Chapter 1115

Before he realized it and made a rational judgment, Alfonso Caron had tears in his eyes. The surging tears completely blurred his vision, leaving only a blank and dismay, and the shock emotion rippled in the water halo.

He knows, and now he really knows, the relationship between Ryan and his younger brother, the alienation between Ryan and his family, the dependence between Ryan and his dream, the regret between Ryan and his younger brother and children... From getting rid of social attributes to returning to social attributes, from being above life to returning to the origin of life, on the road of pursuing truth, After circling a big circle, we finally return to the origin again.

It's like... It's like a mortal transformed into a superman, with the divine power of God, dominating and creating life; But after re understanding, he realized again that the existence of supernatural power itself is also derived from life, so he completed the second transformation again, and went back to the starting point of mortal again, to see a completely new world.

Survival and death, rebirth and destruction, life and nature, mortals and gods, reason and emotion.

All of them are both the starting point and the ending point. They are connected from the beginning to the end, and complete a circle. After turning around, they still trace back to the origin. It seems that they are still the starting point, but the whole world has changed a lot. The mountain is still the mountain, but it is no longer the mountain; Water is still water, but it is no longer that piece of water.

It's complicated, it's profound, it's philosophical, it's tongue twister; But at the same time, it's very simple, it's also very straightforward, it's also very profound, it's also very clear, everything is rooted in the soul, never disappeared, never changed, just waiting for human exploration and pursuit.

Some people do not realize its existence all their life; Some people, tireless pursuit, but ultimately still can not reach the end; There are also people who have completed the sublimation and transformation in an instant and opened a new door to the world.

Just at this moment, Ryan understood; And just at this moment, Alfonso really saw the real power——

It's not a performance, not an interpretation, not a deduction, but a real force. The baptism of the soul is like a torrential rain, and it's pouring down. The whole person can't help shivering. It's excitement, fear, and worship.

At this moment, Alfonso really understood how huge, cumbersome and difficult lanli's work was. He could easily control the atmosphere of the whole scene, not to mention other actors or audiences. Even the director couldn't help but immerse himself in it.

God. Oh, my God.

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Ryan's whole body's movement was so rigid, and his expression was frozen in an instant. There was no change at all, but he tried his best to suppress and control the tears. One by one, the crystal clear water droplets quietly blurred the dark brown eyes, which was heartbreaking.

He just did not move, for fear that if he moved a little, he would fall apart completely.

"You're holding a baby, aren't you?" Ryan asked in a soft voice. Immersed in the baby's cry, joy overflowed from the bottom of his eyes. Not a smile, but joy and happiness, quietly flowing with a touch of spring, like hot spring water in general, gurgling rolling, dense heat, let people melt bit by bit.

This is not the familiar Ryan stone. It's not the cold and unsmiling Ryan, it's not the one who still tries to save his teammates when his life is in danger, it's not the one who knows nothing about his professional knowledge and lives like an idiot. The tenderness and warmth of his eyes seem to be slowly melting this iceberg.

"Are you singing a lullaby?" Ryan said again that he didn't get a response, but he didn't care. Instead, he unconsciously hummed in a low voice. The fragmented notes couldn't be put together at all. He just choked in his throat and rolled slowly“ That's so sweet. " He said softly.

Unconsciously, the smile rose again, "you know what? I used to sing lullabys to my brother Ryan's voice was slowly sinking, revealing a bit of hoarseness, and a tear was pouring out of his eyes again. "But... We haven't talked for a long time." Then, Ryan gently tilted his head and said, "it's not his fault, he's been working hard..."

The epilogue slowly lengthened, without the following, but the sadness and sob at the bottom of the eye really couldn't be understood again. You can still taste the bitterness of regret, which stabbed your heart and went deep into the bone marrow.

Ryan didn't make any more noise. He just listened quietly. The whining cry, the low lullaby, the melodious tune, the light and gentle, the strange tune, the strange language, had no influence at all. He just softened the tight and sharp facial lines gradually, all the sharpness and all the precautions were taken off, Return to the original appearance of red fruit.

