesuit, it was invisible, only the subtle changes of his body could be seen faintly. "I know that everyone will die, everyone knows, but... I'm going to die today." There is no ending sound or breath sound. After that, he just stays in the same place. He seems to be understanding the real meaning of "death".

This short silence, however, interprets a simple sentence with too many meanings. It seems that everyone can have a different understanding. So is life, so is death.

"It's funny." Ryan chuckled again and said, "you know, when you know..." again, his eyes were distracted. It seemed that the brain began to slow down, but even so, the words that didn't complete clearly conveyed the meaning.

It's one thing to know that death will come; Knowing the exact time of death is another matter; It's another thing to know that the date of death is today.

The vast expanse of blankness and blankness is just bitter.

And then the focus of my eyes came back to me again, "the problem is, I'm very, very scared." His voice gradually became weak, and almost became a whisper. His strength, his calmness, his profession, his reason, all collapsed at this moment. He untied his mask and skin bag, and showed his true self.

A "very, very afraid", low voice began to tremble slightly, fragile and flustered.

"No one will mourn me, no one will pray for me." Ryan said quietly, hearing the sound of Anning just humming a lullaby, as if he was taking care of the baby to sleep, quiet and gentle.

The sadness in the bottom of the eye condensed little by little, turned into a drop of crystal clear tears, hanging on the eyelashes, more and more, more and more heavy. Finally, the eyelashes still failed to bear the weight, so they fell down, one by one, clear and distinct.

However, his expression didn't change much. He just looked at the front calmly, revealing a deep sense of loss and powerlessness, which was in sharp contrast with the condensation of tears. It was as if... The soul had died, but the body was still reacting. The feeling of empty shell of walking corpse burst out the despair of sadness and pain to the extreme.

From a medical point of view, after the declaration of physical death, the physiological reaction will not stop immediately. The most intuitive example is that the nails and hair will continue to grow, as if the soul has dissipated, but the body still exists.

That's what Ryan is now. That kind of sadness, multiplied by times surging, will completely break the strong shell, exposing the softest part of the heart.

After a slight pause, my eyes moved up slightly, as if watching the radio. Then I could travel through time and space, face-to-face communicate with Anning Gang, and asked attentively and seriously, "will you mourn for me? Will you pray for me? Or is it too late? It's like I missed my family... I lost them. "

A simple "lost", without any weight of words, reveals a deep sigh and sadness in the calm tone. There is no redundant explanation, and there is no need for redundant explanation. The whole story has become complete, showing the deep regret and regret.

"I want to pray for myself, but I have never prayed, because..." Ryan's words stopped for a moment again, and a light smile seemed to wake up the memory, "because no one has ever taught me." The loneliness and desolation hidden behind the words permeate out bit by bit“ Never

"Maddy?" Anning Gang's call came faintly and vaguely, and then a burst of baby crying came. Anning just immediately began to sing a lullaby to pacify the awakened baby in his sleep.

Ryan's expression suddenly froze, almost in an instant, the shock and amazement at the bottom of his eyes slowly overflowed, and then turned into hopeless sadness. He clenched his teeth like this, tears fell down, without warning, helpless, almost crying out of control.

There was no sound, just to see the tears one by one to fall down, the slightly trembling corners of the mouth will be suppressed emotions completely burst out. He tried to open his mouth to make a sound, but his lips only had time to wriggle. Then he pressed tightly again and swallowed all the choking and crying.

Even if the mouth is bitter, even if the mouth is bloody, even if the mouth is sour.

Baby, a newborn baby, is the most primitive and beautiful form of life. It is vigorous, vivid and vigorous. It has a powerful force to break all barriers. It makes people yearn for it, but it also makes people fear it.

In his mind, he could not help thinking of his younger brother's birth. He thought of his younger brother, his newborn child, and his family whose face was gradually blurred.

He tried to stay away from those fetters and yearn for a higher level of life and hope, but he didn't know that his pursuit was always around him, and the most mysterious and greatest secret of the universe was around him. Finally, he went to death step by step, gradually away from the original vitality.

The world he believed in, the world he fought for and the world he owned collapsed at this moment, as if we could clearly see the whole process of the destruction of the universe. It's like the big bang.