Chapter 385 - Regretting her actions from the past.

Lifen has already thought that now she would not be crying anymore. No one can just come close to her just because they share the same blood. She will not allow it. Relationsh.i.p.s are something that are created and lived with heart. Then how come just the same blood can decide it?

Hearing the excuses or reasons from Rebecca, she did not care and turned on her heels to leave. She looked at Deming and smiled. Her eyes conveyed him instantly that now everything is fine and she was not in any emotional pain.

The man was relieved seeing her like this. He has always known how strong she was from inside, it's just that sometimes even the toughest shell can be broken just by a simple light hit.

When Rebecca saw her leaving, she panicked. It was not what she had expected; she had thought that at the end of the story, Lifen would get emotional and would believe her words. Believing her words will not only make her blame her own father for being a betrayer but will also make her trust in Deming go weak. That would have supported her plan.

But now seeing her leaving without saying anything it was just going out of her plans and the ways she made her assumptions she has taken.

Seeing her like this she quickly lunged forwards to grab her. "Lifen, I know you won't believe me. I know you believe your father over me. I am fine with that but please not leave me like this. I am still your mother. Don't be so ruthless to me. Please don't turn your back at me. I am still your mother. I still …"

Her voice turned more pathetic as the time went. At this point, no one can tell; even she herself had no idea if the words that were coming out of her lips were just a pretense to make her plan successful as her dejection was really piercing her inside.

At this point she only wanted to hear some consoling words from her, as if that was the only way she will be saved. She tried to hold her, moving forward.

But before she could hold her, Lifen turned on her own. Her eyes all cold and fierce, something no one has expected, since she was clearly all vulnerable moments before. "No, you are not! You are not my mother"

She has already made her determination tough, it did not waver at her cries and pathetic condition. Since she has already been abandoned by her once so there was no compulsion on her to be considerate to her thinking that she was no one else but her mother.

"Lifen, I …", Rebecca tried. Looking at her expression, she got dazed. It was not an expression she had expected from her. Her sharp eyes were piercing her soul, making her forget all her words.

"Hear me first. Don't call yourself my mother, because you are not. I don't care about the blood I share with you. I believe in a relationship that is made with heart. And unfortunately I never shared any emotions and feelings with you. So you cannot be my mother. I had a dear mother, when I was child and then I lost her during an accident. Except her I would never take anyone else in my life", she said. Her words come all clean and clear, enough to show her will and true thoughts.

"And about believing my father. Yes, I believe her. to me he was the best man in this world and will always remain one. I don't know what misconceptions you have got in your head and believe me I don't even care about it. You gave me your reasons behind your years ago actions. I heard it but those weren't able to satisfy me. I still feel that what you did was wrong. But again I am no one to judge your decision, so be happy with what you did in the past. Since you were already leaving before, don't hold yourself up. Please carry on. I still have work to attend to, so I will take your leave" she said, all calm and sober.

Though her words and voice were soft and clear, yet her eyes did not leave its fierceness. It was giving a clear challenge to the people to not try provoking her further.

Rebecca was all dazed. She has never thought that a young girl like her was capable of such fierceness and determination. For the first time, she felt regret. She wanted to call her daughter from her heart but she was simply not allowed to. It was not her denying it rather it was this girl who has said that she would never accept her as her mother.

Saying her words, Lidfen did not wait and simply headed upstairs but in the middle of the stairs she halted her steps and said without turning, "Believe me, even if I would have been in your shoes and the allegations would have been true, still I will never choose to abandon my child back. That child would still have been precious to me even if my husband decides to cheat on me"

These words were enough to strike Rebecca hard. She has always thought her decision to be right. But now coming across the other face of the coin, she came to understand that her thoughts were not as right as she had thought it to be.

Crouching down she almost felt that she has lost all her life aims and merits in one go. Like now there has been nothing left in her life that could give her the contentment she needed.

Deming casted one last glance at the scene and then too left to look after Lifen. Though she has said that she was fine, he still knew that soon she would need someone to share her heartfelt words. The actual feeling that she was feeling inside.

Xue Ping Ruo, who has witnessed everything, felt a little bad for her aunt. Looking at her crouching down on the floor, she came forward to support her so that they could leave. She thought that Rebecca was only pretending to be sad at this moment as she has known how tough she has wanted to take revenge on Lifen, so there was no way all her emotions can be true.

But the old man knew the reality. This time the woman who had fallen down was not the one who has come forward to take revenge but was a fallen mother, who was regretting her past actions heavily. Looking at her in such a pity state, he said "That's for what I have warned you in the past and even when you have come again. I have said that you will regret it and here you are regretting it. Now I can only say that leave the revengeful path for which you are aiming at. Hope that now you can see the best in the picture and lead a good life"

He said and then turned and left. There can't be anything he can do. In the past he never wanted to bring this secret out thinking that it would be painful for Lifen, But now he understood how strong her granddaughter was!

"Aunt! It's okay, don't be disheartened. We can think of something different", Xue Ping Ruo said as she helped Rebecca up.

"RuoRuo, let's leave first. I want to go home. I don't want to be here now. I want to go back and take some rest", Rebecca said impatiently. She was feeling a suffocation inside. It was like if she did not leave this place then she would die.

Her niece nodded and then quickly took her away. While leaving, her eyes went to look up in the direction where both Deming and Lifen had left earlier. There was an evil intent in those eyes as if it was pledging inside something malicious.

Back in Lifen's room,

When Deming came in, he could not find Lifen anywhere around. "Little Cat! Little Cat!" he called but there was no response. He turned to look in the washroom but she was not there. He then turned to look in the balcony and again she was not there.

Getting slightly worried, he was about to go out and check in the other rooms when suddenly he heard a soft sobbing voice coming out from the closet.

Instantly he knew what would have happened. Refilling a glass with water, he instantly turned to walk into the closet. Getting in, as he has thought Lifen was there sitting at the corner; sobbing looking at some picture frame.

Looking at her in such a vulnerable condition his heart ached. "Little cat!" he called out softly as he walked to her and then extended her glass of water. "Here take this. Don't think too much about it. Everything will be fine soon"

Saying this he caressed her hair to soothe her inner pain. "Deming, how can she … how can she say she abandoned me because of just a misunderstanding. Am I that …"

"Shhh … don't blame yourself. Everything will be fine soon"