Chapter 2212

No matter how difficult it is, no matter how terrible it is, no matter how bad it is, Matthew will never leave his position. He is always the most determined group of Langley; And he firmly believes that besides him, there are Rooney, Andre, Eaton and Edith.

Matthew, believe it.

"Langley, you know." Matthew's simple and clear tone, with unquestionable firmness, "deep inside, you know this is Edith's decision, you and Edith are not looking forward to such a result, no one is looking forward to such a result, accident, is always beyond our control."

"If you really think it's your fault, then you're too arrogant. You're not God. You can't control Edith's life choices; If you really think it's all your own making, you can't stay in SNIM at all. You'll go to the front and get Edith back in person. "

"You chose to stay in SNIM, which is the most correct and wise choice; You chose to help Edith in your own way, and you were right. Do you understand? Deep down, you know that, and you should believe that, even if Edith is here, she will agree with you. "

Matthew's voice was slow but firm, but Langley shook his head gently. "No, you're not Edith. You can't judge for her."

"So do you. You can't assume Edith will blame you. It's not about you. It's about her. And the only thing you can do is to be strong. " Matthew bumped straight back without any sign of weakness, raised his voice with a loud voice, but then he recovered.

Matthew said, word by word, "you have to have faith, Langley. You need to believe that Edith will come back, and then she will stand in front of you and tell you what she really thinks. You have to believe it, if you don't believe it yourself... "At this point, Matthew's voice stopped slightly. He didn't continue to say it. He seemed to be worried that if he said the following words, it would become true:

If even Langley lost faith, then who can firmly believe in Edith?

In lanli's "beast", we sing the loneliness and sadness in our hearts, "so we have arrived at a lonely place that can't go back. You are the face that let me go through fire and water. This is the name that the children will inherit, casting beauty and crown; Make it perfect and fly away. "

Matthew now finally understood Heather, and finally understood why Heather could not really understand the loneliness behind the melody until he grew up.

Like Heather, they all follow Langley to a lonely place where they can't go back and stick to it with a stream of faith; They are the only company that each other has, the only company on the road of walking alone. If even Lan Li can't continue to insist, will they be engulfed by the beast in their heart, and then they will never find themselves again.

"Lan Li." Matthew called softly.

"..." Lan Li didn't say a word.

"I'm still here." Matthew continued, as the beast sang, "so when you're weak, when you're on your knees, I'll do my best for the rest of the time to keep your vows alive and true." Even if Lan Li could not continue to insist, he would still guard the oath.

"..." Lan Li, still did not speak.

The quiet silence spreads slowly in the interior space, the cold air outside the window is invading, the indoor heating is retreating, just like the winter is coming, the solemn and grand of the mansion is coming, and the strong and inseparable night makes the sense of oppression more and more turbulent.

Sweat drenched the sheet and quilt cover, just as the whole person was immersed in a mire, and then the shallow puddle slowly frozen into ice, from the skin to the blood and then to the bone, inch by inch condensed, time seemed to be solidified in the emotional stereotype, stopped moving forward.

The world is so cold that even the breath of the soul becomes weak.

Matthew didn't give up. He just watched Lan Li quietly, and even refused to look away, as if he was fighting.

This is not the Lan Li he knew, nor should it be the appearance of Lan Li; He knew that he knew that lanli would be tired, frustrated, confused and hurt. Lanli was not invincible; But lanli will never surrender, and never give up. That's why he still has hope for Edith - because Langley still doesn't give up.

"... I guess ALF is not the only one who has become unlike himself." Lan Li finally opened his mouth. His hoarse voice came out from the deep of his soul, with deep fatigue. However, the gently rising corners of his mouth revealed a touch of irony and banter, and the familiar appearance came back again.

Lan Li knew that the self pity and self pity was not his own. He could not even imagine the breeding of negative emotions; But in the face of difficulties, they are gradually losing themselves. The resentment and anger, the sadness and pain, have gradually evolved into wounds that can not be healed, and finally become monsters and demons that they can not recognize. They distort their faces and burst out all negative energy.

