Chapter 384 - You are not my mother.

Rebecca was at loss of words. Though she has too thought to reveal everything in front of Lifen to process her further plan but she has not planned it in this way. She has been planning to portray herself as a victim of the situation so that she could get her sympathy required.

But this old man, Li Liaoyuan has ruined everything. Making everything go tough for her. Now even if she wants, she could not follow the plan she has prepared earlier. It was her bad that she believed her luck thinking everything was going according to the plan … thinking that the old man will not interrupt her process and let her ruin the life of his precious granddaughter.

She has not thought that to create a self – protection shield around her, he will himself reveal the darkest secret of the family. The only secret that he wanted to preserve even if he reached to his grave because of it.

"Lifen you are really taking the things wrong. It's really not your fault. You did nothing wrong. How can you do something wrong for your own mother when you were just a baby at that time. Don't blame yourself like this. It will only hurt mother. Please don't cry anymore"

Rebecca said as she crouched down on the floor. Her tears flowed down from her cheeks.  She was sobbing like she was really in deep pain seeing her daughter so aggrieve but both the woman and the old man knew that there was no ounce of truth behind this pretentious act.

Even after her words, Lifen did not react. Her heart can feel the pain but that pain was not connecting her with the woman. As if her soul was not ready to accept the sudden motherly affection she was showing towards her. Maybe that was because she was feeling like it was only her, who has been wronged at this place.

That was one of the reasons that was making her say words that was not only intended to give pain to the mother, she has come to know recently as well as her own self.

"Don't call yourself my mother. You are definitely not my mother. How can I take you as my mother after not remembering you even a bit? How can I take you as my mother when you have never tried to be one for me? How can you call you as one when you never cared for me while abandoning me behind? Where have you really been my mother? Because I can never come to accept it"

Lifen words were like piercing needles to the woman. Though it was not like she could feel her pain but somewhere deep inside her she could not accept that her child whom she has never accepted as hers was trying to abandon her after knowing that she was her mother. Her real birth mother!

That fact was giving her a tough twitching pain in her heart. She looked at Lifen and again repeated her words from before, "I had my reasons that I cannot explain to you. And I know that you will not be able to understand it too"

"Huh! Really? You still have your excuses on! Even after knowing that in all this scenario, even after not having any fault I took the punishment. You are still trying to keep yourself as the victim. Waah!" she chuckled out in contempt.

"Okay! Fine! Since you are continuously saying that you have your reasons behind your actions and that you were a greater victim then me. Then please let me also know what's the reason that made you take such a strong merciless step. I really want and need to know. Maybe that could bring me some relief in heart"

Lifen said while wiping the small tears from her eyes that was making her vision go blurry. Deming held her tighter as he whispered softly, "Don't make it tough on yourself, Little Cat. Let the matter slide off. If it will bring you pain, then just let it be the way it is. No need to bring the pain to yourself knowingly"

Lifen looked at the man and knew that he was concerned for her. But she shook her head in disapproval. "No, even if it brings me pain, I still want to know the real reasons behind my past. You know I have never known that my past life had such pages that were even unknown to me".

She then again turned to look at the woman, asking her to give her the answer. She was really desperate to know the reason behind everything.

At this moment Xue Ping Ruo came up fiercely. "Lifen, why are you blaming Aunt like that. You are still unknown to the reasons, so you better not make judgments yet. What if, afterwards your own words may bring you a life – long regret"

Lifen has already lost her control and sense of formality and informality. She did not care who was in front of her. The only thing that mattered to her at this moment was that she had her reasons. And in comparison to nothing her reason could die down.

So looking at the Xue Ping Ruo, she said "Ms. Xue, please I am yet to consider you as my cousin. So I expect you to follow the formal relation between us. It would be better if you stick to the address of Ms. Li. I will be a lot comfortable with that."

Hearing her drawing a line in the relations, Ping Ruo felt her rage flaring. Her eyes got fiercer as her fists clenched tight, digging her nails deeper into the skin. "You … you will surely regret your own words"

"We will see it soon. But for now let aunt Rebecca explain first. I also want to know how I will regret my words in future" She said and then again turned to look at the woman from whom she was demanding the answers.

Rebecca too looked at her. After giving a precise thought to the situation, she said "Fine since you wanted me to tell then I tell you. But let me tell this to you father, don't blame me from now on. I never wanted to bring all the story up. It was you who has created this situation. I never wanted to give my daughter any pain"

Li Liaoyuan just looked at her and did not say anything. He wanted to know, to which extent this woman can go in pretentiousness?Find authorized novels in , faster updates, better experience, Please click #._47614128340133834 for visiting.

Deming too looked at the old man's expression and some unknown feeling got into his heart when he caught his tough gaze at the woman. But it was not the time to question it. So he too remained silent.

At this moment the only thing that seemed to be important for him was to support the woman in his arms. To give her the protection that she needed in the tough situation.

"Lifen, you want to blame me for everything? Fine you can do it, as much as you want. I am your mother and will not stop you from doing it. But believe me that was the only way I found suitable at that time. Leaving you was the only salvation I could find at that moment"

"I never wanted you to know how I was betrayed by your father, but since you wanted to know yourself then yes I will tell you how your father cheated me when I had you in my w.o.m.b. How do you think I would have reacted? I had you and was in a pretty sensitive state. I need your father but he wasn't there for me rather was accompanying some other woman"

"I thought he loved me like he said but at the end I was the one betrayed. There was no love in the relationship, nothing like he promised me before marriage. Then how do you think I would have stayed in this house after seeing him getting all close to … in front of my own eyes."

Lifen was all silent on her words. She remembered her mentioning the word betrayal before. At that time, for a moment she too felt sympathy for her but now hearing all these again she was sure the things were not as simple as it looked.

There was no way in which she would believe that her father, who she still remembers to be the best and loving one from her memories can be a betrayer in his own marriage. No, there is no way in which he would be a betrayer.

Looking at the woman, she simply said. "Was that your reason?"

Rebecca looked at her and nodded. "Yes, do you still not believe me?"

Lifen smiled in self – mockery, "Does my beliefs and thoughts matter? Even if it does, still there is no way I would give my comments in it. Your relationship with my father has nothing for me to comment on. But in my view, I will tell you that my father can never be a cheater. He was the ideal man for me and my mother. And he will always be like that"

"And as for you, I can't say. Since I don't know you or your thoughts well", she said, her eyes held hints of this but this time it did not roll down her cheeks. She has already gone back to her composure, all calm. Saying this she turned on her heels to leave.

"Lifen, you don't believe me. Fine! But don't be this ruthless. I am still your mother", she said as she lunged forward urgently to grab her.

But before she could hold her, Lifen turned on her own. Her eyes all cold and fierce, something no one has expected, since she was clearly all vulnerable moments before. "No, you are not! You are not my mother"