Chapter 193 - Eye For An Eye

"Fae, please open the door..."

Ren had been standing by the door to Fae's room since morning and called her to come out and see him, but the girl still refused. She locked herself inside and cried nonstop. Her tears were dry, and her body felt weak because she couldn't stop crying.

Whatever sadness she had ever felt in life, it was nothing like what she was currently feeling. This pain was unbearable. She didn't know how she would ever live again...

All her hopes were lost. The light of her life was now gone. The only thing that had kept her going these past few months were her children ... but they were gone now.

"Go ... I don't want to see you ..." said Fae in a bitter voice.

She felt very angry with Ren because she thought of Ren as the cause of their children's death. If only Ren hadn't rejected them initially, Fae wouldn't have left him, they wouldn't separate, and there would be no incident with Amelia.

Ren was also guilty of not chasing Amelia away as what Fae had asked him from the start. Ren had promised his wife he would fire Amelia before they separated, but he didn't. That gave Amelia the chance to get close to Fae and then shoot her.

"You can be angry with me .. you can hit me .. you can take it all out on me .. But please do it in front of me. I want you to punish me ..." asked Ren in a pleading tone. "Please..."

He had been patient for a week. In the pavilion, he also kept wailing and crying for their children. As the parents to the same children, he realized that he and Fae needed to grieve together.

It wasn't only Fae who felt pain and loss ... he was too. And he felt a deeper sorrow because he was also haunted by feelings of guilt.

He could not calm down before Fae responded to him, scolded him, punished him ... 

Today, he heard from the villa maid that Fae had refused to eat since yesterday, and he became very worried. Was Fae planning to starve herself to death so she could be reunited with their children?

The thoughts terrified him. He couldn't let that happen. He couldn't afford to lose her as well. She's all he got now.

"I don't want to see you! Go awaaayy ..."

Fae screamed and cried again. Her voice was hoarse, and her eyes could no longer form tears. She had shed too much the past days.

Ren, who heard Fae sounded like a sick person, became very worried. He then gave a signal to one of his staff. The big man nodded and then slammed his body into Fae's door, which was locked from the inside.

"Fae .. I'm sorry. I had to force my way in. The maid said you haven't eaten in two days," said Ren anxiously as he approached Fae, who was sitting pensively on the bed. The girl's clothes were creased and her face was full of tear stains.

Fae closed her eyes. She didn't want to see Ren. She knew it was futile to throw the man out because he was the owner of the villa.

"Bring the food over here," said Ren to the maids waiting at the door. They nodded swiftly and arrived not long after with trays filled with various delicious foods.

"Fae, Honey .. please, eat ... After you eat and gain back your strength, you can punish me. You can do anything to me ..." said Ren.

"Don't come near me!" said Fae. She brushed off Ren's hand that touched her shoulder. She finally opened her eyes and glared at the man. Her eyes were bloodshot red, and they were filled with hatred.

"Fae ... I mean what I said. You can do whatever you want to me, to relieve your pain ... If my death can make you better ... then, kill me ..." Those honey-colored eyes were gleaming with welling tears. Ren pulled something from under his shirt and handed it to Fae. "Take this. But you need to eat and recover your strength so you can pull the trigger ..."

Fae was stunned to see Ren holding out a pistol with the handle facing her.

'What is this? Ren wants me to shoot him?'

"I've always believed that justice means an eye for an eye, a life for a life," Ren said in a trembling voice. "You blame me for the deaths of our children ... Then, you may take my life to get even."

Fae fell silent. She saw Ren standing straight in front of her with his hand reached out, giving her a pistol. The man's face seemed to be covered with deep pain.

Today, Fae finally paid close attention to her husband's brown eyes. She realized that during the past month, she had not seen the light in those eyes. Ren looked like he had no desire to live at all.

She was used to seeing her husband busy and deep in thoughts about many things. Ren was a thinker, and he never stayed still, not doing anything. But now ... he hadn't done any work or anything at all, and his face was always full of sorrow.

Did Ren experience the same pain she did?

Ugh .. Now Fae understood why Ren had been so caring and indulgent for the past month. He often initiated their lovemaking, and he always released his seeds inside of her.

She now suspected that Ren had wanted Fae to get pregnant again before she realized that she had lost their babies.

Fae bit her lip.

Ren made love to her every day not because he already loved her, but he just wanted her to get pregnant again. When that happened, he would finally tell Fae the truth that their children were gone ...

That's too much!

Did he think their unborn children were like clothes that could be thrown away and forgotten, then replaced with new ones ...?

Fae's tears streamed down hard as she suddenly felt suffocated.

"You think .. by trying to get me pregnant again .. then I will be able to forget my children ... who are already gone?" Fae cried bitterly. "You think they're like objects that you can replace...?"

She slowly took the gun from Ren's hand and aimed it at Ren's chest. The girl looked so disheveled and her face was filled with tears.

"You ... got my children killed ..." Fae whispered in a hoarse voice. Her eyes glint with a vengeance. "An eye for an eye ... a life for a life ..."

BANG!

Fae closed her eyes and pulled the trigger with all her might.

There was a deafening sound of an explosion in the beautiful bedroom.

Fae's body was flung backward due to the shock when she fired the gun. Meanwhile, Ren fell down with his chest covered in blood.

"Fae ..." Ren reached over to Fae's body and caressed her hand. His face winced in pain but he tried to smile. "You ... missed. I told you .. you have to gain your strength back...so you can aim properly... You have to shoot my left chest ..."

Ren rubbed Fae's hand gently. He closed his eyes.

Ren had lost two important things in his life. He felt there was no point in him living anymore.

Right now, even if he had to die, he had no regret.

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh ...." Fae, who had been blinded by emotion and shot Ren, suddenly let out a scream when she realized what had happened.

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