Chapter 65 - HE WANTS TO KNOW

After EZ had laid into me I was sitting and contemplating what he had told me. He had been harsh but I guess he wasn't wrong. I was running away and being mean to Kyle because I was afraid of my past. I didn't want to repeat the same mistakes that my parents had made. I didn't want to end up murdered like they had been.

While I was sitting there, lost in thought, Kyle came over to me and knelt on the floor. He had a serious look in his eyes, almost like he had something really important or really hard to discuss with me. It was probably both.

"Jacy, tell me what happened to you." Yup, I was right. Important and hard to discuss. For me at least.

"That's a loaded question. It can mean so many different things. Do you mean what happened to me yesterday? Do you want to know what happened before you got there? Did you want to know what made me leave town so fast, or why I ran away from you at the inn?"

"While every single one of those is something I would eventually like an answer to, right now I want to know why you are so against having a mate. What happened to you at your pack to make you leave? Why did a born Alpha abandon her people?"

Those were questions I had received from others in the past. Lucian had asked me those same questions when he met me all those years ago. EZ too, when I told him what I really was he asked me why I left and why I didn't choose to lead my pack.

I guess they were the normal things that people wanted to know when they learned that I had run away from home. The thing is though, it was not an easy topic for me. I know that when he had asked me there was fear and shock in my eyes. I could see the concern in Kyle's eyes when he saw my reaction to his words. I just wondered if he would accept my answers or not.

"I know it will be hard for you, but I need to know these things. If I am going to help you. If I am going to be with you. I need to know who you are, where you come from, and why you're here and not there." He grabbed my hands then and squeezed them firmly yet gently.

"Hahhh." I sighed as I thought about what was about to happen. I knew what I was like when I talked about this stuff. They were literally memories I had been fighting to bury for years.

"Please?" He begged me, taking my sigh and silence as a rejection.

"I'll tell you, but you should know that none of it is easy to hear or easy to tell."

"I will be right here with you the whole time. If it gets hard for you to talk then I will hold you in my arms until you are able to speak again. I will help you through this. I'm not going to leave you or abandon you in any way. Please, Jacy, you have to know that I am in this with you every step of the way."

"I know you will be, and frankly I am glad to hear that. I haven't dredged up my past that much over the last several years. I've locked it away behind iron bars, just like I did to my wolf. I haven't wanted anything to do with my past so there was no need for me to think about it all. But I need to think about it now, I know I do."

"Why? Because of me?" He looked a little hopeful and I didn't want to shatter that, I didn't want to steal that smile that was on his lips.

"Partially. If you are my true mate then it is something that you will need to know as well. But the rest of it has to do with yesterday." 

I took a deep breath to steady my nerves and saw that Kyle was about to ask me what it was about yesterday that I was talking about. He wanted to know why there was something else that meant he needed to know about me and my history. I held up a hand to stop him before he could say anything though and watched as he settled back down.

"You see, Kyle, one of the men who was at that house yesterday will be very bad news for me. If he gets home before I can stop him then I will be in danger." That seemed to shock him. Well, maybe scare was the better word for it.

I watched as Kyle got to his feet and walked across the room to the window. For some reason he shut the curtains tight, instantly darkening the room. I could still see perfectly thanks to my animalistic night vision but that was beside the point.

Once the curtains were shut Kyle made sure the door was locked. I didn't know what was wrong or what had gotten into him but he was acting like there was a secret message or a spy code that was about to be shared.

Once Kyle went and turned on a lamp next to the bed he came and scooped me into his arms and out of the chair that I had been sitting in. I didn't squeal this time. I guess I should just get used to him picking me up since he was an Alpha male and it seemed to be instinctual for him.

Once he was holding me though, Kyle walked over to the bed and sat with his back pressed against the tall headboard. He moved about until he had me sitting on him in a comfortable sort of way. It was all really strange, yet somehow really sweet at the same time. He was trying to make me feel like I was safe and secure in his arms.

I just hoped he didn't think I was some swooning damsel in distress. I am an Alpha too, dammit.. He needed to stop treating me like I was so incapable.