Chapter 192 - The Mourning Parents

It's been two weeks that Ren and Fae spent their vacation in Bali. Fae really enjoyed the tropical island weather and spent a lot of time sunbathing by the pool in front of their room or taking Ren down the cliff below their villa to the private beach.

Bali was truly a paradise and she felt like she was in a dream. Everything felt so perfect!

When they went to the beach, she would play with water and took the seaweed while Ren sat by the beach reading a book or doing other things.

Sometimes, they would do day trips and walking around Ubud to see the Balinese people's lives. The native islanders still preserved their tradition and culture in the villages around downtown Ubud.

When Fae and Ren went to West Bali to stay at Menjangan Island, Fae found that she was very fond of diving and was even good at it. She enjoyed snorkeling and free diving while they stayed in one of the resorts there.

The rich underwater marine life on Menjangan Island really fascinated Fae and made Ren extend their visit there. They were lucky to see dolphins and manta rays when they went on a boat to do snorkeling.

"You will grow fins if you dive all the time," Ren teased when Fae pulled his hand again to get on the boat and went into the ocean.

"I don't mind growing fins ..." replied Fae happily. During their two weeks in Bali, her mood had changed drastically.

The warm tropical island weather, the beautiful scenery around them, the active lifestyle that she and Ren had every day from swimming, cooking together, taking walks to villages, beaches, and mountains ... managed to make Fae slowly forget about her pain and trauma. Her stress level was reduced tremendously.

Her face was now always filled with smiles and it made her look even more beautiful than she already was.

She really felt lucky because finally, she got all the things that all women desire. A good life in a beautiful place and a husband who pampered her. In her life, Fae wanted nothing more. She felt truly happy.

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"Honey ... I think I have to see a doctor soon," Fae said as she hugged Ren on the bed. They were watching a movie on the big TV screen on the wall. "My pregnancy is already 16 weeks in. I want to know how our children are doing."

Ren, who was watching the movie on TV, suddenly swallowed hard when he heard Fae's request. They had stayed in Bali for almost a month and he always managed to distract Fae from her pregnancy by keeping her busy.

Finally, the time he most dreaded had arrived.

"What happened to you?" asked Fae in puzzlement. She had seen Ren's expression change. The man looked at Fae with teary eyes. Fae's heart skipped a beat. "What's the matter ..? Why didn't you answer me?"

Ren grabbed Fae to his chest and hugged her tightly.

"I'm sorry ..." he whispered hoarsely. He could no longer hold back his tears. "Honey .. I'm so, very sorry. I can't protect our children. I wronged you. Please forgive me ..."

Fae was transfixed in her place when she heard her husband's words. Her mind was dizzy.

Hold on .. why did Ren apologize? What wrong had he done?

"Why are you apologizing ...?" asked Fae in puzzlement. Slowly, fear crept into her heart. She was very afraid that something bad had happened. "Ren .. answer me!"

Ren tightened his hug on Fae even more.

"I'm sorry .. It's all my fault. You can punish me .. You can be angry with me. I deliberately lied to you, so you will want to recover..." he whispered over and over. His tears flowed even more profusely.

Instantly there was a poignant scream from their room. Fae wept in a voice that would grieve anyone who heard her. She could already guess what happened, even though Ren still didn't speak clearly about the fate of the two fetuses in her womb.

"Aaaahhhh ... noooo ..." Fae wailed and beat Ren's body in unbearable pain. "I don't believe you... You're lying!! This can't be happening. My children .... Oh my God ..."

Ren couldn't comfort his wife at all. He couldn't even console himself. He could only hug Fae. Finally, he even burst into tears as he hugged Fae tightly against his chest.

He was a grown man who never let emotions overcome him, but today he spilled all his sadness without shame.

He had a very high IQ and was even considered a genius who would solve various technical problems and with deep knowledge of natural sciences, and extraordinary analytical skills. However, he was completely helpless when it came to solving the problem they had now.

How could he console his wife, and himself, to let go of their unborn children….?

He really didn't know how to comfort parents who had lost their children. There were no physics or math formulas that he could use to console them.

"I'm sorry ..." was all he could say over and over.

Not only was Fae brokenhearted, but Ren too. Even after more than a month had passed, his sadness at the memory of their two children had not diminished. It was not something that would become easier to deal with as time passed. He realized that he and Fae would never recover from this.

Fae cried all night and couldn't sleep. She refused to let Ren sleep beside her because she felt deceived. Many times, Ren tried to apologize and coax her, but the girl did not pay heed to his pleas to forgive him.

"If you don't get out of this room, I'll go ..." threatened Fae with blazing eyes. She got ready to get out of bed.

Seeing that, Ren hurriedly touched Fae's hand and calmed her down. "Don't. Let me go. You stay here ..."

Even though Ren didn't love his wife romantically, as a husband, he was a responsible man. He held the principle that if a husband and wife were fighting, then the husband must leave the house because it was easier for men to stay outside. Women had it harder if they were the ones to leave.

"I'll wait in the pavilion until you can calm down ..." whispered Ren in a dejected voice.

"Get out!!! Go! I don't want to see you ever again ..." Fae screamed with all her might. She was so hurt and felt deceived by Ren. 

"Fine. I'll go now ..." Ren said sadly. He took a few items from the cupboard then went out of their room. He walked out of the villa, towards the pavilion building next door.

Actually, Ren wanted to stay behind to hug Fae and comfort her, and shared his pain too, because they both shared the same sadness after all. But he had no choice; Fae insisted on chasing him away.

After Ren left, Fae wailed again and wept uncontrollably. Her whole body and pillow beside her were wet with tears. 

Fae and Ren both mourned the loss of their two children, separately, Fae in the main villa and Ren in the pavilion. It was the worse day of their lives, respectively.

Fae still refused to see Ren after one week.