"You say, can I see him again?" Ryan whispered, and the vague words collided between his lips and teeth. Before he had time to finish, he had already disappeared.

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Looking at the dark brown eyes quietly, she was calm and calm. It seemed that there was no waves, but she was immersed in deep thinking. However, Lu Ni read delicate changes between her eyebrows, such as sadness and despair, bitterness and pain, struggle and torture. All the miscellaneous and tedious things were slowly dissipating, returning to a calm state of no joy and no sorrow.

Then she knew that he had decided to give up. Give up the hope of survival, give up the possibility of resistance, give up the efforts of struggle, so calmly accept their own destiny, open arms, embrace death. She knew that he was ready to die, just like the moment Alex released the clasp.

However, Alex is a critical moment of choice, it seems that it is just an action of instinct. The hope is cut off between lightning and flint, and the intense pain is just a flash. Even because of the adrenaline burst in the critical moment, he becomes slow and stops. He has no time to experience it, and it is over.

And Ryan is a very long process. After struggling repeatedly for a long time, he escaped from Shengtian and suddenly fell into the ice cave in the moment of hope; Then he suffered, bit by bit, to cut off all the ropes of hope, and bit by bit to break his inner defense, all the fragility will be broken.

It's not only painful, it's long, and it's so cruel that it's almost impossible to keep watching.

But Rooney still opened her eyes, savoring the suffering and torment of this moment, feeling the performance of this moment, deep and magnificent, so that every audience can feel it.

There was the sound of wiping tears silently, and the sound of choking. The depression and pain were magnified to the extreme at this moment, which was unbearable.

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Ryan breathed out a breath gently. If the curve of the corner of his mouth seemed to rise, and then there was no unnecessary pause and preparation, he moved again and began to turn off the lighting, power, and finally... Oxygen.

The whole movement was completed at one go. It just stopped for a moment before turning off the oxygen, but there was not too much struggle. Then the movement was completed, stable and gentle, as if it was a simple and normal move.

However, the beep beep beep alarm was extremely harsh, constantly reminding that the oxygen content began to decline, but he was extremely calm. He took off the mask close to his head, rubbed a messy short hair randomly, and lay down slowly.

Amid the chaos, the lullaby in the radio is still humming. The sharp contrast between extreme panic and extreme calm has set off a storm in the hearts of every audience. Ryan is the only exception.

Ryan put his hands on his chest, lay down peacefully, and slowly closed his eyes. The tight lines of his mouth and face relaxed completely. He whispered, "it's nice. It's peaceful. Don't stop. Keep singing." Gently exhale a breath, as if the end of a busy day's work, need a long sleep in general, "accompany me to sleep, I will immediately fall asleep."

"Don't stop, go on, go on..." the fatigue and tension between the eyebrows slowly spread out like the tide, experienced the ups and downs of self salvation, experienced the extremely dangerous stimulation of crisis, experienced the twists and turns of despair, hope and despair. Now, the whole person is completely relaxed, and can obviously feel the predicament on that face.

The voice calmed down little by little, leaving only the vague syllables whispering and colliding between lips and teeth; The mood between the eyebrows also all dissipated and disintegrated, and entered into a complete calm. That kind of serenity is falling asleep, as if the whole world is quiet and everything is quiet.

This is not giving up, but the dissipation of life; This is not compromise, but the silence of life; It's not peace, it's the gloom of life.

He is tired, he is tired after all, struggling for so long, running for so long, fighting for so long, he can finally unload the burden and have a good rest. He needs sleep, real deep sleep. He doesn't want to fight any more. He's tired and tired. He just needs a moment of peace.

That calm, it seems that you can clearly see the fatigue and tiredness is slowly dissipating on the surface of the body, at the same time, there is the fading bright light, it seems that you can see the flame of life is slowly extinguished. This is the most appropriate word.

All the sounds in the mind have disappeared, all the noises above the ears have calmed down, and the world has completely calmed down, leaving only himself, like a newborn baby, born and dying alone. To start alone, to end free.

Suddenly, there was a gentle knock on the door in the silence, bang, Bang

He slowly opened his eyes, opened a gap, light penetrated into the eyes, hazy, he saw... Heather cross.