Recalling the past
he Xinying stopped talking.
Now think about it, Ji Longman clearly intended to stimulate himself.
She was too stupid to believe her.
She knew she used to cheat herself.
"You really didn't talk to her..."
Although she began to doubt it, she still had to make a final confirmation.
In case, she means in case What if Shen Junquan just doesn't have the heart to tell himself the truth?
After returning home, she felt more and more that Shen Junquan's character had changed a lot. His attitude towards himself was much more gentle, but I don't know how much was due to guilt.
Sometimes she felt that he really fell in love with himself again.
Even if Shen Junquan has said so much about the hot days, he Xinying is still a little tangled.
But she did not dare to ask. She was afraid that her hope would be dashed after she asked.
In her heart, her brother Junquan is superior to her. She is much better than her. Now that she is so ill, she has some inferiority
"Little fool." Shen Junquan can't help but feel funny when he looks at her nervousness.
It has been said that he only had children with one person, but she still doesn't believe it.
Yes, what she lacks now is a sense of security.
"I haven't paid much attention to her since you left." In order to let he Xinying really rest assured, Shen Junquan explained to her in detail for the first time.
He is not a person who likes to explain, nor a person who likes to talk long, but at the moment, in order to make her feel at ease, he is willing to do so.
"Of course, she's more insistent, and you know that." Shen Junquan said, "sometimes my mother gets involved. But you know, from then on until now, my heart is full of thoughts about how to find you and how to treat you well in the next time. "
"Really?" He Xinying looks up at him.
"I don't have to lie to you." Shen Junquan said seriously, "at that time, I seemed to have only one body. If I didn't have to find you, I don't know if you can still see me today."
"That's exaggerating." He Xinying took a cold breath. "I don't believe it."
She didn't believe that Shen Junquan would be so lost for himself.
What she didn't realize was that she used a coquettish tone unconsciously.
Maybe it's because he is not so defensive around him. Now when talking to him, he Xinying can gradually relax.
"Don't you believe that I love you?" Shen Junquan seldom has the mood to argue with her.
He Xinying opened her eyes wide: "what do you say..."
Shen Junquan made a kiss on her lips.
He Xinying pushed him away with a red face, but he was not annoyed.
Since when, the intimacy between them has become a natural and warm thing, which he Xinying did not even dare to think about before. So the direction of things is not bad.
"Really." Shen Junquan repeated as if he was afraid of her and not sure. Then he laughed and asked, "guess when I fell in love with you?"
He is a little special today, he Xinying thought.
If according to Shen Junquan's personality in the past, he would never say so much to himself.
He seemed to realize that he was really attached to his feelings.
"Huo jingnian told you When I'm dead? " He Xinying guesses.
I remember that Shen Junquan seemed to have said to himself that he was almost out of his wits at that time.
Maybe it's not accurate to say that. Maybe it's because he has some feelings for himself after marriage, but after he left, his feelings suddenly burst out?
As soon as she said it, she regretted it. Huo jingnian has not been mentioned for a long time. She is afraid that Shen Junquan will not be happy.
Even if it is possible to confirm his feelings for himself, it is difficult to get rid of the care that he began when he was young.
Shen Junquan did not pay attention to Huo jingnian, but shook his head as usual: "it's time to go to school."
"At school?" He Xinying was surprised and said, "how can it be. You're not... "
Her voice is a little bitter, "you didn't accept Ji Long's confession."
Although Ji Longman's scheming is disgusting to both of them, he Xinying always thinks that Ji Longman was the first person Shen Junquan liked.
"I promised her, why are you indifferent?"
He Xinying never thought that Shen Junquan's next sentence would be this.
"I don't want to destroy you." He Xinying bit his lip.
She remembers her self who tried to be brave at that time, which is a memory she doesn't want to remember again.
After Ji Manman and Shen Junquan made their confession, he Xinying tried to dress as if nothing had happened, but did not want to destroy them.
At that time, she didn't want to be Shen Junquan's wife. Although she questioned whether Ji Longman intended to hurt herself, she finally chose blessing.But she didn't expect that to happen.
Shen Junquan regrets it after he agrees to Ji Longman. He doesn't know why the people around him are Ji Longman, but he Xinying's shadow is all in his mind.
With missing, she deliberately finds an excuse to find her, and intends to get close to Ji Longman in front of her. However, he Xinying looks as if she has nothing to do with herself. She is as generous as usual, and there is no trace of sadness in her eyes and eyebrows.
At that time, Shen Junquan was a little angry. Since he didn't care about it, what was the following for so many years?
He was so young that he didn't even know why he was so angry.
Maybe it's this kind of anger that leads to the tragedy in the future.
If it wasn't for he Xinying's "death", it would be several years before he could figure it out.