Finally heard the voice of blue Li, Matthew's high mood can slowly fall, this is his familiar blue Li.

Suddenly, Matthew's nose was slightly sour. He couldn't imagine what Lan Li was carrying, or how hard and difficult he was.

From small to large, lanli always carried everything in a mature and steady way, so that they could only look at his back and follow him all the way. They see his strength, his excellence and his wisdom, but they can't see the weakness behind his strength. It's like when he achieved egot in those years, he was tired and alienated, just like the kite line had to get rid of the palm at any time. They didn't and couldn't understand it. They just know that he really paid too much along the way.

Looking at lanli with weak vitality, Matthew refused to imagine what would happen if Edith really had an accident.

"But obviously, she's not you, and you're not her." As the strength of his knees and legs relaxed, Matthew simply turned around and sat down cross legged with his back against the edge of the bed. After the tension relaxed, he also felt a moment of detachment. That kind of fatigue surged up like the tide. He needed to rest for a while, just for a short time.

"Matthew."

"Well?"

Lanli called softly, but it didn't connect. After a long silence, he continued to say, "do you believe Edith can come back?"

Matthew pauses for a moment and gives an unexpected answer, "I believe you."

This made the corner of lanli's mouth rise and give out a low light laugh, but because he was too tired, his voice soon disappeared in the deep of his throat. "I hope I can know the answers to all the questions. I pretend to be in the perspective of God to lead the whole situation, but in the end, I'm just a player."

"Fortunately, you are a member of the game, otherwise, our little friends may suffer. You should know that God will not do anything to save an independent individual, right?" Matthew joked seriously that the sense of absurdity made blue's throat laugh again.

"But what can I do?" Langley's voice was a little low: Heather was like this, Paul was like this, and Edith is like this now. He never seems to help. Even if he lives again, he is a mortal after all. There are too many things he can't recover.

Matthew could taste the deep meaning of lanli's words. He said softly, "you should know that without you, our life would not be what it is now."

Lanli said, "I strongly doubt that Edith can agree with me when she stands here. She should be able to express her protest in a righteous way. She will never listen to my advice any more. She doesn't need my advice in her life. Otherwise, next time, she might break up with Chris Evans directly. "

what?

Why is Chris Evans in this conversation?

Matthew was so surprised that he choked on his own saliva and coughed violently, which made Langley laugh with glee.

After struggling to recover, Matthew asked curiously, "did you update Chris?" This is the only reasonable explanation.

"... yes, I sent a text message." Lanli said calmly.

Matthew bowed his head and didn't ask any more, because he could expect Chris's reaction. Obviously, the nightmares of Langley tonight should have something to do with Chris. He didn't think that Chris could calmly accept the facts, and Chris would surely shift all the responsibilities to Langley; But Lan Li could not refute it. In other words, even if Lan Li refuted, deep inside, those wounds still exist.

It's like when Heather died, the crosses put all the blame on Langley - the hurt of those words was more terrible than the pain itself. They need to shirk responsibility, they need to find scapegoats, they need to find people to vent their anger, but what about lanli?

Who should Lan Li blame?

"Langley, he's not worth it." Matthew said softly.

But Lan Li didn't answer. He just lay quietly in the same place and looked at the dark ceiling above his head. It seemed that he could still see the fragments of the nightmare. On his cheek, he could still feel the temperature of hot blood. The smell of blood was always lingering under his nose.

"..." for a long time, Lan Li's voice finally came over, "I know."

The whole room is silent and quiet, and then you can hear lanli's hoarse voice humming softly. The ambiguous lyrics are mixed in the melody, like a lullaby, which shows the softness and pain in the heart, light and fragile, so that people can't help breathing.

"... so we got up and pursued our destiny in the dark. I saw you scarred last night, and I saw you dancing in the arms of the devil."